My theory that I got from experience and my phantom form

As I promised in the previous chapter, I did write that I would tell you guys to know the theory I have got through my transition and why my wings' shape and type of wings and the phantom form change.

I think maybe it's shape forming based on our desire to live like where we would like to live, what we expect from the wings, how we want to fly, etc... For example, is me: At the beginning of the wings' growth, I used to want to fly strongly and powerful and could be able to change direction rapidly like the eagle because I saw having wings like eagle wings is cool and powerful, so that's why in the first chapter I did write that I was going to get the passive soaring. But a few months later, I considered it again after finally successfully joining a nonhuman group on Amino and reading the posts there, I had changed my thought about my wings. Like, I still wanted to fly powerfully and rapidly, but the difference was I also wanted to fly silently as best as possible so that nobody could detect me by the sound, I wanted my wings to be camouflaged with the sky and nature on the day with dark cloud and night; I still wanted my wings big alike to Aviae eagle type. So the reason why my wing shape changed from the eagle to the eagle owl is that the eagle owls' wings have some points that fit my desire, but the colour is different a little bit from the normal, like what I said in the previous chap. And after this experience, I know that as long as we are in the 1st stage (Phantom form developing and changing energy) or in 2nd stage (Internal change), anywhere right before your body starts developing the wings bone, your wings still can change the type of wings as time past to find what suit with your body, your energy and the environment you like to live the best so that when your wings sprout out and get bigger, you may survive somehow easier because only you know what your strength and your weakness in nature and survival are.

Oh yeah, I also grow the tail too. But my tail is non-traditional. It's long, flexible, and has the fur on the body of the tail, at the end and on side of the tail has the feathers part that works like to traditional bird tail. Actually, I had thought about having a tail for a long time ago, but the point is whenever I tried visualizing my tail, the traditional one, I never felt right. The more I forced myself to fit in that tail, the worse feeling I got. But when I was in a relaxing mood like reading books, mangas, or listening to music, I usually felt my phantom tail that moving alike the cats, and sometimes it ruffled feathers when I'm surprised, or angry. And moreover, I have got my true form that has popped up in my mind recently. Besides having a long tail, my feet also got changed as well, they changed into claws which are strong and big. In short, my tail reacts to anything I do or any emotion I have. Honestly, I do want to put a picture in here in order to let you know what it looks like but I can't so, I guess how about pasting the link? Well, let's see, here is it: https://pin.it/nr5SRBm and https://pin.it/7hXpTdQ.

And also, I guess that my ears are changed as well. Because in my mind, I could feel that the image of my ears are different from before. They are pointy and have the feather on. I also got some feathers on my cheek and my eyes changed colour to golden, I think so. This is so amazing. Seeing my phantom form changed like this, I feel that it's more real, and I feel like I am more being me. As if my true person is this form. But I can't tell will it change again or not, because, in somehow ways, I have a feeling which said that this has not ended yet, my phantom form may still change again in order to get ready and adapt to the environment in the future for me to live and survive a bit easier without have so much struggle or have many limit, weakness. Erm, you know. I have got to survive by myself in the future once my wings no longer to be hideable, and that time will be like, freaking suck and damn hard, and you probably have to use the natural law: 'Strong one wins, weak one die', and the normal humans' rule may not going to work out I'm the apocalypse. I bet, I bet that this will happened because that time will be the period of time having the fights, a lot of fights like WWIII, nonhuman fights with humans and humans fight to each other. Literally, everyone going to be all gone mad.

Don't ask me why I know this. I...just... know, with feeling. I can't explain that well. Even, I can't understand too. But I feel like inside my mind kind of having a voice has told me that those things may have a high chance to happen. That's it. Okay mate, I have got to end here. Bye

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