we are friends now but maybe we could be more?
Xavier was still thinking hard on how he greet his new friend
he only ever had one friend and he had fell in love with her and now he was going to go through it all over again
but it was different he knew this man loved him
but he still is unsure of his feelings he's learning and he's willing to accept it but this new to him
it doesn't have to do with the fact that he's a man just loving someone who truly loves him
he knows that Lorain's feelings for him
were complex she loved him but it was not the same
he doesn't know why it took so long for him to figure out how he was so blindly in love with her
now that he's moved on he's able to realize it
and learn to love Callus just as he does
when Xavier saw Callus he was nervous
but he had to talk to him
but he was not sure how to act
and let his instincts kick in
he wrapped his arms around Callus
Callus hugged him back and noticed his tears Callus lifted his head up
"Xavier what's wrong?" He asked
"I am so sorry I left like that I was such an idiot" Xavier replied in tears
"Hey you aren't idiot I know you were scared but you don't have to be and we can take things slow and start over it's in the past now" he replied
"I am not scared anymore I want to try it" Xavier replied wiping his tears
"Try what?" Callus asked
"You know letting you in I am still unsure of my feelings but I still want to try" he replied
"And you said you were straight" Callus replied
"You know I was lying I'm not sure what I am I loved Lorain with all my heart but it was never sexual but when I met you it was" he replied
"So you are admitting it? and how can you be so shameless?" Callus replied
"You're the shameless one who shouted out that I did things to you and made you want more and made it seem like I was some ex and we had sex" he replied
"I didn't mean for it to sound that way I was just letting my feelings out now I realize how dumb I was I barely know you but I know we have a connection and I couldn't stay away from you" Callus replied "How can you even be more shameless? but I understand what you are saying I felt it too the connection I couldn't stay away from you either I don't want to lose you" he replied
"I don't want to lose you either or I do I ever want you to feel that pain I did and I know you didn't die but it felt like it I was scared I would never see you again that you hated me" Callus replied
he felt as if he had just been stabbed in the chest those words hit him hard he felt that for Lorain but he was scared of the same happening to Callus too he had lost Lorain twice and he almost lost Callus again even though he barely knew him back then
he still felt it but now he had the man he wanted he hugged him tight Callus hugged him back
"You are not alone anymore I am here and I always will be because I love you but I don't expect you to return it back yet I will wait for you" he replied "Callus I know we are friends now but maybe we could be more?" Xavier replied
"Are sure? please don't force yourself for me" before he could finish his words Xavier put a hand to his lip
"I am not forcing anything I made you this way and I need to take responsibility I want to try it " he replied Xavier put his hand down he looked at Callus's neck it still had his mark Xavier could not help but blush
When he saw it he realizes the things he did were intimate and he wants to do it again someday
but maybe not when he's thirsty
He was thirsty in both ways
"You know I was thirsty too and you didn't give me enough" Callus replied
"Dammit Callus how can you be so shameless?"
he replied
"You are fun to tease Zavi" Callus replied
"Zavi?!" he replied
"What do you not like it? friends give eachother nicknames I thought it was cute like you" Callus "Cute?! Dammit Cal so I didn't imagine it you did call me cute" he replied
"Of course I did you are cute" Callus replied
"Call me cute one more time and I'll skin you alive" he replied
"Alright sorry Zavi you're handsome" Callus replied
Xavier turned a even brighter red
first he says he thirsty then he called me Zavi
and cute again and now handsome f*ck I can't breathe I might die from embarrassment
"Would you two stop flirting already?" Lorain replied
The both of them sperated when they heard her and turned around
"We weren't-" Xavier started to say
"We were" Callus replied shamelessly
Lorain just rolled her eyes
"Come on boys it's time to get to class" she replied
and so the two of them went to class
"Wait we have the same class" Xavier replied
"Yeah you went to everyone I did like a stalker and you still believed you liked Lorain" Callus replied
"I did like Lorain" Xavier replied
"I know but you like me now" Callus replied
"Did I say that?" He replied
"You thought it" Callus replied
"Hey don't read my mind it's not cool" he replied
"I can't help it but I'll try" Callus replied
Lorain who was watching pushed the two into class
"I told you boys to stop flirting and why is my name in it when you two flirt?" she replied
"Because he used to like you" Callus replied
"Hey!" Xavier shouted
"What it's true and she already knew she remembers everything" Callus replied
"Hey! You weren't supposed to tell him that!" she replied
"I figured as much and you can read her mind too?" He asked
"No she told me everything" Callus replied
"Well I knew he would be your future husband so I trusted him" she replied
"Husband?!" Xavier shouted
"so that's what you meant you can see the future?" He asked
"No I can't but I can see what's in someone's heart and you have eachother and that's how I know how things will turn out"
she replied
"Lorain how long have you had that gift?" Xavier asked
"I've always had it" she replied
"So I have two people who can tell when I'm lying" he replied
"That's why I died faster if you didn't lie I would have lived" she replied
"I lied?" He asked
"There was someone else in your heart but you still couldn't admit it that very person is the one you're with now" she replied
"but I barely knew him how could he?" he replied
"he was the two of you connected that night" she replied
"I don't get it we didn't even f*ck I just bit his neck and licked him" He replied
"You gave him a hickey two?! What the heck is wrong with you Zavi?!" she shouted
"Hey calm down and don't call me Zavi" he replied
"Why not I'm your friend too" she replied
"Yeah but I don't love you anymore" he replied
"so you love him?" she replied
"Hey! It's too soon to use that word but I do like him just not love yet" he replied
"What do you like about him then?" she asked
"I like how honest and caring he can be and his shamelessness" he replied
"You two are perfect for eachother" she replied
"You really think so?" He replied
"I know so future husband" she replied
"Don't say it like that it makes it sound like we are still together" he replied
"He's your future husband better?" she replied
"How is it you both have cool abilities and I don't?" He replied
"Maybe you do you just don't know it yet" she replied
"Maybe" he replied
"Ok your husband has already gone in I took up your time now go" she replied
with that he walked in and sat down next to him
"Hello husband" he replied
"We skipped to that already? You can't even say I love you" Callus replied
"Well it's just Lorain called you that"
he replied
"I know I was just teasing you my little Zavi" Callus replied
"Cal-" he couldn't finish his sentence everyone had been watching them
he stays quiet as the class starts
and once it's over they talked again
"I know that you can't help it but you're confusing me" Callus replied
"Well you're the one confusing me with your teasing" he replied
"But doesn't it make you like me more?" Callus replied
"Maybe but I still don't know you that well" he replied
"But you have a basic idea of me and you don't have to know everything about me I know nothing about myself" he replied
"You don't know anything about yourself?"
Xavier asked
"Well not really I know I was a sick kid that's how I ended up in the ward and because of the blood loss I don't remember much before I was turned" he replied
"I'm sorry Cal that's my fault I didn't stop and because of that you loss your memories " Xavier replied
"Hey don't be if you didn't take my blood I wouldn't be here today and I would have never met you you saved my life do you know that?"
he replied
"I saved your life?" Xavier asked
"Yeah I really was going to die I was scared but I couldn't do anything as I was losing consciousness you bit my neck and I woke up and then you licked me I mean I liked it but why did you do it?" he replied
"Just read my mind I can't say it" Xavier replied
Your blood was delicious
"Oh so you really did like my blood" he replied
"Why do think it was so hard to stop?" Xavier replied
"There wasn't any other reason?" he asked
Xavier was bright red again
"Oh you should have told me" he replied
"Stop reading my mind you pervert" Xavier replied
"I'll never force you I just want you to be comfortable with your actions and it's ok if you don't want the same"
he replied
"Are you sure? What if I hurt you?" Xavier asked
"You're not going to hurt me you aren't like that" he replied
"But I'm the reason you don't remember anything" Xavier replied
"I remember you and that's what's important" he replied
"but I'm not I'm worthless" Xavier replied
"You're to me! don't say things like that" he replied
"Why do you care so much? you don't even know me" Xavier replied
"I know everything about you how you only lie when you're nervous
that I'm always on your mind and it drives you crazy
how red your face gets when I tease you
I know you like tasting my body and you want more and I know your venerable side too
you apologize alot and put yourself down
so others don't and you blame yourself for everything even if you blame someone else first
I know you don't feel comfortable around others
and are most comfortable with me" he replied hugging him tight
Xavier hugged him back sobbing
Callus petted his hair stroking it
Xavier isn't used to this sort of affection but he doesn't want to let go
he loved Lorain but he could never do this with her he didn't understand why but he felt more at ease with Callus
he likes that this man cares about him
but he is unsure how to return it
he so scared of losing the person closest to him
again
and he caused his pain it's his fault that he ended up this way
he doesn't remember much and that concerns him he knows he won't forget him
but he wants him to remember who he was but at the same time he's scared that if he does he will forget him
Callus lifts his head up and wipes his tears
"I will never forget you I know you are worried about me but there's nothing wrong with me" he replied
"But you don't remember" Xavier replied
"I don't need to you are all I need to remember you are the most important thing to me and I don't want to lose you" he replied
"You are important to me too and I'm so scared I'll lose you just like I lost her" Xavier replied
"You're not going to lose me I'll always be by yourside and we're vampires remember?" he replied
"There's plenty of ways you could still die" Xavier replied
"Stop thinking of the worse and look on the bright side you are supposed to be bright" he replied
"you are good both literally and as a person and I ever want you to leave me I don't understand why you are so good to me when I have made your life worse" Xavier replied
"Xavier you have made my life bright before now I was completely paralyzed but thanks you I was able to move again" he replied
"I truly saved you?" Xavier asked
"Yes like I said before I would be dead if it weren't for you" he replied
"But what if I had killed you? Because that was my original plan I didn't care I was hungry-thirsty" Xavier replied
"You really wanted to kill me?" he replied
"Yes I didn't care I had hoped you were dead
but now everything is different this is why they say don't play with your food because it will become to like you" Xavier replied
"I had hoped that it wasn't true but I was wrong you really did think of me as food but do you still think of me that way?" He replied
"No You're more than that you're my everything and I couldn't live without you" Xavier replied
"Neither could I you're also my everything
my new house" he replied
"Cal I'm am this close to wanting to murder you" Xavier replied
"But you care too much to do so" he replied
"Yeah you're right I love you" Xavier replied
"You didn't am I hearing things? did you just say the L word?" He replied
"Maybe" Xavier replied
"So you did my Zavi said it" he replied
"I didn't" Xavier replied
"So you're in denial again?" he replied
"No but I can't"Xavier replied
"But you do and I am glad I love you too" he replied "Fine I deeply care about you" Xavier replied
"So you aren't going to say it again?" he replied
"No" Xavier replied
Callus gave him a peck on the cheek Xavier turned bright red but he didn't dislike it could they become more than just friends?