SUPER_WEIRDO

>>Before you read further, this is a dark reverse harem R-18 novel.>Imagine dying. Not naturally or anything but because a male like you, and you just wanted to experience life. The first is so traumatic to you that it is vague, while the second.... ahh...that one you didn't have a body left.
In the third life, you somehow became a mother, have four husbands from the beginning, and later realised the world you are in you are labeled as a beast, and the other species; humans, elves, and fairies can summon you or your young at any time. 
what would you do?
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>>Join Du-Gooder Xiala on her journey to experience life, raise her young, and bond with her mates.
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Side note: there should be 7-8 males at the end.
>>Dark fantasy
>>Blood gore and descriptive violence.
>>Sexual content.
PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION!!!

All I want for Christmas...

Previously only wishing to experience, then you die. Yes, you die. Die because a woman saw a man who wants you as her own, an eyesore. Life is not fair, yet it is fair. Breathing, simply living can be seen as a chore or a blessing, this all depends on the point of view of the protagonist. Sad, so sad. I had always kept that part of me at bay. I just wanted… to be human. To understand those useless species who dominate the world we know as main earth— as Gaia. I hated them, maybe because they as so weak yet protected by many but… ah, I should hate the others. I should hate whoever killed me; be it one, two or a combination of many. I can only silently grit my teeth and hate.

Silently wonder after recovering where am I...?

My mind was a mess, I remembered things that I had forced myself to forget including the life before my last.

I was killed back then as well. All because of men. What the hell!

So sad