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"So what's your plan? You should've forgiven him, Kane. He doesn't know everything about you. Maybe, maybe he was like that. You don't know each other so you're both hurting. You're not the one who feels that way, think of him too. Maybe right now, he still feel sorry for what happened. You two should talk. "

Only now have I seen how serious Heart is in what she tells me. Her advice make me enlightened. Even before, even to my worst. I was closer to her than Jezley, because of his mouth. But she's right. We should talk. Maybe I can message him? But how? I don't used social media that much. I deactivated my Facebook account. Too toxic there. I just used my Instagram account but only occasionally as well. I'm also busy at school.

It's really like maybe as we get older, we got busier.

It's Sunday and they disturb me in my room early. Even though they were in the living room, I could already hear their mouth, Heart's mouth.

Jezley bought food outside because Yaya Jessa came home because her son was hospitalized. I feel sorry for that. SHe had no choice. She has to work for her children. So she says that she is neglecting her son because of work. She also once told us that this is the only place where he really spent time with us. When he worked for others, he was immediately fired.

"Do you think it was my fault? I'm too immature maybe that we reached this point. I'm so superficial as a human being. It's just a simple thing I'll take into account, but I just made it worse." I said.

"It's not your fault. Both of you don't know anything towards each other. You think you can understand every action shown to each other. That's why you're hurting. You should've talked to him. "Maybe this afternoon." she advice on me.

I immediately averted my eyes. What if he doesn't want to? What if he doesn't want to see me? Because maybe, after what happened when he went to the garden, I just ran to him without saying words. I feel bad and so rude because of what I did. I'll be sorry to him again, that's all.

"Stop thinking he doesn't want to see you. He's nice to you even before. Do you think he has a gut to decline your invite? He's the one chasing you, Kane. If that's not obvious." I looked at her. He wanted to say something more but she didn't go on. I feel curious about that but who am I to push her. It's her choice.

I let out a deep breath. I need to think. We need to get well tomorrow because it will be awkward in the classroom then. We're just classmates in one subject but I feel like the time is playing trick to make it like a one year class. Damn.

"I don't have his number. He's not my friend on Facebook either. And also, I don't use Facebook, though." I said. I really don't want to meet him. What do we do? Exchange sorry's for a damn one hour in coffee shop looking each other awkwardly? It's only now that I'm thinking about what could possibly happen.

"Stupid. You don't want to meet him, do you? Don't act like that. I'll help you. When Jezley comes, we'll eat and then, you'll fix it and then we'll leave. Just make sure you go. " Heart said like she was my mother. I wish I could have laughed at him as he was serious about what he was telling me, when the door opened.

"Here's the food! Sorry it took so long, a bit of traffic now, eh." Jezley said and put all foods she bought us for lunch in my table. We are here in my room. I didn't want to because I haven't cleaned yet and it's too messy but the two of them just kept going so I can't do anything. They didn't seem to care about my room because we were all the same. I laughed there.

"So what's the plan? Will you see him later?" Jezley grinned. I rolled my eyes.

He raised both his hands to me. "Ops, easy girl, I'm just asking. The fuck. You." she exclaimed while opening the food. "Oh, you eat that. You might die later while talking to him." she joked.

"Seriously?! I don't like him. He's not even my type!" I defended myself.

"Really? How do you say so? Did you see him kissing? Did you see him fucking someone?" Heart scoffed. She's looking me in the eyes, reading my expression of what would be my reaction.

Jezley immediately coughed while drinking iced tea. I snatched it from him and also got drunk on what he said. Her mouth is so dangerous well and we are in the bedroom. If we're in the public place, I'll really leave him and let him go. Since the door was left open earlier when Jezley entered, I immediately stood up and closed it. Even if there is no one.

"The fuck. Of course not. And please, let's not talk about that." I said calmly. Controlling myself.

"Okay fine. I have his number. I'll give it to you." Heart said while scrolling her phone.

I bite my burger before turning my sight to her.

"You just say. Just tell where exactly the place and what time." I sipped to my iced tea.

"Maybe you're just being forced, Kane. If you're not ready, then don't push yourself. That will only ruin your mood." Jezley commented.

"You have a point," Heart argued. "But I don't agree that much." she added.

I suddenly feel what to do. I feel confused as to whether I will continue this or what. These two are arguing and it gives me more reason to stop these stupid things.

My room filled of silence. None of us spoke. I feel what to do. I was wondering what a more balanced decision would be. Will I talk or not?

"Okay," Jezley clapped her hands. Like there was light bulb over her head.

"I'll give a choices, Kane. Wether you'll like it or not. You do it or not." my face immediately lit up and so did Heart's. This seems to be our hope again.

"Spilled it." Heart said, curious. I nodded.

"What is it." I said looking so intently to her eyes.

"Okay, here it goes. The choices are... will you talk to him or will you talk. That's your choices, Kane." he seemed a fool for what she said. For her, that was a huge achievement.

Heart was immediately depressed looking disappointed to her. SHe thought SHe could get a sensible answer to this. Sometimes, even though Jezley isn't a bungler, She has a splint on his head. That's their differences. And me? Nothing but a pretty lady.

"So-" Heart was about to speak when his phone suddenly rang.

"I'll just take this call." he immediately walked away and left the room. Jezley and I were left alone. My room filled with silence again. The sound of the AC in the room was the only noise inside. While the chirping of birds can be heard outside. Our house is big surrounded by gate. So nothing gets too intrusive when we don't really know each other. We have guards for safety.

After a few minutes he returned to the room. Her face looks worried. I was immediately nervous. I looked at Jezley who felt the same way. She just shrugged. But immediately her face lit up and she suddenly jumped.

"Finally!" she said giggled. "That fucking Langford called. This afternoon, 3am at 3joys coffee shop." she looked at me. I was immediately nervous. I suddenly grew cold and my knees suddenly weakened. Damn it.

I have to deal with it.