Our world as we know it was ending...

You know what's actually the best revenge. Turning back everything they did to you on them. 

It's the most satisfying type. A wonderful chemical high spread through my body after admitting what I did to Chantelle. If they were going to use it against me, what's the point in hiding it? I was never ashamed. I just felt like it wasn't something that wasn't going to be accepted on my part but what's the point in caring about others at this point. It's already out there so my only response is just to acknowledge it. 

Aubrey didn't want or expected me to be open and I don't think anyone would. I just wanted him to publicly admit what he did. I may have to broadcast it if it comes down to it. I had to put things in place for him to spill everything and I might have to use my only power move. 

Sometimes you have to stoop to their level and here is where I make Aaron a stepping stone. I had to avoid Macius for one evening just to pull this off. Typing a message to Aaron seemed so hard to do in my head and it felt physically taxing to draft a message to him after everything. I am supposed to close that chapter on everything but here I was opening old wounds that I tried to heal but all it is a huge scar. 

ME

[Can we talk?]

[After school at your place]

I cringe as I felt somewhat stupid but it's something I had to do if I want to end this entire thing. 

A_A

[Ok 😀] 

I feel like I've thrown away my dignity when it comes to Aaron. Look at me now pulling up to his house to drop my pants for him like he didn't play a hand in ruining the little reputation I had. I can't help but like him. I don't want to use him but how many times has he used me? I know I'm going to have a real hard time going through with this but the pay off is gold. 

I could also be setting up myself to fail but it's not bad to try. I feel like for a long while I haven't had anything I want except disappointment and just want true happiness again and I hope I see that after this. I hope my world seems to shine after this and if it doesn't then that's it. 

"Fuck." I curse myself as I pull into his driveway. I could see across from him the big huge hedge walls of the Venices making me feel guilty. 

"I didn't think you'd be here already." I was pulled out of that sinking feeling by Aaron's voice up the driveway. "I guess you really wanted to see me." 

"Uh, yeah." Now that I'm actually here I'm kinda doubting my ability to carry through with what I planned in my brain. I wasn't Lorel. I'm not confident enough to make those types of passes. Just hearing him makes me feel light headed. "Um." I straighten up and make eye contact. "Yeah I do need to talk to you." 

All I have to do is distract him enough to steal his phone right? 

"What's up?" I guess he's still maintaining the hostile mentality. "I thought you weren't ever gonna speak to me because I'm the worst." Oh yes I did say that. "Well what now then are you here to tell me more of that." I already made it clear this morning I'm not talking about that. 

"No, I'm here cuz… cuz-" It felt caught in my throat and I could feel an actual real emotion bubbling behind that. "Because I still like you." It felt weird saying it. 

"You do? Am I still the most shitty guy you know? Zayn I'm not gonna throw away myself for a guy that thinks so bad about me. You don't even know when I'm being genuine. I've liked you for so long but the problem with what we'll ever have is you would acknowledge me because of reputation. We are both on different sides now. Remember I'm avoided because of what I did to you and I don't really blame you or them. I might really be the worst guy at school." It felt good to hear him say that it made tears prick my eyes and I felt somewhat vindicated. "As I said I like you so much you don't even know but I'm and I know you know we can never be." I feel like that stung. 

"Isn't it crazy I miss what we never had. I miss being oblivious to all of this. I like you Aaron."

There's a glint in his eye that moved me that made me feel a chill run up my spine that made my breath hitch that made me feel hope again that just maybe there will be a payout. "You know what, we were never together officially but do you want to have break up sex?"

"Huh-" I mean that was the goal in the first place but I was supposed to be the one to preposition it. "Ye-yeah!" I smile slightly but am so unsure. There's a slow burning feeling I feel all throughout me as I look over at Aaron who just propositioned me. 

"Gimme a minute." He disappears down a long hallway and this is where I seize the moment. I feel like I've seen his password a few times but never used it because that's a violation but now the reason outweighs that. I scroll down to Aubrey's contact. 

[Hey do you want to finish that last season?]

[Come over now]

I hope this works or I'm gonna be stupid for this. I'm actively cheating on Macius just for revenge. He doesn't deserve it. He's been so good to me so far. I kinda feel like we're not on the same wavelength but I've been having so much fun with him I forget about that. 

"I'm back." Aaron announces as he walks back in and it starts to set in where this is leading as I glance at the lube in his hand. Hell I wasn't thinking of going that far. I'm really going to cheat on my boyfriend with the guy I would rather be with. I could never tell him in real life. I could never verbally tell him that or fully share my feelings about Aaron. "Are you sure you want to do this?"

"Yes." 

"Okay then." I feel like I'm here, degrading myself for a guy who may or may not have real feelings for me after he put me through a lot of bullshit and humiliation. Maybe I have a thing for that. I'm allowing him to roam my body despite all that shit. It feels cheap but it feels good to be near him. I do hate him but it's hard not to have these feelings. I could see over Aaron's shoulder, through the window the outline of Aubrey walking up the driveway and now I could see everything falling into place. I know he wouldn't see it coming and neither would the idiot between my legs. 

"I did all that for what then?!" Aubrey barked as he stood in the doorway causing Aaron to jump away. I just roll over and grab a cushion from near me to cover up. 

"Why the fuck are you here?" 

"Did you call me here just to rub it in my face, huh? I did so much to get you and yet here you are with the boy you're supposed to hate?! You are supposed to like ME! ME ME ME! I'm the one you have to be with, not him of all people. I put everything in place just for you but you never paid attention to me. He doesn't want you all; he sees you as a tool to try out his sexuality. I like you, I love you. I'm the one who sees you none of them do! Just me! I can be your long time boyfriend. I fucked him over for you to see me but my mistake was making you his only friend for a while. I tried to fix that but for some reason you still liked him right after he slept with Renee and I call that stupidity. SEE ME, like me, not him." 

I feel so happy my phone is hearing all this. I felt like a crazy person for a long time and now this is my long awaited revenge in the same way he did to me. 

"It sucks that you can't see what's in front you. I didn't set up Chantelle for nothing. I failed a relationship for nothing then? I hid those pictures for you and I set up Daniela while putting everything with him on the line and this is what I get in return. I should have let them spread like wildfire. When I replaced Saintclair's meds you think I thinking oh he's just gonna fall for the loser, no i didn't" 

"AND DID I ASK FOR THAT? ALL YOU EVER DID TO ME WAS FUCK OVER MY CAREER AND REPUTATION!!! DO YOU THINK SOMEONE WANTS SOMEONE LIKE YOU? YOU'RE SOCIAL SUISIDE AND NOW I'M SOCIAL SUICIDE!! NOBODY WANTS US AND I SURE AS HELL DON'T WANT YOU!!" Aaron shouted at Aubrey who I kinda feel sorry for, more sympathetic. "You ruined everything for me. I would rather fuck the guy that hates me than the guy that ruined everything for everyone!" I smile to myself in glee, savoring the moment. I knew that my revenge was finally complete. 

"You think this is funny huh? Bet you're glad to be where you are right now?" 

"Of course I am because I'm the one fucking him." I giggle as Aubrey turns redder than watermelon pulp.

"And you're still as much of a dumb ass. Why the hell would you sleep with the guy who pretended to be your friend and liked you and made fun of you behind your back. You're a fucking joke." He throws in my face. 

"You're a joke. Aren't you the same one who tried to split all my relationships for him." I say from the comfort of the couch. I could see that got to him. 

"Aubrey, can you leave? You're doing it again. You're fucking it up. Don't make me hate you more than I do."

"I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna share the picture cause what's the point in spreading everything if you won't even take me. I never liked you until I realized how perfect you were and nobody else sees that. I can change for you. I'll stop everything." He grabbed onto Aaron's hand as he dropped to the floor. This was becoming hard to watch. It's pathetic "What's so good about him? 

I can do it better." 

"What's so good about him is he's not you. You're just not the right guy not for anyone. You're just destined to be alone. The only person who would like you is Misery. They must be as low and dirty as you and have nothing else good coming into their life. Try searching for them because I am not the one." He flicked away Aubrey's hand and I could see that switch flick for Aubrey behind his eyes. 

"You know what. You're the same. I hope everything stays as bad as it is now and nothing good ever comes to you again. You'll never have that career you want and I'll make sure of that. He'll never truly want you because the worst person on his planet." Aubrey brushes back his hair as he stands to his feet. "You're not worth it like I made you feel. You're just as awful as everyone else. You like to act as if you're morally better because you had thoughts and regrets but you still did it and you played a bigger role than all of us. It was your best performance and it was your last. I could see Aaron doubting himself hard from Aubrey's words. "I don't regret telling Renee to go after Saintclair after your break up because now you deserve it. I don't regret teaming up with Mormon for anything. I always knew he was a valuable asset to the club but he had to see it coming when Saintclair threw him down the stairs. We're all fucked up and you can't pretend you're not. I know what I did and you still pretend like you didn't give this guy false feelings throughout everything. Zayn, would you ever actually have a relationship?" That question took me by surprise. I glance back and forth between them but they both already know my answer so my silence is an answer itself. "See! He doesn't want you! YOU"RE BEING STUPID AND DELUSIONAL! He can't answer."

"Aren't you also being delusional by still being here begging me and doing all that bullshit for me as you say. I feel like you're just trying to tie your actions to another person. Just say you did all this for your own satisfaction. This all started because you just like to see everyone else be shamed. STOP! Just stop, I'm done with this." Aaron sat beside me on the coach with his head in his hand. "Just go." He waved his hand to send him away to make Aubrey cry even harder and make me laugh. 

"THIS IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL!!" He picked up something from the center table to haul at me but Aaron tackled him. 

"Stop the stupidity and get the fuck out my house. I'm calling security." He grabbed his phone to dial the number and it shook Aubrey just a bit for him to drag himself out reluctantly. Aaron sighs as he drops to couch again. He glances at me and I give him a half smile. 

"I feel like this has been a little too much for me. I'm… gonna go." I stand to my feet and grab my things. 

"I'm really sad things didn't go the way I wanted. I know there might never be a moment like this ever again."

"Yeah maybe."

"Well I guess this is it." He sighs as he runs a hand through his hair. "This is the end of the line for us."

"Yeah."

"I want you to know I will always carry a torch for you no matter what and even if we never speak again I'm always here for you, loving you from far." I knew this was gonna be hard to deal with. I knew I was gonna have a hard time when it came to the end of this. I can't help myself from wanting just one last kiss from him. It's human. This would be the last as I know it and I hate myself for it. Our lips crashed together like the world was ending and it kinda was. Our world was ending and that's ok. I can live with that. We can both still love each other from far distances.