Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

No one in the gang appeared huge, but all were bigger than Brian and Jim. They looked mean, wearing leather jackets or vests, headbands, and some had visible tattoos.


“Always keep fighting, never give up!” Jim whispered.


The same guy spoke. “We’ll take wallets, cash, watches, and jewelry. Tourists always have nice jewelry.”


Another pulled a pillowcase from under his jacket and opened it, obviously expecting loot.


Brian took deep breaths to keep his voice deep and heart calm. “Leave us alone.”


“You must be faggots, because only queers visit San Francisco, the queer capital of the west.” Another guy pushed Brian, who was too late in blocking it. Fear filled him.


Another one, with a mean facial scar and long thick mustache, said, “Hand it all over and we’ll let you live.”


Brian’s heart raced and his skin tingled. His gut tensed. “No way.”


Chapter 78