Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

The guy, Brian’s age but taller and heavier, wandered over, wearing a gentle smile. “Let’s see what moves you got.”


A friendly game ensued. Brian worked up a sweat and shed his T-shirt. They played like sportsmen with no cheap shots, but with occasional brushes of their bodies that Brian liked. He wondered if the guy did some of them intentionally. For someone rather poor at sports, Brian made some baskets. After a while, panting in the hot sun, they called a stop, heading to the water fountain, taking turns.


The guy offered his hand. “I’m Dylan.”


“That’s an awesome puka shell necklace. I love it.” He brushed his finger over the necklace Jim had given Brian, letting his hand linger.


“Yeah, just got released from prison, so I’m living with my mom down the street.”


Chapter 23