Truth for Truth

"I killed my own father" the words came out too easily as my thoughts waiver back to that unfortunate day. "Who will believe you?" I ask him, hate filling my veins.

"Some may not, but enough to make your people doubt" he fires back as I wish to kill him more than anything in this very moment as he holds my honesty hostage.

"Never doubt me" I remind him, his face inches from mine, "Would I really tell you something that would question my throne?" I challenge him as I chuckle.

"I silenced the historian once, my only problem is I forgot that the dead don't talk" I say, turning my back on him as I write a reminder on a scroll.

"You kill whoever questions you? How many have you killed?" He ask me a diabolical question as I turn back to him, facing him again, my face close enough to feel his breath on my nose.

"Let's be clear" I start, my glare festering on him, "This is not my fault, this blood will line your hands not mine! I am not one for second chances, and you are a tempting addition to the already gruelling list of "accidental deaths!" I threaten

"You must have it in your blood to want to kill me, seeing as you father killed my uncle!" He admits as I nod my head, acknowledging.

"You have killed some of mine, I have killed some of your, truce!" I try, pushing past him and to the door as I turn the knob and it won't open.

"Fuck!" I blurt out as I continue pulling the doorknob in the hopes it will open.

"That is no way for a miracle to speak in front of decent company" he says, smirking as I continue trying to open the door.

"You do not qualify as even remotely decent!" I jab as I bang my fist against the door, "What have you done?" I command out of him as he laughs, hysterically as I push him against the wall.

"Just wanted to make sure you would talk, even if it was forced" he speaks as I resist the urge to flatten his head against the wall as his back straightens against the wall and my arms hold his shoulders back.

"You are pathetic" I remark pressing my nails into his shoulders as he pushes me back and into the wall, where he was seconds before.

"And you?" He ask as I smile

"And what about me?" I ask him as he brings his body closer to mine as I can smell the pine on his clothes.

"You are a nasty, despicable person" he curses me my smile still stands until he brings his lips to mine, and suddenly what seem like my impenetrable smile fails.

"Is this what you want?" He ask me, leaning to my neck as his lips caress my ear, "tell me you want it" he urges me as I suddenly feel warmth on my neck. As he lays his slow kisses on my neck my breathing slows and my mind goes blank. But this is what he wanted, pulling himself back up from my neck as take a deep breath.

"No, this is what you want" my words coming out as breathless

"Are you scared?" He questions as those three little words set something off in me.

Finally bending at his will, closing the little space between us as my lips crash against his, like a ocean against a coast. My fingers tousling through his hair, my thumb hooked around his ear as I deepened the kiss. My tongue brushing against his lips as his hands explore my waist and tighten the space around us. The feeling of pure ecstasy is something I have never felt before, the kisses I had before were never like this, and somehow even though this kiss was from a man I hated I never wished them to end as my tongue starts to explore his mouth.

"Is that all you need, sir" I hear as reality crashes in and that ecstatic feeling leaves my body as I pull back from him.

"Yes" he answers, "That is everything I need" he says as I hate at him, pushing past him, leaving the room and wiping my lips clean, hoping disdain doesn't stain.

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Despite was what I felt the rest of the day, my self respect had just collapsed on itself as my lips collapsed onto his. But yet those three words pushed me over the edge, "Are you scared?" Those triggering words laid pungent in my mind.

"Are you okay, your highness?" I hear as I'm shaken out of my frozen state.

"Just feeling a bit dazed" I tell another half truth as I finally look at the room, "What happened to the meeting?" I ask him as he chuckles

"My Queen, you must be incredibly dazed. The meeting was adjourned almost half an hour ago" he tells me as I stand, nodding to him and walk to my quarters with fear in my brain.

The sun had already gone down as my chambermaids loosened my corset taking my skirt off as I finally exhale.

"Draw a bath, please" I politely ask as I hear the water fill up the tub in pales

Stepping out of my undergarments and walking into the tub, the warm water finally soothing my skin as I exhale again. Today was a pain to me, and the thought of sleep was a distance truth, I would be lying to myself if I even tried to convince myself that a hour was possible.

And as the drops of water glazed from my arm, tracing my leg I couldn't help but think about him as a towel was wrapped around me. My nightgown thrown over my body and my corset over it as I sighed just thinking about him, and his touched.

"Is that all, your majesty?" The chambermaid asks me as I nod my head.

"Yes, you are dismissed" I tell her but stop myself, "Goodnight" I tell her before she leaves as she smiles in response

"And to you" she says as she leaves, and I feel the restlessness hit me.

Laying in my bed, the pain of tossing and turning begin. Hours go by and I hear nothing, the horrid silence almost taunting as I force my eyes shut it alas they have a mind of their own, and just like any other night I'm tortured. But they, I hear it!

Footsteps in the halls, I am relieved to finally hear something but then I remember, this is not the knights schedule. Slowly throwing my sheets off of my and quietly walking to my desk to grabs the castle schedule I realize that they are early by at least an hour.

As the footstep gain nearer I realize they are more than one, counting three as I know they are heavy on the castle floor. Standing, facing the door with fear and anger on my face. Silence dividing, until a heavy knock falls on my door, "Your majesty, there has been an attack on the outskirts, we have been ordered to retrieve you" the man voice announces as I drop my guard, but quickly look out my window and I realize it was all a lie.