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I try my best to focus on the math lessons. I really do. But I can't help but chase after Jerah's emotions, trying to see new faces, new kinds of feelings, with every given opportunity.

And so, with everything he does or says, I try to find new ways. Though chances rarely show up, I find myself putting all my focus on it, thus failing to keep up with the lesson.

"Are you still upset by what my brother did?" Jerah suddenly asks, noticing that I am distracted. I immediately stop thinking about the lame math-related joke I wanted to make, as I see a new opportunity rise.

I put on the most uncomfortable face I can, and say "Well, I still feel his touch on my face. It feels dirty, as if it's been slathered in mud or something, except I can't wash it off. It's cold."

He frowns. "What can you do about it? Won't it go away if you focus on something else, like the lessons?"