The Sins

Faye's POV

"Oh my god. I'm late!" I heard Brianna frantically moving around her bedroom.

My eyes are still closed. I do not want to move yet. It's been a while since I've slept in a comfortable bed since the one I have at Jessica's place is a bit stiff, especially for my back.

Thankfully, aging does not affect me because if it does, I would be crawling on the floor by now.

"Are you going to stay here?" Brianna asked me.

I opened one eye so I could see her. I regret opening it. She's still topless.

"Oh, come on. Grow up!" She groaned.

"Put on some clothes, will you?"

"I will. But are you going to stay here? When I got back from college, can I expect you to be in this room still?"

I nodded. "I think I will be sleeping for the whole day."

"Great. See you later then." She took her hoodie from the end of the bed and wore it. "Don't go anywhere." She said before leaving.

I closed my eyes again as I try to go back to sleep.

"Comfortable?" I heard a voice.

Now, I really don't want to open my eyes. I know whose voice that belongs to.

"I didn't disturb you two last night because you were sleeping deeply. It seems like it has been a while especially for you to sleep that comfortably."

Don't open your eyes, Faye.

Don't.

"Are you strong enough to kill her again in this lifetime?"

I turned my hands into a tight fist.

"Oh, you're mad now? Hey, it's not my fault. It's your fault. I've been warning you but you won't listen. Let me remind you. If you get too close to that girl again, it will be harder to kill her."

I snapped my eyes open.

"Distance yourself." My own voice said in my head

I looked around the room. It's just me in it.

The voice is in my head. It's my own voice. My conscience.

I breathed deeply as I tried to calm myself.

"I'm going to be okay. We're going to be okay. Me and Brianna."

"You're joking, right?" The voice in my head said. "Have you forgotten about that one rainy day? The day when it all began?"

I sat up on the bed.

It was dark. It was raining heavily.

Me and the angel...

We were just laughing. Enjoying the rain until the angels descended from the heavens and told us about our sins.

I remember her cries. How she tries to reach for my hand as the angels pull her away from me.

She won't let go.

I won't let go.

So we got punished.

We got punished because of love.

And now, that same idea is punishing me again. Over and over again.

Fall in love.

Kill.

Fall in love.

Kill.

Fall in love.

Kill.

Repeatedly.

I can't. I can't do this. I don't think I could stay in this room. It's suffocating. I want to get out of here but I promised.

I promised Brianna that I would be here once she returned from college.

I never broke my promise to her.

Not once.

I laid myself back on the bed. My breathing is still deep and quick. I could feel my heart tumbling around my chest.

What if we get punished again?

No, Brianna is already having it worse. I need to stop thinking about myself and start worrying about her situation too.

I need to find out what she did during her reincarnation that made her forget every life she had in this world.

I teleported back to Jessica's place where I saw her just sitting on her sofa while reading a book.

"This is unusual," I muttered.

She removed her gaze from the book so she could look at me. "You look unusual. What kind of clothes are those? Skimpy shorts? Are you teasing me, Faye? Do you miss me?"

I'm pretty sure I just made a disgusted expression.

"Kidding. Where have you been last night? Didn't see you around."

"I was at Brianna's. I am actually going back there. I just need to take a change of clothes. She's expecting me to be there once she returned."

"Oh. You're a good puppy." Jessica put her book aside.

"How about you? What made you read a book?" I entered my room but left the door open so I could hear her reply. I rummaged in my cabinet to search for some clothes I could wear. Should I also take some spare ones? Will Brianna like the idea of me staying there longer? Wait, what if she only wants to see me later but it doesn't mean that she wants me to sleep there again?

I now just realized how vague our relationship is at the moment.

"I was bored. Really..." I felt her touch on my back dragging it down to my hips. "...really bored."

"Jessica..."

"Just this once." She whispered in my ear. "I kinda miss you, you know?" Her hands managed to go underneath my shirt where they found my br**sts.

I winced. "Jessica..."

"What? We used to do this all the time."

"I thought that's over."

"Why are you feeling guilty now? You didn't feel guilty before." Her other hand went down between my legs. "Even when you were with her. You seem to enjoy my company the best."

I moaned. I pushed my hands on the doors of my cabinet as I try to balance myself because my knees were weakening.

She continued to massage me down there until I felt a knot in my stomach.

"There we go," she licked my ear. She made me look at her by grabbing my head by my jaw. "Just this once, Faye. Then you can go back to her and just like before, act as if I didn't exist. Keep me a secret to her..." her voice trailed.

Sin.

Sins.

I'm a sinner.

Brianna, even her past reincarnations, trusts me to be loyal to her.

I am.

My heart is with her. Always and forever.

But Jessica...

She removed Brianna's shirt from me and made me face my whole body to her.

I breathed deeply as I felt her finger trace around my br**sts tip.

"Did you miss this, Faye? Did you miss us?" Her mouth met mine. She pushed me deeper as her kisses go deeper. I felt her tongue entering my mouth.

I know I should stop this.

I know this is not right.

But I can't.

My heart doesn't want this but my body does.

I wrapped my arms around her as I responded to her kiss.

We dropped on my small bed in this room.

She managed to undress me completely while I still struggled to take off her blouse because she kept removing my hands from her.

"Shh...it's all you today."

I am a huge sinner after all.