Chapter 21

Alice's POV:

"Come in"he walked in and sat beside me on the chair where Jay was

"Hey"I said

"Ali....how are you doing?"

"Why does everyone keep asking me that....Urghhh am fine...I'm awake now"

He just chuckled and said "yea we can see that but we don't know if your really ok"

"Yea am good thanks for your concern"

"Ali...I know this isn't the right time but am really sorry for everything.....I didn't know she was going to kiss me and i didn't invite her....hell I don't even know why she was there because I was supposed to meet with her boss she is just very clingy and am sorry for that...please don't run away from me...I'm sorry"he looked different from the last time I saw him,he looked kind of broken and I felt bad for making him that

"It's fine Zander,I forgive you"

"Yea thank you for believing me"

He looked like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders and he smiled which made me smile too till I remembered what I had to tell him making my emotions change

"What wrong Ali...why are you sad"

"Uhm...there's something I want to tell you"

"What is it?"he looked concerned

"Uhm..."I took a deep breath before I said "I have cancer"

He looked shocked at first then he stood up making my heart break at that because it felt like he didn't want me anymore

He left the room making my eyes shed the remaining tears it had then I felt like I was suffocating meaning I was having a panic attack

I kept on pressing the red button beside the bed making an alarm go off before I saw doctors running in and everything became dark which I was grateful for once again maybe if I died this time it would be good at least my love ones know that I love them so much

Zander's POV:

When I heard she had cancer I didn't know what to do at that point

I didn't know what to say so being the idiot that I am I left her room without saying a word

I didn't want to leave ....I wanted going over to the store at the other side of the street to get her flowers and a teddy as a sign for the words I couldn't express

I was almost at the door when I heard an alarm going off and I ran towards Alice's room to see that it was indeed her room and I felt mad at myself that I caused that to her

She looked pale and the doctors were trying to help her with the oxygen and after a few minutes we saw the heartbeat monitor was in a straight line meaning her heart stopped beating

I began praying that please the lord should save her

I saw the doctors use something like an electric iron shocker or something to try and revive her at the last try she came back making me happy

The doctors said I should leave the room that the need to do some checks and I should call her family

"Who are you by the way"the doctor asked and I said the only thing that came to my head

"I'm her boyfriend"

"You seem like a good boyfriend..you care so much about her"

I smiled weakly because if only he knew I was the one that caused this he would hate me the way I hate myself at the moment

I left the room so I could call Jason and give the doctors space for them to do their work

"Uhm....hey"

"Yo what's up"

"Uhm...the doctors need you in the hospital"

"Why what happened"he sounded concerned

"Uhm Ali actually had a panic attack and she's wasn't really responding"

"What!!!...what the hell did you do"he said with gritted teeth

I was kind of scared at the tone he used "I walked out on her when she told me she had cancer...and"he interrupted me

"You dumb ass you hurt my sister for the second time after I forgave you the first time...how could you do that when she is in the hospital...when I get there I'll beat your ass up...I forgave you because my sister loves you and you love her back but your dumb as fuck"

"Jay relax man...your misinterpreting it wrongly"

"I don't give a fuck...I had a feeling not to leave you with her"

"Jay what's going on"I heard from the background guessing Maddie heard us

"Nothing serious sweetie...I'm just having a talk with Zander..go back to sleep okay...I'll be running some errands I'll be back in a hour and don't open the door for anyone okay?"

"Okay...say hi to Ali during your errands"I heard the door close before he said to me

"Get the fuck out of my phone"and he hung up

I was in the hospital pacing up and down after a few minutes I saw Jay coming into the hospital with a furious look and immediately he came close to me he punched me in the face which hurt but I deserve every punch from him for everything I have done to his sister

"You are in luck that my sister is in love with you if not I would have done more damage to your pretty boy face"

When he said the love word on phone I thought I misheard him but when he said it again it made me more mad at myself

"You said she loves me?"

He looked at me and rolled his eyes "yes dummy she does...it was very hard for her to come back to herself after you left her and you did that again...why the fuck are you still here by the way?"he said with gritted teeth

"Your misunderstanding me Jay....I didn't know what to say when she told me that...I didn't want to say anything that would make her feel more sad because I can be that dumb...so I left the room to go get her flowers and a teddy to express how I felt and I wanted telling her I love her when I heard an alarm and I saw doctors running into her room...I was so heartbroken....even the heartbreak I felt years ago when we weren't together wasn't as bad as this Jay...I feel so lost right now"by this point I was crying

Few seconds after my speech Jay hugged me and let me cry on his shoulders

"I know let it all out man....it's not bad to cry sometimes you know....I know she would forgive you...it's okay...sorry I punched you I was just mad at the moment...go buy the flower and other stuffs I'll be here okay"

I smiled weakly "thanks Jay...I really appreciate it...and I deserved the punch"