She (2): Confused
There are times she wondered
There are times she hoped
There are times she expected
Her thoughts ran beyond miles of pacings
She wanted out but it continues
Her heart feels uneasy
Her mind close to empty
Her body feels so weary
Those times are like jolts of electricity
A sound of static
Her ears, bleeding with the redundancy of hummings
How does it feel to not fall in love?
How does it feel to kill those who tear her apart?
How does it feel to just ran away and disappear?
How does everything comes to place and comes down to what she deserves?
Her world rans like a hill, uphill, downhill
Does it matter?
A caring family, fine job, few good friends
The list of good things you could have for fortunate
She felt the guilt of not talking, of not confessing
Suppressing it all inside to see the fantasy of happiness rolling in her sight
To keep it all the way it is
Her faith, her beliefs, her principles
Contradicting and conflicting inside
Muffled cry
The tears didn't appear
Her sobs came out like an evil laugh
Something is wrong
How to put it?
Unsure, unfair, unjust, just like that
©️ 10.07.2018