GT #2

As time passes by, I get tired of living in existence. I'm tired of all the bullshits going on around me. Getting tired of all the positivities that turn into negativities. I really want to die? But I'm afraid of taking my own life. I don't know what's going on.

The anxiety and the depression is killing me. I can't stop myself of thinking that I'd be happy if I was aborted or some sort. It's ironic when they want me to be successful yet they're not supporting me on what I needed. Like I just wanted their support, just a single and tiny bit.

They're are happy when I graduated Senior High School and got a scholarship when I'm in College. But I get tired of pleasing them and I just succumb in the darkness. I feel like I can't get out of that zone. I can't find myself anymore. I want to escape that zone but I'm afraid that I can't reach that certain goal I want.

I can't breath when I know that they're judging me how weak I am. How they bore their eyes on my back like I'm an apple of their eye. They don't appreciate how I tried to do anything to please them and honor them with all my might. But I totally forget to honor myself.

I can't love myself anymore, no matter how hard I try. I can't stop myself depending on their ideals to please them.