CAN YOU HEAR ME(5)

Can you hear me...my heart calling out to you? I know it may sound so cliche, but I'm into you. If only you could see me if only you could hear me. Then you would see the pain and love that's burning in my eyes for you. Sadly, I wasn't the one you chose.

It's hurtful that I was left behind. It's painful that I couldn't be heard or seen no matter what I did.

It's heartbreaking that I was but a mere second option to you. I don't know if feel that way but I hope it's all just a wild assumption.

It's stupid that despite me knowing that I couldn't be heard but I still call out every time.

You were so wrapped up in her, so much that I felt so lonely all the time. I love you, Kael. If only you could see, then I wouldn't be crying so desperately every day. I long for you. Even if I know that I ain't the one you want. I still call out to you.

Please hear me out. Please hear my calls. Please respond to my calls, even if they aren't vocal at least read my signs.

The fact that I wear my feelings on my sleeves and yet still you don't see them, is heartbreaking for me. I feel like a lunatic begging constantly for you to notice me.

You should have given up on her when I told you to. I know I didn't elaborate back then, but what could I have possibly done. Become a back-biting friend just to fulfil my desires. I'd feel terrible if I went through with that but I chose to sacrifice and hoped that Marie would have at least rejected you. But she didn't.

And I had to live with the regret of sacrificing my heart for someone else's happiness. I know it was stupid but I wanna ask you a question that I would have asked if I dared to but, I couldn't.

What will you have done, if I had confessed to you on that day? What will you have said if I had told you the true nature of Marie?

That day when you told me that you loved Marie and were planning on confessing to her. If I had told you the truth about her and also my feelings. Would you have considered me over her?

It's a question that is still left unanswered in my mind but what can I do, if only I could work up the courage to ask you. But unfortunately, I couldn't, I probably wouldn't because I'm scared to even know the answer. I loved you then and I love you now and I think I will forever love you. Yeah, you make me sound so hopeless and stupid. if only I was bold enough to give up, I would have by now. But sadly the reality is cruel. Love seems to hate me but I keep looking for it. Wouldn't it be best to give it up and just be empty? I think that would be a good idea. That will be good for me.

I'm just tired of trying so hard to get your attention. I'm tired of trying so hard for you to just notice me. Even a blind person would have noticed me by now but I guess I'm not worth it.

I have never been and probably never will. I will forever remain a second option to you. How sad is my life? I love so hard but I get nothing in return. I love but I always get hurt. I still hope all this is just my assumption and I hope they hold no truth.

If only you can hear me... Then it would have been great. But sadly you don't, do you?.

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FINALLY, I HAVE FINISHED THIS CHAPTER. IT WASN'T EASY. I HOPE YOU GUYS SUPPORT THIS STORY, IT MEANS A LOT TO ME. EVERYTHING WRITTEN HERE IS ALL RAW EMOTIONS NO FICTION.