Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

Brian made it to work with ten minutes to spare. The renovated corner brick building in downtown was an icon, and he felt a rush of pride as he knocked at the back door. A man in his forties greeted him.


Brian said, “I’m supposed to start work today as the new helper.”


The man said, in an Italian accent, “Go to the front and see Rico.”


“Thank you.” He walked through the kitchen, feeling like he belonged. He became a camera with the shutter stuck open, seeing everything, including the walk-in freezer and refrigerator. The place looked spotless, an important issue to him. Groovy!


His dad loved the place, even though it was pricy, but whenever they could afford it, they ate here. Brian had applied for the job because he’d overheard waiters talking about needing a morning helper. The owner had recognized Brian as a customer and had hired him.


Chapter 21