Chapter 3

I failed to sign Shien. I guess what I should do is be nice to talk to or should I be strict?

"DADDY?" Pauline approached the table where I was eating breakfast.

"Good morning, baby." I hugged it before stepping aside from my seat.

"Dad,"

"Hmmm??"

"Did you fight with Mommy Shien?"

"Why did you ask?"

"I heard you were talking last night."

"Daughter, what is daddy say it's forbidden to listen to the talk of adults especially when you're not involved?" My calm reminder.

"But why are you mentioning my brother and me? Will you also leave Mommy Shien like Mommy Zen?"

"No, daughter." I seemed to think before proceeding with what was to be said. "Different from Zen, and your Mommy Shien. Mommy Zen left us."

"You mean, you're really leaving Mommy ??"

"You shouldn't be thinking about that thing."

"But dad Mommy Shien loves you so much she always tells me, she can't afford to lose you. Please, dad don't leave mommy. I don't want to lose mommy." I gently stroked her hair.

"You're still young, you still have a lot to know and understand in the lives of adults. This is happening to us mommy let us just."

"Do you still love her?" I lost my wide smile, "Dad, do you still love her?"

"At your age, I don't look like a child in front of me. Eat early and your Godfather Zayn will pick you up for your swimming lesson with Isay." She nodded before starting to eat. After a while it spoke again.

"Mommy Shien loves you very much. Many other boys flirt with her but she doesn't pay attention because she says you are her love. Dad, when you leave her I will come with her."

"Pauline." I call in a whisper.

"She's kind, she's very kind. I felt for her to have a real mommy."

"Don't you want daddy anymore?"

"I want to but I love mommy. Yes, I'm young but I understand ---"

"That's right Pauline you're still young and you still have a lot to understand but not now, not yet." I think she was disappointed with what I said because she bowed his head and then started eating.

Even though I knew it was just waiting for a word from me I remained silent. Until Zayn picked up my daughter. I was about to leave when I met Shien from outside carrying a paper bag that was definitely from the department store. I have already missed speaking it.

"You used to help me when you saw I was carrying a paper bag."

"You're right."

"You used to kiss first before going to work."

"Not anymore."

"Before..."

"Please, don't add to the pain, you're also wrong. If you had just signed the divorce paper, you wouldn't be here."

"I can't be mad at you. Why can't I be able to speak badly of you, huh? While you're like you've been practicing for a long time what you're going to say. Where did I fail? Did I over-love you so you're like this, so will you leave me this soon?"

"Talk to our lawyer he can just hand over the paper to sign the divorce paper because. I don't have time to talk to you anymore." I immediately turned around before getting into the car.

The truth is that I will not go to work today with a meeting at Kingdom University, the four of us need to be there, but since Zayn is with the two children in the swimming lesson, we are just Cedric and Erdem.

I simply entered the meeting room. Cedric was next to me because Erdem was speaking in front. It hit my arm causing me to look bad.

"Look at Erdem, he is the youngest of us but he seems to remember the thought of the problem." it laughs.

"Only one that proves we are old and should be serious in life." He grinned,

"Really? I guess you should tell yourself to be serious in a relationship." I shook a little with a smirk. I don't want to talk about my love life, first because I'm sure they will all be angry with me. They have a good life after I even destroy the life of the Lucifer kingdom. Am I too important for them to care about me?"

"That's all I can say, thank you very much for attending." I heard Erdem say goodbye to us and then individually out of the crowd.

"Finished??" I patted his arm.

"You're an hour late, bro." its look on the arm seemed to remind the meeting there was time.

"I didn't know you'd start that early."

"Come on, Peps in the Lucifer kingdom? except you're always ahead of the meeting so it's surprising that you're late or let's just say you didn't attend because you just chatted with that crazy Cedric." Laugh at the three of us.

"I'm just scolding this good friend of yours."

"Oh why?" Erdem quickly sat down to listen to what Cedric had to say.

"Just ask him. I can get angry and get hit."

"Come on, we'll teach side by side. What's the problem with this one? Don't tell me after me it's him?"

"I don't know if you all have a headache. Hey, after Zayn, you, and now him. Do you know that I'm stressed out by what you're doing?"

"Wow, think before us you first so don't act like you think you're perfect." I chatted that he stopped.

"I'm just saying… don't make your life too complicated. Remember adults that we probably don't want our children to be like us 'gangsters'."

"But remember we've long since given up being gangsters." Erdem's correction.

"And our family is our priority." I comment.

"Exactly what I said Peps priority is that we have our family so we don't have time for women." annoyed it said as Erdem stared in astonishment at the two of us.

"Who's a woman?" he looked in return.

"You, Cedric?"

"Tsk, no way I won't do that to my wife." Ced's evil look filled me.

"You??" Erdem was very skeptical. "You did that to Shien but why ??" Cedric and I caught sight of each other seemingly disappointed.

"Shall I give you a good reason? Even if I didn't expect it to happen. I felt one day nothing, as in I really don't feel anything for her anymore because another woman is beating my heart." Erdem shrugged while Ced remained silent.

"Maybe I did it wrong but I just followed what my heart was screaming for, didn't I?"

"When else was it right to cheat on the wife? The heart can deceive you with that but the brain can think of something good for us. So it's like you're saying the heart should always win here. Peps, this is over Shien loves you so much remember every sacrifice she made when you separated and she married you. You loved another woman maybe you saw something in your wife that you don't like anymore. "Erdem said at length.

All I remember is Cedric's silence. His silence is my only fear. He may not agree with what I did or favor but I think he is angry.

"I won't leave our children alone. Also, in case Shien signs the divorce paper with me Pauline and…"

"Divorce paper, damn it! Have you forgotten what you told me when the two had a problem huh ?!" then the volcano finally erupted. "You will never imitate them, not even a little problem, you won't touch me but why? Why are you so anxious to break up with your wife now ?!"

"Ced…" Erdem moaned because he thought he was going to attack me.

"I'm sorry but I don't really like it you think you might eventually regret it all!"

"It's my decision and one more thing. Why are you angry? Why do you think I'm going to hurt you here? Remember this is my problem so you don't have to say anything against me."

"I wonder what you did wrong."

"Eh don't you think!" I looked at them both with mixed annoyance, "From now on… let's forget. From now on don't understand me. Let's just do it like that after all you are not convinced of my decision." Walk out.

Erdem even called me but I couldn't turn my head because of annoyance. Since they don't want what I want to happen forget that. If they don't want to be happy, friendship like mine is over. I just want your friend to support me in every decision I make, it's not like they are but they aren't.

We've been friends since childhood, eh what? I don’t care about the long association if they don’t accept what life I want to pursue. Why used to be that we were just gangsters, it's okay if we do pure nonsense and now what will we do to be friendly? show regenerated? No way, maybe they all changed a lot in habit but this is my whole decision I will return to what I am used to. Since I no longer feel for Shien I will continue to be a gangster. Nothing can stop it. No one will get angry because I decided it with all my heart. Then it's boring because to be kind and then in the end this is just what happens. Well, as long as I take care of my life, they will take care of their lives.