Chapter 34

2017.08.19

I was rested my chin on to my palms while listening to Zarina talking about Daniel and her crush. My pupils made hearts. Sally was sitting next to me and was listening to our conversations making fun of me. Zarina told that her crush came to her neighbor's house to look at the house for rent. She even told that he called Daniel on the go. She said that they were really close. I told them about Daniel wanting to make a conversation with me and us almost texted each other for an hour. I did not tell all the details of the texts because I could not remember. I told them that he loved dinosaurs, absolutely weird and also he had the paper that I gave him in the Ordinary Level to get exam papers. He genuinely told me a way more indirective direct way that he had a crush on me. But I was not ready to tell him that I also had a crush on him. I hesitated and just became friends with him. Everybody could tell that we both had crush on each other. It was so obvious. Zarina was asked by our class teacher. She was a new class teacher, with Lily's incident the previous teacher resigned from the class teacher position. She was scared to deal any more with our class.

"Do you believe Zarina's stories? Daniel and her crush are in different schools and those schools barely talk with each other and her crush does not even know to smile. He thinks he is a tough guy because he has abs and arms." I smiled at her complaints and told "Kind of. Again I am not sure. Let it be. It is not going to harm anyone. And really her crush is such a show off." I remembered when Sally talked about Zarina's crush. I slammed my hand on the table to get her attention and her, "I forgot to mention you both. Zarina's crush (Mathew)'s friend, that kind of short one." Sally cut in and said, "The other gym freak." I clapped my hands and told, "Exactly, he also messaged me about some upcoming competitions in his school." Sally grabbed her lunch box while listening to me. "As if the ones over here will give any chance whatsoever." "Even if they did I will not go. I am on hiatus. I have to focus on my studies. Zarina had been talking too much on the chemistry tuition class that could not concentrate and over here in school, no s*** is working. Mrs. Beth should come soon from her pregnancy leave. After chewing on a spoonful of rice I turned my head to a friend of Jessica and asked her, "Hey did we get an inter-school competition letter from (Mathew's school)." She replied no with a proud face and asked me why I am asking about it. I smiled and replied that Mathew's friend texted me about it. Sally smiled next to me and tapped my thigh. She knew that o was just showing off and was not at all interested in the competitions.

I was the editor of this club. And Jessica's friend was the School Captain now. Jessica and Masha did not pass the test. And it is weird that they appointed a Captain who has no skills in sports or has she ever liked sports. She told us that she had played netball for a while and the sports teacher was present and she could have gone through the records but she skipped it. It became odder when Mrs. Samantha came to our class and called her out and told her that she will get the Captain even before the discussion with the principal. I was standing down the stair case listening. NO! I was not eavesdropping. I stopped when I saw Mrs. Samantha's figure and I stooped and sighed. When I was about to go up, I heard half of their conversation. I continued to walk and passed them by. When I was passing by they stopped talking and watched me go by and then after I had passed they continued their little talk. Just may be because her father was in the School Development Society and then again may be not. But that is what everyone said. I was not sure and I do not care more or less about it.

One of the teachers I never knew came towards me and asked, "You are Anna, are you not?" I was slightly nervous and replied, "Yes I am madam. Am I guilty of something?" She laughed and said, "No wonder they were mad that you did not apply for the School Captain." "I did resign madam. What is it about?" "Most of us are mad that you resigned from the School Captain nominee. We wanted to appoint you but it went downtown. Why did you resign darling?" I was surprised. "I was not interested afterwards and I wanted to focus on studies madam." I wanted to tell her what happened but she seemed to be the one who will blow the news to others too. "Oh! That is okay. You do well dear. Our praises are always with you dear." I gave a half bow and said thank you. I saw her figure going away from me. I was proud for a while and then again I felt upset. I missed the chance did I not? First the Band Captain and now the School Captain. Why do I keep running away from the problems? It is too late anyways. If it belonged to me it will be mine anyways.

A girl from the next class tapped on my shoulder. I turned. "In vain man! You should not have resigned. If you had not, we would have celebrated like hell. We would have had chances to do a lot of things. It is okay. It is your decision." A teacher far away from called out for her. I waved bye at her and told her that I will talk with her later. So everyone knows that I resigned. My heart felt heavy than before. I was scared that I will be bullied and tried to prove some s***-heads who are not worth anything at all. What is done is done, it cannot be undone. Only if. Only if I could travel back. Travel back through time.

2017.09.21

I was having a hard time with the questions they kept asking why I had resigned in the last month. And I was closer to the other prefects than the school captain herself. They would sit around and talk s*** about her and strangely even some of the teachers did. Jessica, Sandra and her bunch of friends always get the opportunities to do any day or a celebration. And also a new person joined in their team. One of my old friend who desperately wanted a position in the prefect, the one who joined in the conversation of wanting it so badly and did not want to give to the present School Captain. She now hangs out with them a lot and pretends that I am invisible. We do not even greet each other anymore. From thick friends to nobodies, just because the power was lying in somebody else's hands. Many people changed with time, some you could not even recognize. It was like I was the only one that everyone could read because I had not changed maybe just for my temper.

I fiddling my legs waiting for my friends to come to the biology class. I now sit at the back row. And Daniel at the front row as usual. But sometimes he sits behind to get a look at me. It is very obvious. And to be honest I love it. I tend to gaze at him many times. I guess the whole class knows by now.

After the interval I came in late along with some bunch of the guys and Daniel was among them. "Hey Anna!" It was Daniel's voice. We were in the classroom and almost all the eyes were on us, no sorry on him. I turned in a very casual and what you want dear look. I saw his friend beaming like a small child when he gets a new toy. I watched him pass by before asking him, "Yes?" "Do you still go to the physics class?" I nodded in return. "Oh! Can I get your book tomorrow?" "Yeah, sure." I saw him going back to his seat. I was in love with is back. Wait, WHAT! Am I insane? …no really he do have a great back. No not the bottom, wait I never looked at it. But I am a pervert. That is an improvement. When I finally sat down, I saw stares and some faces smiled at me.

I was explaining the lesson again to Sally. She did not get the hang of it. While I was teaching her, the Biology tutor came towards me. "Oh you did not understand dear?" he asked Sally. "I did not but now I do." and looked at me. He switched on his mic and told, "Kids if you do not understand ask your friend or you can ask me." and he switched it off and said "Keep it up." I watched the class and got a few smiles from the girls which was odd.

After class we met Zarina. I saw the annoying bunch. It was a sore to my eyes. I just turned my head to what Zarina was saying, "Mathew was watching at me today." But he just passed us not even giving a second look. "Oh, there is Daniel." "Do not look at him nor do smile." Zarina winked at me and gave a smile. Meanwhile Sally was taking with her late friends. I do not get along with them. They always talk in sarcasm. I do too. But theirs is very unclear and sometimes a bit offensive. "Nice, key tag." One of Sally's friend told me. I smiled and said, "Thank you. And I know. Hmmmm" and we all laughed. I said 'Bye' and left.