Chapter 12:- This isn't love

Going back to school,I didn't know what to do anymore,Philip was okay and good, we ended on good note while I was at home and I don't know how to cope now that am in school,what of he comes look for me. I was confused if I was to tell Michael or not..I told my two best friends about the whole thing and they were perplexed what are you gonna do?? Ashely asked me..I told her I don't know yet. But I didn't know what I should do...I and Michael kept hanging out together,that it felt as if I was into him,but I can't say for sure,I just want us to be friends and don't want things to end up the way it did with Des! Back to Des seeing him wasnt a problem now cause I was kinda over him a bit but the memories was still there...Philip came to visit me ,one day and we hanged out in the school cafeteria,he gisted me how his work was going and that he was being stressed out,I told he to bear with the work conditions and that things would be alright its just the taste of time. He continued to come see me most time and I loved his company but actually not feeling anything for him..on this faithful day Philip came again to visit me and we went to the open garden under a tree shade we were discussing,seems as if he has started falling for me most times when we chat he acts calm and all,and he acts kinda too sweet around me I don't even know how to feel anymore,there was Des,whom I am trying to forget, and now Philip ,am not sure if I have feelings for Michael,but I sincerely did value our friendship. Philip tried kissing me when we hanged out but I resisted, true he is a nice person, but I don't know if what I feel for him is love. I didn't bargain for all this,it was dad's whole idea. I bidden him good bye when he insisted he wanted going and now I didn't really have much time for Michael but we do see also often...One thing I loved about Michael he listens to you and advises and he is sincere. I began to think about how I felt for Philip definitely this isn't love I just don't know how to tell him I didn't feel same before the condition,dad said his friend gave to him would be called off. I met with Michael that evening and he acted cold towards me...was just giving a one-word response. Hey!!whats wrong ?I asked,nothing he said looking away from me...I felt bad I knew something definitely was wrong but he just didn't want to say. Michael,what's wrong I said trying to make him speak,he turned and starred at me,with a cold eyes...that I was scared something went wrong,you...you...he stammered and looked away and just went mute all of a sudden,never mind, he said I am now dime confused...I turned his face to look at me with my hands he starred into my eyes...I could feel my heart beating so so fast..gosh what's happening to me why am I feeling this way..I have to pull my self together,I took a deep breath and asked...what is wrong still starring into his eyes...you and that guy at the garden you almost kissed him is he your new boyfriend and you didn't tell me about him ,I let go of his face and laughed hard he was shocked by my outburst...he is just a friend you...is that why you are this moody...cheerup wait a minute are you jealous I asked...what??he said,I nodded Emmm!!are you jealous why should I be?he replied...we talked for a while and lay on the grass for a while,before I could know it Michael held my hands and I felt his warm hand ..I went back to the hostel after spending sometime with him...and I realized I wasn't in love with Philip but felt something strange for Michael I didn't know what it was.