It Took A Lot To Get To Him

Addison had wanted to talk to Gwen and compare experiences so she could have some light at the end of the tunnel about things getting better but it was still completely mortifying. She could tell that the other woman didn't quite know how to respond for a good chunk of the conversation. 

She was really nice about the whole thing though. She wasn't acting judgmental or anything. Just sympathetic and out of her depth. 

But when she asked if Addison had been in love with Sky, she barely managed not to shudder. Oh no! Not even close. The problem was that she was in love with the one who took him down and didn't think she could ever redeem herself from that mortification. 

She couldn't say so explicitly either, stopping herself from mentioning that part when the rest sort of spilled out of her in a rush. Gwen was Jacob's friend. She couldn't know.