Every things gonna fall apart

While walking toward the door my heart starts to beat faster, do I have to see him? my mind and heart are not synchronizing now. So many things start to bother me, how he reacts, what will be his reaction, the way he talks, do my brothers be there, what if everything that I realized was true then how will I react to that, and many more...

The heart is beating like drums now, can hear my own heart bear. God!! is it I am afraid or tensed? or do i am excited to see him? let us do this.

I knocked on the door, and around 5 or 6 seconds, the door opened with a creaking sound. at first, I hesitated to get inside but then stepped forwards. his maid was the one who opened the door she was in shock while seeing me, then greeted me. guided to his room. each and every room is byhearted for me, I don't know why she is guiding me, maybe thought that I forgot everything. she left me outside the door and get inside a room, and after some time let me inside. "Seong??"

a man with broad shoulders, toned body long hair, eyes looking dead, and dark circles also. there are some scares too. I stepped back while seeing that, maybe my assumptions are wrong, if not then all are fake for revenge. "how are you?" "Good!" I whispered. the man standing in front of me was my whole life in the past, no!! now too. but faith keeps us separated. it is hard to control my emotion, a lot of emotions in one go. wish to run to his arms, stay with him till I die. but no use, now I am nothing to him. not nothing it's anything to him.

"Why did you leave me all alone?" "I gave you every explanation to that, then why?" "you and I know that all are just excuses then why don't you?" "it is all in past Seong, there is no need to discuss and if there is nothing else, then I'm leaving" I turned around and stepped towards the door, but next second I felt two strong arms wrapping me from the back. holding tighter, stronger, and harder. I am getting weak, why?? "Seong, please let me go" 'i won't!!" "what do you want then? " "the truth, need the truth" his sound was like a smooth whisper to my ears. nobody can hear our conversation that soft. "why are you making revenge on me, Seong? do I hurt you that much?" "you hurt me a lot Paapa! you left me all alone there, didn't contact me, hid from me, and never replied to any of my texts, why? all of them really hurt me." "I know, but when I wished to come back to you... everything changed. I was a little bit late to realize, how much I am into you" "why are you saying that you are late?? I am still waiting for you, to be with you" "stop spitting nonsense Seong, and don't pretend as if anything happened, I know everything. so please leave me" I broke his hug and moved forward. "why are you doing this to me, just tell the reason and go, I can't hold back anymore" he shouted, no I won't step back. if I take a step back the end will be more painful. "Paapa, tell me the truth, why the hell did you leave me? what made you think that you are late to get back to me?" No, I won't, no!!. "you have left me and betrayed me, if you are fucking falling out of love just tell and leave. don't act like I am the one who made all these tantrums." the provoking words, it is making my wound deeper. "you are the one who cheated on me, and now making excuses to keep your site clean, wow!! awesome, from when and where did you learn these. of course from your new boyfriend right?" this is getting out of my control. "what made you fall for him? the look, body, money, fame? what is it? maybe good for something else right?" fucking bitch!! I cursed under my breath. "of course any of these, I know well, you cheater!!" "gaesaekki!!" I rushed towards him and punched in his face. "if you spit a single word anymore you're dead then!!" "whhyy? nothing I said was wrong, everything I said is the truth, it is true and I know like crystal clear" "I said stop it!!" "no I won't, you done everything, having boyfriend, stayed away from me now even living with him. is it all true, I want to know only one thing, do you fall out of love when we are together or after that??" "stop it Seong, you are hitting the limit" "so everything is true, right?" "you fucking bitch! how can you spit such nonsense at me?? I left you because I am rapped by a bastard, because of your mother's request, for your sake and dreams. when wish to come back to you, you get back to Ae-Ri!! do I need to come to you again, after seeing you all happy and successful? do I have to come back for making you lose all these? now tell me do I betray you or not?" my eyes are streaming uncontrollably. "did you also believe that news?? is that much you know about me?" "don't pretend like it was a rumor, I saw that myself, the way you kissed her, how intimate you are to her. so stop this, drop the act. I don't want to interfere with your affairs. and goodbye!!" I pushed him back and went outside, I can hear the faded sound of his sobbing. nothing can do with me or him, it is the faith of staying apart, even after loving him more than my life.

On the way back to the exit I saw my brothers waiting outside for me, all I want to get back to my home, to my brother. ran towards them and hugged them tightly. "It's okay paapa we can understand even more than anyone in this world, let us go back to our home"