Chapter 11:

*Eithan*

"Stupid!"

" A Useless child *

"It would have been better if you had not been born"

"Weak, spoiled, cowardly, weeping..."

"Little Rabbit"

"Many voices were heard in my head and he was in pain. I felt terrible pressure, I turned my head to the sides and saw nothing, and I was stressed. What is happening here, what are these voices, what is going on here? I looked aside and saw my father smiling, why is he here! What is happening here? My father stood, I folded and screamed, I tried to dodge but my father did not move, I looked to the sides to escape but someone touched my shoulder, my hands shook my body was too weak to resist, I turned very slowly and saw a six year old boy and blood smeared on his head and ן screamed.

I screamed so loud that the scream woke me up from the nightmare, my voice was hoarse, from the scream, I went into a sitting position, my hands were on my chest, complete darkness was all around me, nothing moved nothing was heard except my scream, and slowly my memory and reality seeped over me. And I understood where I was, and what had happened to me.

The door opened and a small follicle of light appeared, very quickly I started running to it, and I knew it was now or not, I had to run away, I had to find a solution, but something made me stop and stand. My body fell back and I looked up. My father stood in front of me angry, one hand holding a cigarette, his hair was wet and the tank top was clean.

"Father…." The only voice I got was hoarse and accompanied by fear, my body was shaking, I felt my heart stop beating, I broke the law, I left the room without permission, he would kill me, I made a mistake, no no, what am I doing now ?. My hands were shaking, my lips were parted and trembling our eyes collided, he smiled a smile at me and began to approach me.

"No no ... I'm sorry please ..." I defended my head with my hands, enough I got beaten yesterday I do not want more, but the blow did not come, I opened my eyes I did not notice I closed and saw my father standing in front of me, he inhaled the cigarette to the end And threw her to the floor.

"Go do laundry and dishes before I regret releasing you"

At lightning speed without hesitation I got up and left. I ran to the kitchen to do household chores, I did not understand what happened here, since when my father released me, I thought he would blow me up, so why. Why he released me. My thoughts wandered to fill places while my hands did household chores.

By the time I finished, I wiped sweaty calves on my forehead and looked at the cleaning I was doing, the living room was clean and so was the kitchen, there was no stinky smell, and no glass bottle was dropped on the floor or cigarette burning dust. I put the broom aside and went to get organized in my room in the little time I had left. I washed my face with water to get organized and changed into the high school uniform. I put on sneakers, I combed my hair. I took my bag and went to the kitchen to have a drink. I put the bag in the living room and, when I got to the kitchen door I did not move.

"Hello, hello to you! Boy" I did not know what to do, fall? Run? Run? Scream? Arnon stood in front of me smiling and drinking a cup of coffee.

"You dressed nicely today" Arnon began to approach, as he approached I stepped back, I scared, I did not know what he was doing, I was afraid of him, terrible nausea appeared in my stomach, I wanted to vomit, I wanted to run away, not again, no way I pass it. My steps were fast, and Arnon began to walk faster, my hand collided with a dresser and dropped a picture, the picture shattered, and the glass scattered on the floor. As soon as Arnon looked away from me I started running, I ran as much as I could, I ran to the living room, I grabbed the bag and came out but something grabbed my bag.

"No, no, release me ... I do not want ... no no" My hands trembled, and my legs failed.

"Release him" My father's voice was heard in the distance, I did not dare to look back, and I did not want to know, to try to find out who is holding my hand. I cringed in fear, I fell to the floor, my legs clung and my hands fell behind them, my grip loosened, but my body did not forget, my body shook, and I vomited. My stomach turned, she took out everything I had not eaten. My soul was heavy, my body was too weak to resist. And my vision was blurred, I did not know how long it had been, or how long I was on the floor but someone grabbed my hand back and dragged me. I wanted to shout, I wanted to say stop, they would release me but my voice betrayed me and did not come out. The towing was painful, I felt something sharp stab me in the hand.

I turned my gaze to see what it was. Glass entered me. I took a deep breath, tried to arrange my breathing but to no avail. I tried to thread a word but someone threw a towel at me.

"Clean up, wash your face, and go buy me beers" I raised my head, my father stopped Arnon? Who will do it? What's going on here? I did not want to procrastinate, my father released me, he stopped Arnon in time, so with shaky legs weak body and irregular breathing I got up from the floor washed face down I ripped the glass from the leg and went out. I looked up and was amazed, night fell, it was already after midnight, My father kicked me out, and I turned back towards the house and saw my father's house smiling. He did it on purpose, he wanted to flip me without telling me. And it was not the first time, and he hinted to me not to come back without beers. I took a deep breath and left, at least I would have some peace and quiet. I went to one of the shops that work non-stop and bought beers and food for me. And I went to the nearby park and sat on the swing.

I did not know what time it was, I did not know what to do but I felt calm and quiet. I placed the bag on the floor along with the beers and rocked.

"Eithan?" I jumped in panic from the swing to see who it was. In front of me stood Rosen's father with a bag of products, I played with my hands I did not know what to tell him, he knew about the situation, Rosen told him.

"What are you doing here? It's dangerous to hang out outside during these hours"

"I went out to breathe air" Rosen's father did not say anything he came and sat down next to me, I looked at the floor, I did not know what to say, or how to start a conversation.

"I see nothing has changed" he looked at me then at the bruised body, bruises appeared on every limb of my body, no narcissistic was one place without a bruise.

"And that won't change either…" I murmured, took a sandwich out of the bag and opened it. I was hungry and my stomach ached from the bile I had vomited from hunger, but I also knew I would not finish everything, the main thing was that my stomach would calm down.

"What did you buy yourself?"

"Sandwich with cheese"

"Appetizingly" he handed me a bottle of water, and I looked at him "not to suffocate" I smiled at him and took the bottle. I looked at him in silence, he did not look at me and smiled.

"Rosen told me about what happened to you yesterday ..." The sandwich in my mouth came out quickly, and fell.

"I'm not telling anyone, but you need to take care of yourself more ..." I did not look up at him, he and Rosen knew, they knew the last thing I wanted was police intervention.

He got up from the swing and looked at me and I at him "Come on, let's sleep with us" I looked up at him, I did not want to weigh him down, I did not want to pop up just like that, I am a burden enough for them. They always helped me in times of need

"I cannot I have to bring my dad the beers." I rose with great weakness on my feet, it's better for me to bring my dad the beers than my father knew I was involved and ran away. "My father is waiting for beers ... Thanks anyway" I smiled my forced smile and tried not to look sick and injured.

"Ok!" Tailos approached me, and before I could do anything he hugged me. His eyes opened, the hug was pleasant, the hug was warm, for a long time I did not feel such warmth, so I returned it to him.