Pilot Chapter Version 2

What is Crazy? How to be Crazy? Do you want to be Crazy? Are you yet another one of those alt cosplaying kids on the internet with dyed hair and self diagnoses with multiple mental disorders because you think it's cute and quirky?

No. Of course you're not. Which is another reason why you grabbed this book by expecting philosophy. Rather than relatable content you find about false information about being mentally deranged on the internet which the main source is, you guessed it! Mother-Effin' TikTok. The worst social platform on the internet.

Having a mental illness is not cute and quirky. If it was, they would be praised rather than being bullied. Like myself back in the day being bullied because of mental illness.

Discrimination being a thing during my sophomore years in high school. Especially if you act crazy for the sake of being crazy. Rather than having an actual mental derangement such as schizophrenia and bipolar or at least pretending to have one of the two, doesn't make you special or unique. Having a mental illness is terrifying.

It ruins not only your relationships with people in terms of social contact but also your own life. And your very own corrupted mind, driven by ludicrous insanity.

Having mental illness doesn't make you go press the record button of your camera and dance just to post it on a social media platform, and influence others into thinking it's a special trait of a human being. Having mental illness will usually bring down your self-esteem, confidence, and overall social skills, giving you anxious thoughts, before even pressing the record button of your iPhone that your mother bought you for Christmas.

Which you wanted the latest iPhone instead of the one you're using to read this right now, if it's an eBook, of course.

In fact, mentally ill people wouldn't even consider recording themselves and dancing to edgy glitch core music, and post it on TikTok because they are self-aware of their mental derangements. Making them anxious about what people would think of them if they did posted something ludicrous.

Mentally ill people without insight into their mental health, however, are another story. Those who are legitimately mentally ill and record themselves to post on the internet have extremeness of ideas and words they talk about which beyond abnormal, then the average Alt-subculture cosplaying kid on TikTok who wears fake blood on their faces just for the sake of being edgy and to look insane. And pretend to be insane by smiling widely in front of the camera with their anime wigs.

The true insane people who would think of posting are those who look normal but talk about things that are beyond abnormal to the extent of sensitive topics. Hysterical manner of talking, such as stuttering and fast-paced speech.

But absolutely no laughing like an anime yandere girl. Eyes wider than an average gaze where it seems as if they're not aware of how their eyes look instead of doing it on purpose, which is their 'normal look'.

Their topics are often about scat fetishes which most people would find disgusting, which is an example of a true story of how I experienced seeing a TikTok video of a true insane individual. Most of their topics are never about murdering people, unless they want to talk about it just for the sake of being edgy.

They are not truly insane but just use that as a self coping mechanism because they were bullied. Sorry to tell you bluntly, but you need to face reality and improve yourself as a better person as well as leaving your comfort zone and think about what you really want.

I've said enough of what you need to know about insane people. They go extreme and they have no boundaries whatsoever. And the rest of the insane people I talked about are just pretending to have a mental illness.

Because it's cute, quirky, makes them feel unique and special to boost their self esteem amongst the social norms who think they're complete freaks.

Now, in this story. I'll be narrating a tale about an edgy alt kid which he finds "LOL IM SO RANDOM" is his own definition of insane and crazy and acting edgy enough by saying "This is just more than a killing spree, it's a mission!" or "My name is not important.

What is important is what I'm going to do... I just fucking hate this world. And the human worms feasting on its carcass. My whole life is just cold, bitter hatred. And I always wanted to die violently. This is the time of vengeance, and no life is worth saving.

And I will put it in the grave as much as I can. It's time for me to kill. And it's time for me to die. My genocide crusade begins here." which he referenced from the game "Hatred". And his entire personality is literally half angel and half demon persona where he thinks he has a split personality of a demon inside of him he can't control and he is the angelic side.

Which I actually find hilarious. I can't take it seriously. To be honest, I can't live a single second without laughing at what I'm writing. Because of how awful it is.