Chapter 8 (Rayken's Passed p1)

Katherine woke up the next morning to her alarm She felt horrible from to much wine and all the trauma yesterday.

"Ugh..." She rubbed the sides of her head.

"I need some ice water and coffee!"

She got up to get ready for work knowing very well she couldn't call in today.

She managed to get ready after her cup of coffee.

"Oh I almost forgot the spaghetti!"

She grabbed it and put it in her lunch bag.

Hardly putting on any make up and she rushed out the door so she wouldn't be late for work.

"My head hurts!" She complained well driving.

When she got to her office she unlocked the door and went inside.

"*What a day yesterday!*" She thought rubbing her eyebrows.

*RING RING* her phone rang.

"Hello, This is Mrs. Hudson." She answered the phone.

"Hello, this is Dr. Shane. Were you ready to see Mr. Ray today?" He asked.

"Um, yes." She said still not prepared.

"Okay, The gaurds will be outside your door so no worries you'll be extra safe." He said reassuringly and paused for a moment to talk to someone.

"Oh they're on their way over now actually. Goodbye and good luck!" He said hanging up the phone.

"Yes uhh good bye..." she said to herself hanging up the phone.

Her heart started pounding.

"*I'm okay. I'm just going to ask him questions.

I need him to open up so I can actually help him.

I need to do my job and put my feelings aside.*"

She thought giving herself a pep-talk.

She opened the drawer on her desk and took out her clipboard, pen and note paper.

She wrote the date on the top of the paper and Rayken's name.

*knock knock* There was a knock at her office door.

"Come in." Katherine said.

A gaurd walked in.

"Hello, we will be bringing Mr. Ray in and chaining him to the laying chair." He said.

"Yes sounds good thank you." Katherine said standing up and straightening her skirt.

The two gaurds walked Rayken inside and sat him down on the laying chair.

Rayken looked at Katherine and smiled slightly.

Katherine did a small smile back.

The guards chained him tightly laying down and walked out the room to stand by the door.

Rayken and Katherine were both silent.

She looked at him, he looked beaten down and hurt.

He looked back at her. "...you look like you feel worse then me today." he said with a small smile.

"Yeah I dealt with a lot yesterday..." She said looking a bit upset.

Rayken looked down and back at her.

"I'm sorry I did that...I feel horrible how I can't control my urges...I never could some reason." He said sympathetically.

"No, no it wasn't you...I mean what you did didn't help but that was partly my fault why that happened too" She said reassuringly.

"...yeah...I...it's just that..." Rayken stuttered nervously to say.

"Hold that thought..." She said reaching into her bag "I got you something."

She pulled out the spaghetti, a fork and the bread.

"I made this last night and couldn't finish it, I figured you'll love some home cooking!" She said with smile.

"...wow thank you!" He said taking it from her. He slightly leaned forward as much as his chains will let me.

He began eating really fast and finished it within 10 minutes.

She got him a cup of water.

"You must have been starving! Do they feed you?" She asked concerned.

"Fuck no, they don't hardly feed me at all." He said back.

"I'm sorry, I'll have to talk to Dr. Shane and see why." She said gently wiping his mouth for him with a napkin.

He look at her.

"Can we finish what we started...?" He asked her softly.

His eyes look so desperate and sad.

"Rayken, you have to understand...I have to do my job. I can't fool around with you."

She said seriously.

"I'm sorry...I hate to fucking be this way...Losing control of myself over my urges. I fucking hate it! There's something wrong with me!" He said angrily.

"Yes you have a Testosterone imbalance and you are a sex addict...and both those things are cure-able with help and medication."

She said trying to make him feel better.

"It's more than that...it's how I lived most of my life." He said.

She wrote down what he said in her notes.

"Rayken look, I know you can control yourself if you tried...you have self will, everyone has self will." She said with a smile.

"Are you sure about that?" He ask looking at her intently, he took a deep breath and gritting his teeth.

"If I wasn't in these chains I'll have you fucking pinned to that floor right now, I'll finally get my dick in you."

He said looking her dead in the eyes.

"I will tell you to stop." She said sternly.

"No woman ever wanted me to stop."

He said and his lip twitched.

"I already proven that with you." He said seriously.

Katherine crossed her legs, she didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry...like I said...I can't help it." Rayken said and he looked away from her.

She wrote down some more notes.

They were both silent again.

"Rayken, can I ask you a question?" She asked him breaking the silence.

"Yeah." He replied quietly.

"What do you mean when you said 'It's how you lived most your life'?" She asked.

"I was kept in a dungeon room against my will most my life, countless women paided for sex with me."

He replied not looking at her.

"You're kidding me? Who kept you there?" Katherine asked shocked and concerned.

"Beth." He answered back.

"Who is Beth?" She asked.

"I don't know...all I knew was first name; Beth."  He answered.

"I hate that fucking bitch." He added.

"Do you know if she is in custody?"

Katherine asked really confused.

"Yeah...the cops came and got her." He replied.

Katherine wrote down 'Beth is in custody' in her notes.

"How many years do you recall you were in this dungen room?" She asked.

"Probably like 10 years on and off." He said with a Shrug.

"My goodness! I don't understand how no one you knew didn't look for you?" She said concerned and she leaded a bit closer to Rayken.

"Just know, has your therapist...I care about your well being and safety." She added looking into his eyes.

Rayken quickly looked away from her.

"Ahh, I don't give two fucks who cares about me." He said aggravated.

"It seems like you have a problem accepting love and care." She said back.

"We'll work in to that." She added.

He looked at her with a blank stare.

"No thank you" he said still aggravated.

"What do you mean No? I'm here to help you and maybe one day get you out of here."

She said concerned.

"I'm never getting out of here." He said.

"Let's work on it and see." She said putting her hand on his shoulder.

He looked at her hand.

"Rayken look." She said catching his attention.

"I know you feel helpless and confused. I can see you have very kind eyes. I know there is some good in you." She said with a smile.

Rayken took a deep breath.

"I don't see how you feel that way." He said quietly.

"Tell me Rayken, have you ever fully loved someone?" She asked moving her hand over his heart.

Rayken moved his hand up to touch hers gently. She still felt very nervous letting him touch her.

She still didn't fully trust him but she wanted him to feel comfortable.

He looked at her, his eyes seem sad when he answered her with a "...yes" to her question.

"Would you like to tell me her name?" She asked holding his hand.

"Lira...I love her." He said sadly.

She can tell she was getting though to him a bit.

"How long did you know Lira?" She asked.

"Since I was very young..." he answered.

"Where did you grow up?" She asked.

"In a small country town." He said.

"It must have been a beautiful town." Katherine said happily.

"Yes it was..." He said looking up at the ceiling.

He started to remember the town.

"Can you tell me a little about growing up in that town?" She asked nicely.

She could feel his heart starting to race a bit. She could tell him remembering his passed made him nervous.

"Yes I can tell you a bit..." he replied slowly.

(Passed)

**blurs out and in to a old country town dirt road, on the side of the road is a small lumber yard with lots of trees and sawdust on the ground**

Rayken (17teen) was chopping wood with an axe.

The axe swinged up and slammed down hard spilting the big peice of wood in half.

He wiped his sweat from his forehead looking exhausted.

"Ayyho Rayken!" A big man called out.

"Yes boss?" Rayken replied.

"It's time to go home." He said with a smile giving Rayken a pat on the shoulder.

"You did a great job today." He added.

"Ah thanks boss, I'll see you tomorrow!" Rayken said happily.

"Yes, see you tomorrow. Make it around 7:30am this time." The boss said. "

Looks like your friend is here." He said pointing to a young lady waving to them from the path leading to town.

"Bye." Rayken said to his boss and walk down to greet her.

"Rayken guess what I found today at school!" She asked him.

"What Lira?" Rayken wondered.

(Present)

"Lira, that's her yes?" Katherine asked nicely.

"Yes...she would meet me after work everyday. We would most times go to our old tree house from our childhood, we built it together to read books and comics when we were young." Rayken replied "Lira still loved books and I really just supported her habits." he added with a smile.

"That's very sweet." Katherine said.

"It was..." Rayken said sadly.

(Passed)

Lira pulled a book from behind her back and shoved it into Rayken's face excitedly.

"I found that limited edition classic grimm's fairy tales book from when we were young, do you remember? I actually bought it from the library, not rented it so I can always keep it." She said happily.

"I'm not really into that no more myself."

He said rudely.

"Oh well we're reading it together if you like it or not!" She demanded.

"Is that so?" He said teasingly.

"Yes!" She said jokingly.

They both laughed.

"Are we hanging out today?" She asked happily.

"I'm not sure...my dad wanted me home early today for house chores." He said.

"Oh please Rayken! Just tell him you had to help my family with something."  She said begging grabbing his hand.

Rayken heart raced whenever she would touched him.

It just started doing that and he didn't know why.

"Uhhh well...I..." Rayken shuttered.

"Oh pleaseeee!" She begged putting her head on his shoulder.

Rayken felt his body get really hot.

"Y-yes alright...we hangout for a bit." He said nervously with a breath.

"Are you okay? You seem a little sweaty..." She asked curiously.

"Yes! I'm okay. it's from work, it was hot today. Let's go." He said quickly snapping out of his daze.

"Perfect!" Lira said shoving Rayken playfully.

They both laughed and started to walk to the old tree house.

(Present)

"I always had these feelings or urges I didn't understand...and it started getting worse when I was almost 18." Rayken said rubbing his arm.

"I see...you had this condition for a long time?" Katherine asked taking notes.

"I would say that." He said "and that 'condition' has you put it, fucked my whole life up." He added sounding angry.

"I understand how it could. Like I said I'm here to help you, I know your a good person."

Katherine said taking his hand.

"Don't start that good person shit with me."

He said taking his hand away. 

"I done to many bad things in my life...I'm not a good fucking person!" He snapped.

Katherine got startled over his loud deep voice.

"Okay Rayken I get it, you may not feel that way about yourself but others might see otherwise." She said sternly.

"What others?" He asked.

"Me and the people whom gave you the chance to see a therapist." She said.

Rayken was silent he didn't know what to say.

"How are you feeling right now?" She asked holding her pen to the note pad.

"Tired of this life." He said blankly.

"Rayken look...I care about you. I won't let no one hurt you." She said compassionately.

"That's something you can't promise." He said quietly.

"Please tell me a little more about your passed. I'm really interested." She said changing the subject.

He looked at her.

"Are you really sure you don't wanna finish what we started?" He said.

She smiled.

"*His voice is so sexy*" she thought to herself.

"We can't." She said "Let's continue with your story."

He didn't want to remember his passed.

"Alright..." he said.