you saved your ass

ava moves her hand away and i groan because she let my hair go. then she pushes me off of her and i am immediatly cold because she is no longer holding me. i want to pull her close to me again but i know i cant because she is no longer mine.i fucked up so bad she might not be mine anymore. then she sighs and says " you saved your ass you know" and now i am so confused. i scratch my head trying to figure out what just happened. she takes a deep breath and then says" your not forgiven not for a long shot. what you did hurt me. you were the one who saved me i trusted you.i knew you where mad at me for not telling you about my training and to be honest i wanted to tell you so many times but the deal was i couldnt tell you until you saw it yourself that is why i was spending all that time with you dad".

now that wasa shock to me." he was helping me with my training did you know he took the warrior training course as well so i could train with him at home." now that was even more shocking. now my heart dropped more it all makes sense now she was spending more time with dad and i thought it was her cheating on me i never thought it would be more training.

ava continued " i had a friend come by when you where gone to help me train with the spy stuff but your dad helped with the warrior stuff. it was fun watching you get all jealous i loved it, it showed me how much you cared about me." i mumble" i do care"." that is the reson why i got away with alot more than you boys did,its because i was trained different and i was also the favorite he told me so himself." i just nod while looking at the floor letting her continue to talk not daring to make a sound. " but to see you with those girls" i flinch at the words she just spoke." my heart broke you have no idea how much i wanted to shoot you in you sleep but no i let out my anger on the whores sleeping next to you. i stormed out and ran home and climbed in the vents to see if you followed me and if you did i would have heard you our but if you didnt i would have marched in your dads study in the morning and tell him the wedding was off. he would also cancel that wedding without uttering a single word about it to you unril it was close to the time we were to get married and you say sometime to him about it. and the most crazy part is i would still be in your family after this because he wants me to be forever in his family want to know how that would work?".

i slowly nod my head but i have a bad feeling bad the answer. " with your brother jacob" i flinch at that and my bad feeling was confirmed." father told me if you break my heart he will marry me off to jacob and you know the crazy part is jacob agreed to marry me." now that pissed me off how dare he."before you go storming off to beat the crap out of jacob listen to me first, he doesnt want me like you do. he doesnt love me i will be nothing but a bed warmer,a piece of ass,a booty call to him. i will be just someone to take take care of his needs and nothing else.and that is the only reason why he agreed to take me as his wife if you fucked up so bad that you lost me." i nod but i am still pissed he agreed to marry my woman.

" you know he only wants to know how it feels to fuck me and he will enjoy it and he will rub it in your face by kissing and touching me right in front of you." never in a million years will i let him take her away from me." so now you know you fucked up big " she says and i just nod because thats all i can do she is right i fucked up and my brother might take her but over my dead body will i let him have her without a fight." how will that make you feel that the love of your life was now with your brother and you saw us every damn day?" she asked.

i mumble" horrible" because it would be horrible." next will be your father he would treat your worse than he does now and give you more work just because you broke my heart.and you will attend the wedding of me and jacob and he will make you sit in the first row forced to watch jacob put his hands all over me and kiss me. and jacob and your father would enjoy the tears falling from your face because you used to have me and you threw me away like i was trash". im scared to ask this question but i have to ask" what about you?"

she looks confused now," would you enjoy the tears ?" i ask." no i will be feral again and my masters would be ruben and jacob do you want me feral again?"." no no no i dont want that not in million years" i say to her. i finally look up at her after i say that.