Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“They look like they’re having a good old time,” said Todd. “Like this is a party or a picnic or somethin’.”


“Yes,” said Sam. He thought of the things Garrett and Gus had told them about the trip and wondered just how many of these folks realized what they were getting into. Maybe it was better if they didn’t know.


“I been meanin’ to ask you somethin’,” Todd said quietly, looking down at his hands, which were nervously rubbing his thighs.


Sam regarded Todd’s actions and then looked up at him. “What’s that?”


“Well…” Todd paused. Well,” he said again.


Sam inclined his head forward as if to urge him on.


“Gus wants me to sleep with him tonight,” Todd said in such a rush that the sentence sounded more like one word. When he finished he did not look up at Sam; he just kept rubbing his legs.


“Oh, I see,” Sam said, pursing his lips and nodding. His immediate reaction was, That means Garrett will sleep with me.


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