IT HAPPENED(7)

'some weeks after the breakup'

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Seconds ticked by So did days go by and finally, weeks came but you still couldn't get over her. You kept lamenting the pang that she left within your core. You became sore and irritated. You started to spew mean remarks about girls, which weren't true because we all ain't like that. Even though your words hurt me significantly, I was the only one who stood by your side and listen to you lament your ache. She was gone but I was there, she left you broken and I was there to help you mend but even through all that, you still didn't see him. But did I care, No? All that mattered to me back then was you. I was thinking of how to make you stop hurting. I was thinking of what to say to console you. I was thinking of what to do to ease your discomfort. That's all I could think about back then.

Even though she caused you pain, you still drew close to her. I didn't like it but I had no say in it. After all, it was your life and your heart, only you can make decisions for it. I could only make suggestions, it's up to you to choose whether to accept them or not. I did the best I could to console you and lessen your pain however I can. I was by your side as a good friend and also a shoulder for you to lean on whenever you felt weary. I did everything that was expected of a good friend.

I remember the day when it was just the both of us and you asked me a question? You asked...' Why are girls like that '. You wanted to know why girls behave the way they behaved. I had an answer to that question but I wasn't sure how to explain it to you for you to understand. I had a feeling you wouldn't even believe me even if I tried back then. Still, I told you what I thought, I simply replied, ' Not all girls are like that, every girl thinks and behaves differently.'. I knew you weren't satisfied with my response but I meant every word that I said.

With you still in pain, a week turned into four weeks, and the day of our final examination was drawing near. But due to COVID, the date was postponed for a while until the situation was manageable. But Glory to God, the situation was managed perfectly, and we came back to school. Something happened, I couldn't remember the exact details but I think it was about my and Bart's relationship. I think I was looking disturbed that day. It was raining too. And you asked what was wrong. I remember not speaking much but you started to randomly mention things that might be the cause. I remembered you mentioning if he was bugging me with sex and I nodded my head but later said that it also was a cause but I had already made it clear to him that sex was off the table. You later asked if I was in love with someone else and I nodded my head. You later asked the big question, ' Who is it '. Those three words had my mind going outlandish. I began to tremble with nerves, because, how am I supposed to tell the person standing in front of me that he was the one I'm in love with. How was I supposed to do that? After a long silence, we began the guessing game, you mentioned everybody around you, except yourself. I wonder why you didn't add yourself to the list?. It's still part of the many unanswered questions which I'm still too terrified to ask.

At that point, I felt nervous and brokenhearted. The fact that you didn't mention yourself could only mean that you probably never saw me in that way and the thought of me ever liking you let alone loving you never crossed your mind. That realization shattered me. The answer was never given and the truth wasn't known that day, someone came to call you and you left. I felt terrified, I felt lost, at that moment I wished my Bff was there. I need him but there was no means of communication. Amid my panic, Juju walked in, and thank God it was someone I could freely talk to. He walked in and I explained everything to him and I told him that I was in love with you and I didn't know what to do. He urged me to confess to you since you were now a free man. I outright refused and told him I was scared of rejection. He told me it doesn't matter. He told me to try and that maybe you might accept me. Even though he may be right, I still felt skittish, so I left for the dormitory.

The next day, right after school was over, I remember which day it was, it was a Thursday. I didn't know what came over me, I just told Juju who I had confided in that I wanted to confess to you. At that moment he was overjoyed for some reason. Right after saying it, you enter the class and after looking at you standing with her, I wanted to bail but my Juju wasn't having any of it. He forcefully sat me down and carried you over and placed you right in front of me and said, ' She has something to tell you ', after that, he left to preoccupy Marie to divert her attention from us and to prevent her from listening in on our convo.

You asked what was it I wanted to say and I just reminded you of the convo we had last time and you went quiet for a while at that moment I saw you smile and you said, ' IT'S ME RIGHT'. I simply nodded and didn't dare to look up to see your reaction. You told me several times to look up but I didn't do it. I kept closing my eyes everything you raised my head and I will use my hands to cover them. I kept doing those on repeat until I finally somehow managed to escape and run to my dormitory. That was the most nerve-racking situation that I had ever experienced. I wanted to dig a hole and just hide in it. I was soo embarrassed to the point that wanted to even cry. I feel I could blush I think I would because I felt hot in the face. Before getting to the dorms I had made up my mind to avoid you throughout the rest of the semester but unfortunately, that plan was ruined.

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SO HERE'S ANOTHER CHAPTER. ENJOY. COMMENTS AND VOTE PLEASE.

P.S. THIS RECOLLECTION HAS ME EMBARRASSED ALL OVER AGAIN. REMEMBERING THEM FEELS SOO CRINGEWORTHY.