Chapter 15: Fixing What's Broken

The first thing that Finn and I did when he came over wasn’t talk about the fight like I’d planned. In fact, both of us seemed to want to do anything else besides bring it up. So, we decided to watch a movie since it was how we could just be together and not actually have to talk.

I’d planned out everything I’d wanted to say to Finn the moment he got to my house. I was just going to jump right into it, to get it over with and avoid ruining a good date night like last time. But when I saw him, I was overcome with this sudden need to just be near him and as happy as we could get while still sort of in a fight. I wanted to enjoy it. There was an unease within my stomach that for some reason made me feel like it wouldn’t last long.

The movie was an excuse for me to have even more time to consider how to bring up the fight and what I wanted to say that wouldn’t cause him to shut down like last time. But it didn’t help that I was wrapped up in his arms as we cuddled.