Wish 19: Fate

After waking up from Eirlena's memories...

I felt that the void within me had grown bigger...

But I don't feel that I have gotten too deeply into the path of despair.

The only path that remains for me is the empire of 'Svant'...

The Empire of Svant...

An empire within which a certain High race exists...

The High Elf!

My mother always used to say that the only race that can compare to the beauty of the Dryads is the...

High Elf Race

The High Elves have always been known for their affinity to plants and life in all its charms, in 

general...

What if a great disaster struck them...

A disaster powerful enough to destroy those nature lovers...

But they are not my current target.

My goal now is to leave this cursed continent and head to the Empire of Svant on the Saint Continent.

My work with the Tower Master is not yet finished...

Through Russel's memories, I learned everything that happened when I was in the guild...

And that the Empire of Svant is involved in this...

It seems that it is related to internal conflicts within the church...

But...

Does it matter to me...?

Well, if I say it doesn't matter, then I'm lying...

Especially after knowing that the Virtue of Greed is the one who founded the church.

But what angers me the most is what they did to Russel...

If I catch them, I will flay them, heal them, and flay them again...

And not only that...

The poison, I will flay them and boil them in poison...

The poison will dissolve their bones, but I will heal them...

My anger will not be satisfied until I feel their despair surpass what they can bear...

Death will be the most merciful thing they have ever known!

Calm down...

If I lose control, I will never know what I might do...

Despair may take advantage of any weak spot to control me...

But I am the one who should control it as I please.

"Ma...my lord..."

Tsk, the crazy one woke up.

"What crime do you think you've committed to dare to raise your hand on your king?"

Anyway, I will continue what this annoying person did and fulfill the role of the king...

They may be useful if I use the faireis properly.

But wait...

Why do I feel like I forgot something important...

Something dangerous that I must know...

Wait...

Wait... wait... wait... wait... wait...wait..!!!

Damn it...!

Where are my memories?

Memories of past lives...

All gone??

No... wait...

Did I live a previous life?

Yes, I did!

But what was that previous life?

Was it happy or sad?

I don't remember!!

Why?

Why???

Why don't I remember my past lives???

These questions will make my head explode...!

Calm down...

The void has grown bigger...

There's nothing to do after what happened...

Despair...

I can fill this void by tasting despair...

Not my despair...

But the despair of others!

"I... I know I'm guilty... Please punish me, my king!

I... I...!"

"Silence!"

Damn it...

I screamed without feeling it...

I feel like I'm losing myself...

Myself? Which self?

Myself in the first world?

Or myself in the tenth world?

Or maybe myself in the twenty-second world...

Which is this world??

I lived in 21 worlds before...

Each world I lived in with a different body and personality...

And now I live in this world with two different bodies...

Dryad and...

Oh... I don't know what my race is now.

Pathetic...!

I live and die...

Live and die and live again...

Death used to be one of my previous chances...

But now?

I no longer have the last wish...

I fulfilled the wishes of people I know nothing about...

In the end, do I have only a black wish?

Do I say that my long-awaited wish...

To fight, die, defend, slaughter, and win...

Is just a black wish?

What is this black wish??

To do as I please...

To live in despair... No, mix with despair and consume it??

To follow a path the pride prepared for me in silence???

F*ck pride...

And f*ck me, who fulfilled the wish of pride!

Wait...

The pride wish?

Wasn't the wish of the first world...

Kingdom, rule , disaster, mighty, and pride?

This is that jerk wish!! 

What about the second wish?

Damn it, my head will explode...!!!

"My... my lord?"

I looked at her and calmed down...

Strange...

To think that a psycho like her would make me calm down...

Anyway...

My expectations are still uncertain...

And to confirm them, I must meet that bastard Pride and have him explain the matter...

But...

To make someone like him listen to me...

Despair!! 

I will become a virtue and control the path of despair...

This is my first step!!

...

I settled my matters with Eirlena...

She said that the fairies race had been wiped out, and those who survived were only a handful of the 

most powerful fairies ...

And the reason is unknown...

She said that the Lost Kingdom had somehow contacted this world, and then Pride disappeared 

somewhere...

Eirlena continued to rule the fairies until a very large sword appeared...

The fairies started to approach it and try to discover its mystery...

Until the day came when all the fairies who didn't have the blood of the souls became smaller, the size 

of a hand...

Except for Eirlena, who did not become smaller...

They tried to understand the reason, but they couldn't...

So Eirlena forced the other fairies to stay away from the huge sword...

Then, in the past few months, all the fairies started to die without reason...

As if the winds of death swept them away...

Eirlena left the Lost Kingdom to search for Pride...

But due to being a fairy, the High Races chased her everywhere...

To either kill her or imprison her...

As for the reason?

I think it's clear from her memories.

All the High races that lived in the Lost Kingdom had a very negative view of the fairies...

So they were called the Child of demons...

Even the protection of the Great Souls was lost.

"How many fairies like you are still alive?"

Even if their number is small...

They will be useful to me.

"Unfortunately, there are only a few tens left."

Good...!

Now, I can start my plan without any deviations!

...

I sent Eirlena to return to the Lost Kingdom...

Then, I left the village.

But afterward, I remembered something...

That slave has a very high attraction to mana...

Maybe she could be useful too.

I returned to the village and went to the owner of that slave...

Then, I killed him and freed her from the slavery chains that bound her...

Then I took her with me.

And on our way to the Empire of Svant...

Naturally, the journey will take a very long time...

So I used that time to teach the slave some magic...

Ah... for her, it will be skills.

Anyway, at first, I taught her how to sense mana...

Well, she's a genius...

She managed to learn the skill 〔Fireball 〕 in just 3 hours...

The world is truly unfair...

I remember it took me 5 months to master this skill before...

The world is really unfair.

I used Virtue of Greed's powers to remove the job restrictions on her...

So that she can learn whatever I want her to learn...

And of course, I will only teach her what I want her to learn. 

During our journey to the Empire of Svant... 

We were forced to use a ship to travel from the continent we were on to the continent where the 

The Empire of Svant is located... 

The Saint Continent! 

I didn't feel bored during our journey... 

The looks of fear and ignorance on the slave's face were enjoyable. 

But should I continue to call her a slave? 

I think I will give her a name since I am her master now... 

"Kugssa... This will be your name, and I hope you will always remain pure like this... Okay?" 

"Thank you, my lord... I really like it!" 

Of course, what will a young girl like her know... 

And I was serious; I must make sure she remains always pure... 

That's why I gave her the name 'Kugssa'... 

Which means holy purity... 

After losing hope, the purer something is... 

The stronger its despair becomes!