Chapter 9:-Break up

I just don't understand the new development of Des,why is he acting cold towards me,have I really done something wrong ,that he can't tell me this is 2years now of our relationship and why is he giving me cold feet,what have I really done to deserve all this treatment...it wasn't long he reassured me of his love for me ,a few months and a few weeks ago,why this cold feet, I can't still place my hands to what went wrong, I even went to the hostel to pay he a visit but I was told he wasn't around I continued to see if i can see him atleast he should let me know what I did wrong that can't be forgivable ,rather he chose to keep me in the dark,by avoiding me which wasn't nice at all,if it were you won't you be worried what have I done to deserve all this ill treatment.

I wasn't happy anymore,dad credited my account with money,i called to thank him,but that now isn't my big issue,my main problem is Des acting this way towards me, I have sent him a million texts, but got not even a single reply...True we all are in school and each one is trying to be the best,I still tried to make sure we saw, so why is his own treatment different. I can't image life without him,I had dedicated so much time,emotions on him and this relationship, and I had seen nothing wrong with us since the past 2years and even recently for the past month now before this sudden behavior and even though we quarreled we settled. Even when I tried seeing him in school he just waves me off and says Jospehine am busy talk to you later and he leaves why this behavior all of a sudden..I talked to Ashley and Jane about it,they were perplexed cause they knew we were lover birds since freshman why now this behave , I even thought you guys were gonna marry after school,cause you both seemed perfect Ashley said and Jane nodded and replied I agree with her,but what changed...I crying so bitterly and murmuring,I don't know I re... really don't know my both friends hugging me to sympathize with me and to calm me down,cause this wasn't right at all it wasn't making any sense or meaning. I was trying to pin point what really went wrong but can't find any... Most times when I am in the lecture room I seem to be absent minded and this particular day after school, my phone beeped...it was a text from Des...saying he wants us to break up that he can't deal with me physically cause he knew he had wronged me that he was sorry for snubbing me and keeping me in the dark but he seriously can't push through with this any further. Like for real,all this years that we have been together,what was this nonsense he sent..rereading it again a tear dropped from my eyes...I couldn't hold back myself anymore. Everyone had gone out of the classroom when I cried bitterly I didn't know if to go back to the hostel or not I couldn't do anything..I was so devasted..till I started hearing footsteps drawing close to my direction where I was seated with my head bent over...I tried to clean my face to leave, and I heard a voice Hey!! he said...it sounded like Michael's voice..I quickly cleaned my eyes.. so that he won't observe that I was actually, indeed crying..yeah about Michael I and him haven't really been in a smooth path since this 2years but our friendship,hmmshh!!I shouldn't call it that my hate -relationship with him, was beginning to take a turn he wasn't that bad we only say Hey ,hello, how are you,where are you going too. Nevertheless, he has my contact but hasn't even called me once he collected it when I was in year 1 ,can you imagine the other time I said he had something to ask me, that was what he wanted...but he didn't get it that day it was another day when I was coming out from the gent,he had the courage to ask me.

Looking up to see him...Hey I said in a scrubbing tone...I just wanted to leave that area and cry my self out but the hostel won't be a good place to do that, and now that am alone ,here comes Michael...Were you crying ??he asked,I trying to hide my face from him...I sighed ..fhhhv!!no, I wasn't I replied, trying to clean my tears ,He drew nearer and dragged a chair closer,you are ..Phine, he said...please just stop I tried to stop him before I would start to cry again.Am sorry ,he said...but I can't let you be,what's wrong he asked genuinely,I looked at him with so much pain in my heart and eyes, but still saw the sincerity in his eyes,I wanted pouring out my heart through crying it was as if I couldn't breathe, How would i cope, I so much loved Des!!what wrong have I done for him to act the way he did...so I bursted out into tears and he came to sit closer to me to comfort...me, Phine he says I don't know what's going on but if this is the best way you can express your self to feel good am here with you ,I starred at him in tears not knowing what to do leaning my head on his shoulder ,he broke up with me I said out loud still in tears... Michael held my hands...as if ,I would do something bad to my self if he let go...what did I do to deserve this I asked,he promised to be by my side and he even said he doesn't want to loose me to anyone else, was I not good enough or he fell out of love with me and didn't give me the sign so early, I asked or am I old fashioned for him,I dress well with expensive clothings...I was still trying to go on and on...when I was cut short...shhh!! and Michael trying to adjust well to see my face so I lifted my head from his shoulder...Hey!!you are perfect Phine...he just can't see it ,no guy won't want to have you as his girl, talk more of better half,he said and he cleaned my tears and told me I would find the perfect guy whom would love me and value me truly... I looked at him still don't know what to do...he rubbed my hands and said it would be fine...I needed the reassurance right now and thank God he came just in time to give it to me...Hey I said thanks I really appreciate,he smiled and said ,you are welcome...How did you find me? I asked he chuckled and said a story for some other day that's how I decided to start living my life happy with or without Des.