It is just dark... (2)

Next day the boy woke up again rubbing his eyes looking at the sun on top of skies covered in dark clouds and slowly little rain drops making it's way towards him

"Kugh! Rud? Will?..."

The boy muttered those words in a half conscious state, his back was in pain, he could still feel the burn on his skin at the back

Some rain drops fell over his face and he shortly regained his whole consciousness and looked what was in front of him

But as he opened his eyes suddenly he noticed his friend Rud lying besides him with widened eyes as if they were about to pop out

"Gyaaahhh!"

The boy was scared silly and immediately jumped back but suddenly he started laughing

"Hahaha! Stop joking hahaha! Why are you joking like that so early in morning!?"

The boy thought it was all a joke and started laughing but even after seconds turned into minutes no response came from his friend

"Hey... Rud .. It isn't funny... Hey..."

The boy slowly recalled the memories from yesterday and the wave of nervousness and fear rushed back inside him

He slowly gathered his guts to approach his friend and shooked his body in a little hope he had

"Hey... Rud?"

As he pushed that body, the deep hole at centre of Rud's body became visible to that boy and for a moment his whole body was paralysed but next moment he also rushed back with fear written all over his face

"Uwaaaahhhh!!!! This isn't possible!!!! Uwa-rud!?!"

Suddenly the boy fell as he felt like his legs had stepped over something, he opened his eyes again and looked over his hands

It was covered completely in blood, he slowly gathered guts and looked at the other side, his other hand was now inside the hole over the stomach of another small begger's body

"Aaaahhh!!!! Save! Save me!!!"

The boy immediately started running away desperately, he tripped over several things, he didn't stop his attempts until he was on the edge of whole dugged out ground

His whole body was covered in red blood of others and this time he finally realised that he was surrounded by all the corpses of the beggars he had lived with till now

The boy was scared silly and immediately ran away, the tears from eyes couldn't stop but those also disappeared under the heavy rainfall

His mind was in chaos, the blood slowly got washed away under that intense rainfall but now he saw himself in front of a random church in middle of nowhere inside a forest

"Oh my? Are you lost?"

He noticed a nun was standing in front of him with brown hairs and a few marks over her face, the boy wasn't in his right mind after things that had happened in front of him

"Sheesh! No reply huh? Come lets have breakfast..."

The nun didn't care and brought him inside and treated him some food, the boy just ate what he had without any focus or light inside his eyes

"Geez, let me wipe it!"

The nun shooked her head seeing food leaking from his mouth and wiped it with a smile over her face

"May the Gods protect you!"

At the end of breakfast, the nun gave a smile and blessing to that boy and left for her duties

'God... Protecting me?...'

The boy seemed troubled by those words but his face was still stone cold, it was as if his own consciousness was starting to reject emotions now

The boy started living with that nun from that day on, his life was particularly quite peaceful, living with a beautiful nun inside quite peaceful forest

Getting proper food, living a good life and nothing to worry about

"Oohh! Shawn! Let's eat breakfast!"

Each day he was greeted by that smiling face of nun, his emotions have returned to normal and two years passed that were possibly his best days in this world

But of course the world doesn't seem to accept this, because one day....

"Do-don't do that! That's for-!?"

The voices of a scared nun could be heard near him, he was hiding in bushes as he saw the nun getting dragged by a few cultists outside of church

"Hey! Stop! Don't you dare!!!"

The boy reflexively tried to help the nun and rushed towards those cultists from behind the bushes but what can a mere 13 year old kid even do

He was thrown to corner by a single toss of one of cultist's hand, his body got smashed over one of the trees and fell on ground

"Shawn!!! Shawn! Run away!!!"

Till the last moment the nun was shouting for Shawn to run away but right in front of the boy's eyes the nun was dragged out in her knees

Despite her dozens of attempts she was tied to a wood and after a little evil rituals she got surrounded by those cultists

"May the Evil God rise!"

"May the evil rise!!!"

The cultists said that and immediately thrusted a big sword right through the nun's chest, the eyes of that nun widened to peak as she looked forward

He gaze was looking towards direction of boy and even that boy was still looking towards the nun with eyes widened

He wanted to move but clearly his body has taken too much damage and he couldn't even move as blood had covered almost his whole face

"Aahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"

Right in front of his eyes the nun was burnt to crisp along with the church in the middle of day and no one to save anyone here

The cultists shortly left with grins over their faces and that was the point where all light in his world vanished,

From this point on there wasn't a single day where he had lived in peace and even the tiniest hope in his life never even appeared ever again

The boy kept crying for next 8 days in front of the nun's dead body and on his 8th day he quietly picked up a white badge of one sided wings which had turned reddish black because of fury of flames and blood

He looked like some malnutrished kid now but don't know how he just managed to survive because of various coincidences

And after living his next 5 years in alleys and places filled with extreme darkness he managed to register at adventure's guild

The boy survived, and he just barely survived, kept surviving for next whole decade, reached B rank through his deep efforts

But still even after whole decade he had zero friends, no family, and no connection with anything

He was just a emotionless man living for survival, the world was only cold towards him, because even now as he was 28, he was standing inside a dungeon with rough beards and hairs and no light inside his eyes

Standing in front of him were his 4 party members, a swordsman, a female mage, an assassin and a healer, all grinning towards his direction coldly

"Be the bait and wait for our return Shawn!"

"Yeah! We are your friends after all!"

"Right!"

"You will do this for us right? After all we are A rank party and..."

The boy had turned into a man but he could still see through those sly faces, caring only about themselves, no mercy and closeness whatsoever

Just there gazes told him what was his fate, he turned his head back and noticed dozens of hounds with drooling faces were standing on other side of barrier he had created with magic

"I don't want to..."

'but... I won't mind...'

He hasn't completed his sentence yet but as he turned back he noticed the assassin of the party was looking at him with big bold grin over his face and his dagger had already pierced through Shawn's waist

"You have too~"

All his party memebers looked at him coldly and suddenly the swordsman commented

"You shall do at least this much Shawn, we were your friends right~"

With that as his eyes started turning heavy he noticed all his party members turning their backs on him and leaving him alone for death

The barrier was also starting to crack and in middle of all this the mind of Shawn finally cracked

"This time I got betrayed too huh..."

A moment before death, his whole life flashed right in front of his eyes, from the parents who sold him for money, that being his first betrayal

Then the back of that noble kid and knights who killed his other family of beggars in cold daylight, next the back of cultists who burnt down the nun who gave most warmth to him

Then followed by countless times he was betrayed in his life, no matter if it was a girl who betrayed him for his wealth and ran away

His dozens of former party members who left him alone in dangerous situations for their own survival just like today

All those backs filled with darkness and betrayal passed right through his eyes, his whole life what he had seen was only betrayal and sadness

In his last moments he slowly grabbed that same burnt black badge of wings in his hands filled with blood and thought

"Why... God?"

'Was I really that bad... I don't remember committing any sins... So just why only me... Why do you take every happiness away from me

... Why do you destroy all my hopes'

The man gritted his teeth and shouted as the barrier stopping monsters also broke

"Why do you hate me so much?!"

The man shouted, but he has yet to realise God can really hear him loud and clear

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[Author's cursing corner _ Hey! You fucking bastards... I can tell there are really about dozens of you reading this shit

I just checked it over report from webnovel but you all fucking dark hearted cultists, are you commissioned by that Evil God to not even give a single comment,

There are just 3-4 good hearted Saints among you all pieces of dark dimension ghosts here! Give comments for your mother's sake (if you have one)]

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