chapter 32

Hunter's pov 

I let out a frustrated growl as I walked into my room and lashed out on my work desk, throwing all my school things on the floor. 

I was so mad, so fucking angry at fucking Lia, which is stupid because she's not to blame for anything, it's not her fault that I like her and she doesn't  like me back, it's not her fault that I cant stop thinking about her. 

All I have to blame is myself, me and my stupid heart that keeps falling for the wrong people. Not that she's a bad person or anything. She's not, she's actually quite the opposite, the most remarkable girl I've ever met. She's funny, sarcastic, Caring, supportive and beautiful. Oh God she's so beautiful it hurts. Literally.

She has this energy around her. It's impossible to not love her. she was stuck in my brain like a leech. A leech you kinda like. It's irritating to think of her so much but the constant invasion of my brain is the highlight of every day. I like thinking of her, I like looking at her lips, the thought of her lips on mine drives me nearly insane. 

How did I get so gone? How did I not see myself fall? How could I have been so stupid? 

The worst part of it all is she's in love with someone else, the thought of her with someone other than me alone kills me. It makes me want to find the stupid guy and shove my fist down his throat. 

Hearing her admit how much she loved him, she was crying for him, I had never envied another man so badly

I threw myself on my bed and closed my eyes thinking of how big a scum love is, then my mind drifted to Marrisa, another woman I couldn't quite figure out. 

She had been trying to get with me for a while now and ignoring her was quite easy since meeting Lia, I mean I'd stare at her from a distance instead of talking to her but it was better than confronting a cheating ex. 

But when she cornered me Earlier this week and started crying and whining about how much she missed me  and regretted what she did with so much honesty in her voice I kind of got in this confused state and when she kissed me everything came back for a while, all the emotions, the love I had for her the things we did together,I didn't even realize i was kissing her back, my body was reacting faster than my brain. 

And right now I was in my bed wondering what the hell is going on with my life. Did kissing her back mean am still in love with her, should I forgive her for what she did to me and her conspiracy with Brandy, she said she didn't have anything to do with gay shaming Dylan but should I believe her. 

What about Lia? Who am I kidding, Lia doesn't want me, I knew from the very beginning and still let myself get intoxicated by her and now I feel like an addict, but addictions are not healthy and at some point in life we have to move on from them. I have to move on from Lia Jenkins. 

Am pretty sure this Ron of hers is a stupid rich nice boy, with a stupid pretty face, a stupid great sense of humor and he likes to surprise her with stupid nice gifts because his just so stupid perfect. 

I let out another frustrated groan. You know what,  screw this, I am not spending my time on a person that clearly doesn't want me. 

I pulled out my phone, staring at the caller ID long and hard before getting the balls to make the call. Am moving on from you Lia Jenkins.

"Halo," the person on the other line spoke. 

"Go on a date with me," I started immediately, worried I might chicken out and hung up. 

"Uhmm, Oh my God, yah sure, when, wow I honestly didn't think you'd consider it,"

"Marrissa I am not saying that I forgive you for what you did, but you were a huge part of my life for a really long time, you hurt me but,..... Convince me that we are worth the try," I spoke.

"I know Hunter, I was dumb and immature, I got so caught up in my own life that I lost track of what was really important, the people that stuck by me through everything and you were that person, I regret the decision I made back then every single day, and am just tired of pretending am not in love with you, because, I am, I am still deeply in love with you Hunter." Marrisa replied.

"Okay, can I pick you up tomorrow at around 8," 

"That would be great Hunter, thank you," she replied and I hung up letting out a deep breath. Oh God don't let me regret this. 

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Saturday night couldn't have rolled by any faster and soon I found myself standing in front of Marrisa Knight's modern mansion dressed in deep blue jeans and a black shirt that hugged my arms and torso in a nice way, not too tight and not too loose. I finished up my look with a black trench coat because it was a little chilly tonight. 

I knocked on her door and it swung open almost immediately revealing  Marrisa. She was  dressed in  some type of bohemian printed mini dress and brown wedge shoes. I smiled. She looked nice. Her make up was done to perfection, her ginger red hair in some professional updo. I looked at her face and I got lost for a while when she smiled at me. She was a beautiful girl. 

"I thought you would change your mind, thanks for coming," she said, giving me a tight hug and I froze not knowing exactly what to do. she must have noticed because she pulled back with an embarrassed smile on her face and a hint of pain in her eyes. 

" Sorry, I got carried away,"

"It's okay Marrisa, let's go now, I made reservations," I said and guided her to my car. 

I had made reservations at a nice restaurant on Fifth Street. It was kind of fancy. I knew she would like that, especially because she has an obsession with Instagram. 

And just like I predicted, her eyes lit up when we entered. She was looking all around the place in awe as the waiter ushered us  to our table. Kind of made me feel proud to know I still know her so well.

"This place is out of this world, look at the setting, wow Hunter, you really know how to impress a girl, but then again I should know, you always tried your best to make me happy," she said, looking me dead in the eye at the opposite side of the table we shared. 

I cleared my throat and tried to talk about something else, aware of how unnatural this felt. This wasn't me, so why the hell was I trying so hard. 

By some higher power above, the energy around us soon changed to a lighter one and I ended up really enjoying her company. Marrisa and I had known each other for nearly ten years. She had been my best friend before we started dating and honestly she wasn't a bad person. 

She just kind of got confused when we got to highschool. She had this thing for being popular and when her parents divorced it kind of made things worse, am not justifying her cheating or anything but am acknowledging the fact that she wants to change for the better. 

And she wasn't always like what people think, she was really cool and she helped me get through the darkest part of my life, and I know that girl that sacrificed so much of her life for nearly a year just to stay by me and keep me on my feet still exists somewhere deep down there. 

Maybe I can help her find herself and maybe I'll fall in love with her all over again, maybe this wasn't such a bad idea.