For that stupid woman

The moment the news that Mrs. Saverieda has already woke up, I am immediately in their private hospital even if it has just been an hour of me laying down on the bed.

I felt foolish wearing a white simple dress just to see her but I felt like I wanted to dress clean and white the moment she'll look at me. Just…something refreshing after her days of seeing darkness.

But of course, in my eyes are my yet again attention-seeker black sunglasses to guard my crude eyes. I placed my over-the-shoulder hair back to look sleek and on point too.

And I snatched Rex's keys on his empty room to ride on.

I reached the hospital with eyes on me again. I have a reliable source when it comes to her room number— the machine gun man— so I didn't have to ask the help desk for that. Walking with the tip of my pointed nude heels on the hospital floor, I slid a card I found on Rex's dashboard, with his name, on it. I know it is for it because it has the logo and name of the hospital.

The door immediately opened revealing the girl Remus had the first time I saw him. Her eyes immediately threw shades on me, in contrast to Mrs. Savereida weary eyes.

"Aesha,"

Despite the woman on her side, I continued walking near Mrs. Saverieda to check her state.

"German asked me to come," I lied, placing a fruit basket on the cabinet near the bed.

Her eyes twinkled and her lips smiled to throw me another kind remark. "I immediately felt energized seeing you after a long sleep, dear"

I saw how the woman with us grimaced on that. "You also said the same line to me, Mama,"

"Oh, dear. Of course! It was nice seeing my son's girlfriend and my favorite mafia woman on my side after a not-so-joyful slumber!"

Oh.

Dramatically, at the mention of that, the door revealed the great boyfriend inside. His eyes flew to her mom first, then on the girlfriend.

He frowned when he met me.

"Son,"

On my peripheral, I watched him walk to her girlfriend's side to check on her mom.

"I'm sorry I am late for a bit. Something happened and needs to be fixed."

I remained silent, noting the double meaning of his words.

"What happened?"

"Just someone's random meddling on a judgment day... "

"What?!" I froze in my position when she turned to ask everyone in the room. " Who in the right mind would meddle that?"

Remus placed a brief kiss on her mom's forehead before throwing me his resentful eyes.

That's when I realized I had to go.

"I should get going now." I excused myself impatiently. "See you at another event,"

Turning my back on them, I exited the door cooly but in the middle of it, I overheard Mrs. Saverieda's rash farewell and Remus's baritone voice.

"Take care!"

"Excuse me,"

I continued walking morbidly when I sense him nearing me sooner. I noticed how the nurses and other medical personnel bowed and beamed at the owner of the hospital.

Yes, it is his own private upscale hospital.

A very known hospital of the richest in the country. He is that successful and rich! Enough to be a sugar daddy.

I am already near the sleek gray glass door when his hand slide on my waist. And because I still have the decency left to not make a show when everyone is watching, I didn't rebel when he entered the elevator together with me on his hold.

I loathe cheaters. I freaking do.

I met a known mafia guard judging me from afar so I removed my sunglasses off just to glare darkly at him.

I am not a mistress. Specifically not this puppy's mistress.

The moment it closed, I moved away from Remus to goggle only at the front. I didn't know what floor he pressed in because I am too entitled to not look at him or to anywhere that shows him to me.

We endured a wordless ride, with him staring at me as I become a stoic acquaintance once again. The elevator opened and I got irritated again when I saw that more people are on the specific floor.

I remained silent but my tight lips should have scared everyone so they immediately returned on their works.

They are lucky something is covering my eyes. Or else they'll be burned for life.

We entered a wide, sleek, and clean gray and black office. His title immediately stop my eyes.

CEO.

Removing all the fake facades, I turned to snap irritatedly at him but I got stunned when I saw him more irritated than I am. And I don't know if we are mad at the same thing!

"What's your agenda again?" I started a fire.

I noticed him tense immediately at my words. "Can't we just talk properly first?"

I gave a sly smile because I feel irritated talking to him again.

"We have nothing to talk about if that makes sense."

He mockingly looked at me before uttering something more foolish and nonsensical.

"Tell me what's up with Darius and you,"

That's not a topic.

I twisted my lips knowing where this is heading again.

"Who are you?" I counter back. "Ah, you are my father's best lad. Did he order you to ask abou-"

He immediately closed the distance between us, towering over me. The alcohol on his breath reached my nose. He has time to take a sip, huh?

"Then what are the requirements?"

What?

"I want to revise your definition of me. I wanted to try and enter in your damn forbidden life."

Ridiculed, I removed myself in front of him. "I loathe cheaters."

His eyes turned judgmental on me. "Yet you were immediately seen with two men after that night."

On how the tables have turned, I don't know.

Why is everything suddenly on me?

Words are coming out of our mouths and I do not like where they are heading. Having this kind of talk alarms me.

Why me, being with men is an irritating thing to him?

And why him having a girlfriend is suddenly a concerning thing to me?!

I thought we have ended well that night? I thought it was enough to stop our thirst? Why do I feel like it worsened?

"What happened? Have I not sated you well that night? Do you want more? Let's reschedu-"

He moved his jaw, tensed. "I am fucking whipped to your body, sure! Yes! But it is not what I wanted to propose to you that night. I tried hard to, damn it!... contain myself just so we can talk! But you were fast gone when I've calmed my fucking self up-"

"Can we not?"

His brows furrowed at my question and his lips parted at it.

"Are you angry because I left-"

"This is also not what I am asking for." I continued.

His eyes darkened and I sense him anticipating an opposition... but none come out so I added more.

I've been deprived of a lot of things. Family, friends, home, childhood, youth...innocence. And right now, I'd rather spend my time living alone than risk it to someone I wasn't sure about. I do not deserve to be deprived again, at least not in this aspect.

I am scared to also die and have him just laughing it out loud. My whole life is already terrible, I can't let my death be ruined like that.

I do not want that for myself.

And in the end, it all falls down to...me...not ready for this treacherous thing.

"I don't want you in my life yesterday, today, moreso in the future. Stop."

He looked up, making me see how his adam's apple moved when he did a deep gulp. His fiery eyes roamed on the room and his unrelaxed jaw moves to clench again because of the unsaid words he chose to not speak off.

I know what he is pursuing me for. I am not a clown to not have a grasp of his words and their possible meaning. I also understand that he is saying that he is not after my body, but for something inferior to that. It's just that when his words comes out, my traumas clouds up my mind, making me skeptical to comprehend better. Creating a way to direct me to a different concept...and that is scary.

I am scared of being scared like that. It was like it was telling me to push everyone around and not hear of their words. A defense mechanism because its knows that I am starting to take a route on something shady.

I tried hard to be who I am today, I can't just easily bend to things like this. Especially not for someone like him.

Not for someone who stole my first kiss without permission.

Not for someone who made me weep and small when I showed him my body.

And above all, not for someone who follows and worships the first man I love and now despise.

My father.

At the silent moment, a ringing phone disrupted my trail of thoughts. I glanced at my phone but the screen is just black. It is not mine.

"Hello," his voice is strained when he placed it on his ears. I just don't wanna assume that it is because of what we have right now.

"The woman is getting ready to be disposed by Rene," I heard a familiar voice say.

Alerted at the possible woman they are talking about, my eyes zoomed in to eye the name of his caller.

Miana.

At a fast pace, I did fast strides to rescue the blonde once again but someone placed his whole body to block me on my way, making me almost kiss his neck.

"You will not go there,"

I move on the side to counter his blocking but he also adjusted.

"You do not have a say on what I want to do. Move out of my way."

"Remus, who is with you?" I heard Miana ask in the background.

I glared at him.

"You are not leaving to save that woman again. I won't permit another sabotaged plan." he firmly declared. "She wronged the mafia,"

"She didn't!" I answered him with my voice getting louder because of the tension building up on me.

They can't do that to me! We voted I would make her talk!

"Then tell me who did it."

My mouth gaped when I realized I had no explanation for that.

I tried to look for more answers when his palms held me in my position to securely prevent me from leaving, but I got stucked finding a feasible defense so I spat what my gut feeling made me believe.

"She shouldn't be there. She is stupid, yes! But she is innocent! All of you are pointing your fingers to a wrong-" I tried to reason a pointless point to a mad man.

And I failed.

"That woman's doings almost killed my mom." he inserted in, eyes darkly looking at me as I blabber a defense for the woman.

That locked my lips.

He suddenly withdrew his palms on me and moved sideways to let me face the door, fully unguarded.

"Alright leave"

"Try and leave and I won't consider you ever again. Don't come running at me because I won't be shielding you anymore."

My words got stuck in my mouth. I glanced at him and saw how he is intensely serious about his warning. His eyes are blank on me and his lips are tightly shut after those words. What frustrates me is I do not have evidences to throw at him! At them!

I did a second thought at his impulsive approval of my departure. I better leave, but something is making me root my feet on the floor.

"Is that Aesha?" Miana's voice in the background snapped inside my head.

"Then don't. Why are you even involving yourself to me?"

He threw me an absolute glance and that is when I realized that this is it. This is how it should be. The end I wanted to see. I fully removed myself out of his territory when I decided to open the door to leave for that stupid woman.