Peace or something like it

Days passed and Troy knew the little spat over the book was more then just a spat. Cameron hid in his room filled with monitors. This was his very own sanctuary. He sat looking from the inside out, at the world. Cameron never really felt like belonged to. He either pushed people away or hung onto them too tight. It was not easy for him to let people he cared about go. Yet he did, and every time a piece of himself went with them.

Cameron childhood made him different then all the other children he grew up with. he learned to carry all his burdens himself. He cared for those too small to care for themselves. The one thing Cameron did have was loyalty, he wouldn't shake once he cared for a person. He also had the ability to disappear and reappear without people noticing. He learned to walk in the shadows and blend in. He learned how to make solid alibi, enmity was his friend and he used it well.

Cameron had nothing left to kept him from picking up and moving. He kept a tidy home and he always had a smile for those he cared to spend his time with. His roommate would explain him as quiet and too himself. Cameron learned to never get tied down to anyone because they where deposable. He was disposable and a ship can only protect those that it can carry. This happens when even hero's never truly see you. When his parents betray him, when he had to walk away for the first time. Cameron had to sell himself to save her. He walked away and became her guarding Angel.

Troy spent months trying to break down Cameron's walls at the clinic. Cameron always had some snappy phrase to derail the conversation. Troy made no headway till he realized the reason why Cameron could disappear. Why he could reappear without being missed. The answer was what made Troy break down his own walls a little. It was because Cameron had spent his life hiding. He spent his life taking care of others. The only way he could do that was from the shadows. Cameron never truly learned who he was, or what he was capable of. Cameron gave away a piece of himself and only received loneliness.

Cameron knew that if he got caught, she would suffer the price for begging. The only way to make her strong and protect her was to keep her away from all of his world. A Sole can tear a person apart for a luxury that only the innocent have. It was impairment that he was skilled in the art of acting cold. His parents that cared for only themselves. They wouldn't accept help from him and they certainly wouldn't pass it on to his little sister.

He only got caught once and the look of rejection on her face still stung. When he closed his eyes, Cameron could see her face. When he opened his eyes, he made the decision. He was never going to make that mistake again. That was the day he learned you can only help someone who will accept your help. That was the day he learned to walk away and not look back. At least that is what he told himself. The true reason he could never move forward was because he always had one eye on her. He transformed her life without her knowing. He did it from the shadows. He set up opportunities for her and she bit. He was her guarding angel even if he had mud on his wings.

Cameron learned how to live two lives, he had to trick those who would punish him. He learned how to do what he needed to survive. He learned to drink to hide from his own failures. He learned how to even hide from himself. She was only reason Troy was able to find any good in him. She was the reason he was saved. Cameron would like to think he saved her. In reality his little sister saved him. She gave him the one and only thing he desired in life, love.

Troy knew he had damaged that trust he built all those years ago. He just wasn't going to let Jane go after he found her. She was his missing piece that Troy had been desperately had been looking for. Not knowing what it was or where to find it. Once he found her, the realization that it was unobtainable was frustrating beyond belief. Having Cameron become his care taker was fates cruelty. Troy took Cameron away from his sister and Cameron took Jane away from him. Troy hated to admit that he felt he knew better. The phrase it could be worse only haunted him now.

Troy knew that it wasn't the book they fought over. Most fights really are not over an object or an action a person does. They are deeper then that. Troy knew exactly what it was. He had discarded his friends for a glimpse of something that could never be. Cameron was here for him despite all that Troy took from him. Cameron was here for him in the moment that Troy was for Cameron. When he most needed someone to believe in him. Troy knew only a slice of the emotional heartache that Cameron faced. Troy stood by his brother's side. He would never let Reese feel rejected in this world. Troy understood why Cameron did what he did. It was poetic justice and Troy had rejected Cameron. Troy had done the same thing that started the avalanche in Cameron life years before. Troy hated the flavor of the karma soup.

Troy knew he had to dig the hole to bury the hatchet. That meant he had to put his pride away and apologize for all of his cold shoulders and rude behavior. Troy knew he had to move on. He hoped that he hadn't done too much damage as he knocked on the door of solitude.