Chapter 149

  “What was?” My head snaps back around by his random declaration.

  “When I was sixteen, when you asked me about the girl I loved.” He stares at the floor and not at me, his hands flat on the couch. I’ve nothing to say, no words filter through my brain. I just gawk at him as he frowns back at me. I’m stilled by the shock and the heavy thud inside my chest, nausea swirling back up violently as each syllable registers, and I absorb the confession. I think my heart gives out completely.

  I don’t want it to be her, anyone else, just not her. Why did it have to be her? Was that some female intuition all along inside of me screaming that she has meant more to him?

  “I was with her for a year; I was mad about her.” He sounds like he doesn’t believe it himself, a dryness to his tone. I don’t want to hear this. I can’t bear it.

  “What happened?” I croak.

  Mouth? Were you not listening to my brain when it said I don’t want to hear?