Yellow envelop

Carissa sat there pondering upon the decision. Should she do it, she thought to herself as she anticipated what was in it. Tried as she could she spent the whole day trying to ignore it but she could feel its presence calling her from a mile away.

She watched some TV hoping it would get her mind off things , she even went as far as trying to Journal. She wrote down her thoughts and feelings but it still didn’t help her not at all.

Finally not being able to take the anxiety over the anticipation of how it was going to turn out. So like any normal person would have done, she took it out of the drawer and placed it on the table.

She paced around the room, nervous at what was inside and she shook slightly as she remembered the way he went back to doing what he was doing like she was nothing.

Taking a deep breath, she opened the envelop with unsteady hands and to her surprise she found inside a single sheet of paper.

As she scrambled to look at the contents of it she was rendered speechless at the words that she read at the top of the page.

Contract to be Escort

The words were written in bold. She wondered what this was about. As she continue to read she realized that she was being offered a chance to sign an official contract to be an escort.

She read the rules out loud to herself hoping that it would make her better understand the context of what was in the contract

The first thing that stood out to her was that, it stated that if any of the mentioned are broken or not followed through she would have to face persecution and possibly prison.

She wondered if she should even be continuing for the way it seemed was that this would all blow up in her face.

‘This document contains private information and if published in any shape or form to the public, the party involved will be hejmgld for the above mentioned’ she read out loud as she took it all in.

‘Party B( Carissa Jade)in this transaction will have to abide by the rules by Party B (Mr. Rivers)by all means no matter the circumstance given. She read on.

‘Party B will have to do what is expected of her no matter the given circumstance.

She took in all the details of the contract trying to understand the what was being said on the paper. She googled it and what came up, she couldn’t even begin to explain. This was it she knew it that it was going to be bad.

In a panicked state, she left the house gathering her shoes and her sling bag. As she left her apartment. She couldn’t bear to stand any minute in the apartment, she needed air.

She left the apartment in a daze, as she hurriedly made her way to the exit of the apartment complex. She needed something , anything.

Rushing down the streets, she wanted have an ice cream something that would make her calm down.

She sat on the public bench , watching strangers go by eating her ice cream. Pondering upon whether anything was ever worth it , why was she living again.

Looking on she watched as a mother stopped her toddler from crying. This reminded her of her mother , she was so kind and loving and would do anything for her. She really had to stop feeling so miserable she thought to herself. She must have looked so miserable she thought to herself . During midday, eating ice cream on a bench and watching people go by. She needed a life. One that consisted of friends and all , that she could go o parties with and have all the fun that people with friends do.

Why couldn't she just be happy, enjoy all life has to offer. She really didn't understand why.

One stranger stopped to as her 'Are you okay' the man carrying a coffee said in a preppy tone. 'I'm fine' she replied flatly.

'You don't look fine' he insisted but all Carissa ever wanted was to be left alone, so she could feel every bit of sadness. She deserved to be aloe anyways, this life wasn't meant for her. 'How about you have some coffee with me or something' the kind man offered but she declined and thanked him.

She walked back home taking little steps,dragging the walk as much as she could. The man's voice rang in her head repeatedly 'I want you to be my wife' . And yet once she opened the envelop it said something about her being an escort. She didn't understand what was going on and she needed the clarity.Even though she wasn't planning on looking into it at all.

She took a deep breath as she neared her apartment , something about the place made her feel unsafe and depressed, maybe it was the fact that she was supposed to be living with Luke. The fact that he left her all alone , maybe that was it. As she got out the keys ad opened the door then entered she felt it all come back again , the panic and the emptiness.

Doing what she normally did she normally does she went into her bedroom , desperately looking for the stash of white powder that she always had. She took out her card and took it in, immediately she could feel the effect taking in. Now she felt better,she could do her things . Have her diner without having to ridden with thoughts and feelings that she didn’t want in the first place.

Getting out her toothbrush she went to brush her teeth, somehow she always felt the need to do so when she was done with that.

What followed after hat was a series of good emotions , she felt relaxed excited , happy beautiful all at the same time. She wanted to do things she had never wanted to do all of a sudden. Being stuck with an idea she thought why not go out tonight. Get some air , mingle with a few people ad dance around until she couldn’t feel her legs.