Updating and getting a new hobby (10th July 2021)

Hi, it's been a while. Today I am going to tell you what has happened during the period I didn't write this journal due to being lazy.

20th March 2021

+ Body: Got taller about 1 or 2cm.

+ Legs: Started have the dark, grayish spots that look like acne because they looked kind of being bumped up a bit. I started walking on toes like the beastmen unconsciously. But when I walk normally back like a human, my heels are hurt and uncomfortable, and I feel like that is not me and it is felt like unnatural to me.

+ Hands: Feeling like they got longer and leaner. The nails are sharp, not pointy, need to file them to make them pointy, besides that, my nail now are sharp enough to make a small cut look like a scratch if I press against my skin and then pull. And the lines on my palms are changed, too. Especially the business aka learning line and the line of life got longer, clearer. I guess maybe the reason is that I have chosen my path to be nonhuman and my plan for the future.

+ Tail: Nothing much. The phantom tail is still normal though its' image has been more visible in my consciousness.

+ Wings: I don't know if the internal part has changed or not. But the strange feeling, twitching, and soreness have come up more usually and also gotten stronger too. The phantom wings are also getting stronger in feeling and clearer in my mind. I thịnk I have a good feeling about this thing.

+ Kinesis: nothing new yet. But I think I can do a little bit of aerokinesis now, but it is freaking weak and I haven't got full control well yet. I have to make it stronger and better to notice easily.

+ Hearing: hear better a bit. I can sense a bit of the noise when I take out my hearing aids. But still need to rely on them, the hearing aids.

+ Smelling: got better and more sensitive. I can smell things kind of good through the mask.

+ Teeth: become more pointy (my canine teeth were ground flat due to having my brace on, but now I don't have brace teeth anymore). They are not sharp because I don't grind them from the inner side.

4th July 2021

+ I walk on toes more often, my legs and feet have been constantly twitching and sometimes I got soreness as if I have done leg workout. And my legs also started to look slimmer a bit, and longer.

+ The wings: my skin felt like it is stretched out, I can feel that my skin rub again the inside part, maybe muscle or cartilage, I dunno.

+ The phantom tail has got more evident feeling and image whenever I think about the future when I once come out as Aviae.

Anddddd~~ let's talk about this: the weird thing:

Recently, like half of a month ago, inside my mind consciousness often shows up some scenarios in the future when the apocalypse and riots happened. There's one day I saw me, mom, my little sister, my 7year-older aunt and some of my best friends who I pretty close with, went with me to the land of nonhuman, or to Canada, somewhere, I'm not sure. Or there's sometimes I could sense that I was making food for them and add some herb mixed vs a few drops of my blood in case they wouldn't become the cordyceps nor getting a stomachache.

Oh, dudes, I'm kind of worried. Like, I don't know what to say about this.

10th July 2021

A few days ago before my birthday (actually my birthday was in March so, you know), I had asked my mama for buying for me to get nail polishes and also asked her if she also wanted to get some or not. It turned out well, she said she would pay for the things for us so I needn't to worried about that. And I got my 3 nail polishes. Then 4 days ago, my mom said that she didn't like the dark rose colour so she gave it to me.

The reason I wanna get nail polishes is that I want to get my cringe for cutting nails down so that I can grow my nail to become my claws. After having nails polished, it works well. I no more cutting nails or bitting, and have nail polishes on making my hand look nice, and look like I have claws already.

After polishing my nails, they looked pretty good. With my long nail which I have grown for around 2 or 3 weeks, the dark colour nail polishes make my hand looked like I have claws, and also got few compliments from people around me, even my fellow nonhuman also like them. Tehehe, I kind of have the motivation now.

That's all the updates I have. See you later. Bye

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