There has never been a day that passed that I do not have his thought in mind. It could either be the thoughts of grinding and rocking myself on him or plainly just thoughts of him and what he could be doing and it could be the thoughts of what future awaits our marriage after the contract. Was it going to be the designated plan of divorce? Or was it going to be taken to a new dimension of fate?
My heart was torn into a million pieces when he made me realize he doesn't want a child with me which on the other note means he does not see anything after the contract. I was obviously wanting too much and thinking beyond the necessary plan.
I picked up my phone and dialed Clara's number. She seems to be the only and nearest resort for me at the moment but she ended up not picking up.