Maintaining The Fear

"Does it matter to you?" Helde said, looking at him while he kept staring at her. He was about to speak but it seemed like his voice got stuck inside his throat. He waited a moment and clear his throat, and said, 

"I am tired...I am tired of living like this, looking at you with doubts and suspicion every day" he paused to stare at others, and then continue, 

"I rather prefer you dead than look at you with doubts every day. I think this is better for every one of us" he sighed. 

"But we didn't do anything. You cannot punish us for what Maria did. We said a hundred times that we don't know about her. Why don't you believe us?" Elena shouted, looking at Winston. He listened to her carefully, until she finished, he gets closed to her, puts his hand on her chick, and start caressing it with the back of his palm, and said,