So many questions

"Oh, and by the way, it's a race." "Your time's clicking go." He said then as a collective group, we all ran towards the obstacles. First was a giant wall to climb over. There were only steep and slight edges in the stone wall. I acrobatically hopped on one ledge to another in quick succession, then after hopping over the cold stone wall, I fell all the way down onto a bed of mud.

I sunk heavily into the mud, and others were falling down heavily into the mud. Getting some in my eyes. I fought against the mud then turned on my power, disintegrating the mud and freeing myself. I jumped over some medium-high obstacles, landing perfectly every time.

I then did a flip over another obstacle, then there was a swimming part. I jumped into the lake and swam fastly reaching the end in seconds even though it was a 180-meter long lake. Jumping out, I was freezing cold, but at this point, there was a wooden terrain and I assumed the path I had to go on was straight ahead. I pace forward at a run.

Dodging trees and other obstacles. I ran for a long time with others behind me. They had been running with me. I was still almost number one. Then one shot a beam at my back. Pushing me forwards and I fell flat on my face with my back bleeding badly and my face covered in mud. I yelled loudly.

"See you never!" My eyesight was blurry, and I didn't see who it was that had shot me from the back, but I could feel my back bubbling and sizzling, almost like bacon. I had a loud sound in my ear and was just in a lot of pain.

I picked myself up slowly and kept running. I spat out some mud in my mouth. It was raining again, not an ounce of sunshine or warmth since I've been here. As I continued running, I left the rest of the people behind. And continued I think I've run a good couple miles now.

And I was starting to get exhausted as my place was slowing down. I was still bleeding and I could feel the blood drop down to my pants and my face having some cuts in it from falling. I was very thirsty tired and my legs were giving up. I had run at least 200 miles.

I kept running through the cold rain. Maybe I should've gone with the armor. This isn't a friendly competition like at Relix academy and you couldn't even call that friendly by normal standards. This competition is straight out hostile.

I kept running and running and running for another roughly 15 miles. Really? When is this going to end? I'm on the verge of passing out. So how am I supposed to get out? Run all the way back? Eventually, I got to a tent that looked like the end it was pretty big.

It looked like only on medical staff was in there with some light painkillers disinfectants and bandages. She looked like a junior. Maybe in training. She looked very shocked when I came in. I sat on a bed and wanted to sleep. "Take off your shirt and spread out your arms." I took off my shirt and spread my arms and she started bandaging around my chest and back her hands were very cold.

It's not like there is any heat conditioning in this tent. She gave me some painkillers, "swallow this." I swallowed with no water and a dry throat and started coughing then got the rest of it down my throat.

"Alright now you have to go all the way back." I nodded and stepped outside the tent. I was a solid 6/10 recovered. Focusing hacht on my wounds and helping them seal I started running back. Just now some of the others from B-block were at the tent.

I started running back but more of a jog. I could still feel pain from now and then but it was still very taxing. I was very clumsy now not being hydrated and was tripping over small things.

My legs were so numb I could feel them acting like machines I was just piloting. I eventually made it to the swimming and swam quickly then the parkour then the mud pool then the giant wall which I just broke through with my power. Looking out upon the large field I looked up and saw the sergeant.

He was looking down at me with a smile. Then I fell right on my head and passed out.

…

I woke up in my bed all bandaged up and everything was sore my limits had been pushed so hard. I felt hydrated but still sleepy. Falling in and out of sleep then woke up finally. It was the middle of the night or almost morning I didn't know I searched through my bed for my phone that had been there sitting on my bed for a while.

I picked it up and checked the time and nothing was making any sense and I could've sworn all of the letters were jumping out of the screen flipping around and just blurry. I wiped my eyes and finally read it. 4 am. I put my phone back rolled over to sleep then heard sniffling.

"Haha." I heard in a cried-out voice. "I love you too." She disconnected from what sounded like a video call. She then started crying profusely. I moved around in my bed more trying to sleep. I assumed she heard me rolling around in my bed. "A- are you awake?"

I didn't respond. "Guess not then." She said. I rolled over to the edge of my bed to look down on her bed. "I'm awake, the real question is why are you?" I said looking down. She looked confused as to why I was talking to her now.

I'm talking to her now because I don't feel like just sitting here all lonely and not talking for however long we're here I'm not here to make friends but I'm not going to not talk to anybody for this entire thing.

I opened up my phone and rolled over towards the wall on the left side to listen to music I hopped down silently from my bed and grabbed earbuds.

A playlist I and Brian had made from our favorite songs. But it just made me want to cry listening to it now. "What's the point of listening to this anymore? I know the point I'm just denying it.

I miss him so much and I can't get over that or stop it.

I miss my friends I miss everything I miss what my life used to be I miss it. But I'll hopefully come back and by then hopefully, nothing will change. But that's just a dumb stupid hope that won't be fulfilled.

Will they even accept me back with how I left them hopefully I did the right thing even though I'm doubting that I did and nobody is going to even miss me hopefully or am I just being unsympathetic and stupid I had people I loved my friends and Brian but hopefully they never worry about what I'm doing and just focus on themselves?

And what they're doing and never worry about me I'd be happy with just a passing thought about me a day even though that sounds narcissistic I don't want to be forgotten like a fleeting drop of water going down the drain that will never come back.

So many worries so little time.

Brian…

I'm worried about her so much every single time I close my eyes every single time I blink she's on my mind what's she doing where did she disappear to? Did she leave me because she had to or because she wanted to was she sad leaving me was I in the wrong for just leaving after she broke up with me I bet she's in the same amount of emotional pain as me.

Even though Sapphire tries to appear invincible in reality she's worried sad and she get's mad but I don't know if she's worried about me is she worried about anybody is she okay with how she just left? Where's my consolation?

She just up and left I can't understand why? She could've at least given a better explanation as to why and what's been going on with her but no. Well, maybe she's been so overwhelmed.

So many questions…