CRY FOR ME(6)

A/N, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. ANOTHER CHAPTER I HOPE YOU GUYS LOVE IT.

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As the title goes, sometimes I wish your every tear were for me but sadly, there aren't. They are for Her. She is the sole cause of your woes and pain. You become distressed and full of agony whenever she's involved. Do you even have any idea that I even get jealous of the tears you shed for her? I wish they were for me instead. Yes, I wish they were for me. I know it's crazy, but at least I will find comfort in knowing that I was able to incite emotion in you. It's better than you not reacting at all. It hurts... you know? it hurts when the person you love doesn't see you. It hurts when the person you love doesn't react to you the way you want them to.

I want you to cry for me and I promise to dry your tears. Did she ever make you feel secure? Did she even know you wept for her? And would she have cared if she knew? I want you soo bad I think I may go insane. I know I sound desperate but... I'm desperately in love with you. I sometimes feel disgusted with how much I pin after you. I want to give up but that's not my nature. It's painful... It feels distressful trying to gain your love.

Kael, do you know that I have always followed every single thing you have ever told me? Have you noticed that I have never lied to you about anything you have asked of me? I wanted to look good in your eyes. I wanted to please you. I wanted to see you happy whenever you were around me. Now thinking back on it, I feel silly for actually behaving in that manner, it's degrading. I wanted your tenderness, attention, affection, and compliments. I felt so proud whenever I'd see a smile on your face. I never liked your sad expressions. I loathed them and I grew to despise the person who caused you to express such painful emotions. Marie was my friend and your girlfriend. I was aware of everything that she was doing to you and planning on doing to you.

I had wanted soo much to caution you about them but... I couldn't. I just couldn't turn into a bad friend. But I still tried my possible best to hint to you, It still did nothing. Because you weren't picking up the hints. I will abruptly get mad at her but you will still take her side not knowing why I was soo enraged at her. I was furious for you, I was screeching at her for you, I was agitated all for you. Since you couldn't see her real intentions, I was doing what you were supposed to be doing for you. I know you could sense something but you remained quiet about it.

Kael, my Lil wolf cub, who I love soo dearly. I wish you will cry for me rather than Marie. Even if I were to hurt you, I will dry your tears, I will be there to soothe you, I will be there to make you feel reassured, I will be there to say ' Sorry', to make you know that I care for your sentiments. And If I'd cause you discomfort, I will pledge to never hurt you ever again.

I wished you had cried for me back then, maybe if you had, things would have been different. And if I had explained myself better, who knows maybe you would have hurt less. But what would you have had me do back then? I had a few options, Treachery or to Be Silent? If you had been in my shoes what would you have chosen?

If I had told on Marie, I would have been seen as a covetous friend. Even when I still chose to be mute, I still got labelled as a boyfriend snatcher and I had to endure seeing the one I love in despair. What would you have had me do?

I hoped things had happened differently. I wish I had not convinced you to give her another chance. I feel awful whenever I recall it. If I had allowed you to end things when you made up your mind then maybe you might have hurt less. I'm Ashamed... I'm truly regretful about that.

I will forever feel apologetic and remorseful for that...

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SO HERE IT IS GUYS, ANOTHER CHAOTIC UPDATE. THIS CHAPTER IS FILLED WITH A LOT OF CONFUSED EMOTIONS AND HURTFUL FEELINGS. I HOPE YOU LIKE AND COMMENT PLEASE AND MOST IMPORTANTLY RECOMMEND IT TO OTHERS.