The Truth

It was late in the evening as Yuna started to twist and turning in her bed. It wasn't her intention but she somehow fell asleep as she was pretending to sleep to keep Sohye from worrying about her.

As she felt uncomfortable and couldn't fall back asleep, Yuna slowly opens her eyes but the first thing she saw wasn't the ceiling of her room but the face of Joo Won, softly smiling down at her.

Yuna immediately push herself up from the bed as she tried to greet Joo Won but he stopped her from doing so.

"What are you doing? You know you don't need to do such a thing when we're alone together. Regardless of my status, I want you to be comfortable around me. Can't I ask that much from you?"

Joo Won caress her face with one hand as the other was gently rubbing her hand. He looks at Yuna lovingly as she tried to avoid his gaze.

Somewhere deep in her heart, Yuna really loves Joo Won and would do anything for him but that is also one of the reasons why she still doesn't want to accept the fact that she's his wife till now.

She knows that if she were to fall too deep in her feelings for him and if she was abandoned yet again by someone she loves, it would break her greatly, and would most probably not recover from it.

To Yuna, she now doesn't care what people think of her or if anybody were to like her. All she cares about is what Joo Won see her as and his feelings for her. Nothing else matters at the moment.

Even if he were to marry a few hundred more or has to forever be stuck being just his consort, Yuna wouldn't mind it as long as she knows Joo Won would only look at her. And because of this, she's ashamed of herself.

On the outside, she keeps rejecting him and pushing him away but inside, all she wanted was his heart. It felt like she was a hypocrite for being such a two-faced person and selfishly wanting Joo Won all to herself.

She felt that if he were to find out what she was feeling and could see what she was thinking, he would definitely leave her for someone else as she wasn't as pure as he thinks she is.

But of course, that is all just one-sided on her part. What she doesn't know is that Joo Won would be more than happy to know that she feels the same way as he does and that he wasn't the only one feeling that way.

How long has he longed for Yuna to reciprocate his feelings? He didn't want to be the only one being obsessive about her and wanting her all to himself.

If he could, he so wanted to lock her inside her quarters without letting her out. He doesn't want other people to know of her existence and how cute and beautiful she is.

That is also one of the reasons why she's been wearing a veil since she entered the palace. Joo Won feels like he would literally kill each and everyone that will look at her lustfully with their disgusting perverted eyes.

Because of this, he had persuaded Yuna to wear a veil so as to keep those eyes from looking at her. At least, that way, only he will know how beautiful and enchanting she is.

But Joo Won knows that if he's too obsessive with her, Yuna will only be afraid of him and will not come to trust him nor come to love him.

So, he patiently waited till the day she would open up her heart to him, and only then, would he feel truly at ease and be the happiest man alive.

Though that was what he planned to do, there is this huge urge in him today that is making it hard for him to control himself.

Just by looking at Yuna's adorable face, as she's having an inner conflict with herself, is making him crazy with thoughts that he promised himself not to do until he has Yuna's permission.

Joo Won feels like the more he looks at Yuna's face, the more uncontrollable his urges get and he doesn't know why. He never felt that way before regardless of how much he wanted her.

But today, he felt like he would go insane if he tried to control himself from doing anything to Yuna the whole night.

Yet as he felt that miserable, he had promised to not do anything to her and he vow to keep that promised unbroken, regardless if he has to suffer greatly every time he is with Yuna.

As Joo Won trying hard to keep his sanity in check, Yuna had finally come to a decision after thinking it through carefully.

She decided that she won't run away from her feelings and to just admit the truth to Joo Won, even if it means that he would come to hate her.

She just doesn't want to hide anymore and she knows that the longer she hides her selfish feelings to herself, the deeper she will fall when Joo Won finally decides to abandon her.

At least if it's now, she still has a chance to recover from the hurt that she shall receive, though it will take her years to fully heal from it.

And maybe, just maybe, she might be able to let go of him completely and reminisce their moments together without hurting and with an open heart.

"Joo Won-ah... I- I have something I want to confess. You most probably will come to hate me and find me disgusting but that's okay. I feel like I have to tell you now before I regret it in the future."

Yuna looks at Joo Won, worried can be seen on her face, as she took hold of both his hands in hers. She doesn't know when she will be able to touch his hands again as she enjoys the feeling of it for a moment.

"Actually... I actually love you. A lot, more than you think I do. And I hate the fact that you married someone else other than me and that you will marry more people in the future. I don't like the idea of sharing you with others, though that's how it's supposed to be."

"It hurts me greatly to think that you might forget me in the future and that you will have no time for me like you use to. I know I'm being selfish but I can't help it. That's how much I've come to love you and that's all because of you. You made me like this, so take responsibility and don't leave me please..."