2 No Tears Allowed

It is now 5 am, and here I stand now beside the dead body of my beloved sister, restraining my tears for as the only heir left to the crown I am not allowed to cry, no matter my age. " Guard take the body away! I hear the king shouted. "Your majesty, please allow me to spend some more time with my dear sister" I tremble as I said, trying not to show the pain. "Only 5 more minutes please, I am begging you. This last-minute I want to hug her and properly say goodbye. If you do know how to love your daughters please let me hug her for these last 5 minutes. I am begging you."

My father makes a gesture to tell the guard to leave me and Amelia together for some time. I know that my father and mother are also devastated by their loss, but we are not allowed to show weakness so we have to hold this pain in our hearts until we are no longer surrounded by anyone. This is the life the Royal family has to live. We have no right to cry, no right to decide whom we want to marry, no right to complain that whatever we are doing is hard.

I now hold my sister's hand for the last time. For the last time, I am giving her a kiss on the cheek, for the last time I will see her real body, for the last time I will touch her. Now her soul has left her body, but I know that she remains here by my side, in my heart. Although she has joined her boyfriend's world, she will remain in my heart, and nothing will ever be able to change this.

One day I will rule the castle and change all the laws of the royal family, I will find my happiness, the happiness my sister wants me to have, and I am going to find it as I rule. This is a promise this is what I am going to work towards this shall be my goal. Living happily without parting from my people, without forcing the people I love to have to pretend that they are living the way they are with no hardships. I want people to be able to chose whom they want to love, who they want to spend their time with, to be able to say "No" without being terrified of the outcomes. I know that all the pain towards me and Amelia was not caused by my parents for they were strictly educated but I believe that they could have tried to make things differently with us.

Well this are my goals, and I shall change all the rules. For people are allowed to be the person they want to be and not the person they are expected to be. Everyone should have access to education, and no one should hurt anyone else. We should all respect each other's thoughts and never look down on each other, nor should we put our selves down to look up to others. We should be allowed to admire others, but that is also not a reason to belittle ourselves. We shouldn't give up on our dreams, and so we should pursue it. And I shall change the laws and make my country be proud, not feel bad. I want people to be able to be free, not free as in not working. But free as in allowed to make their own decisions, choose who they want to be. I don't only wish this for my people but also for the royal family, and others. No one should be forced to do something they don't want to do, and so I must work hard to achieve this goal, that might bring more happiness to this sad world.