Friends...?

Short-term friends? Close friends or what best friends? How do you define a friend, what's your explanation of friends? Yeah, I want to know cuz I think that A friend is someone who helps you when you need them the most when it's hard you can rely on them when you want to cry they gonna be there, don't matter that they will be there in real life, they can also be there online talking shits with you and can easily make you less anxious. Yeah, I don't have any best friends or close friends, I have some good people who help me and make time for me when I need them. It doesn't matter if you have a best friend or close friends who always stay with you, the thing which matters the most is you and them.

You might be thinking that what am I even saying, at first I wrote, temporary friends, then I am asking you what a friend is, then I am telling you I have got good friends. So, let me clear this all up, I was confused about friends, so someone helped me clear up this and made me realize that I got a lot of good friends, and the person who helped me to get this is also my friend, not any best friend or close friend, just a good friend whom I met online. That's when I knew that I got enough good friends and a sister who can easily calm me from anything just by her presence. She is my closest friend and also the girl I adore the most. No one can take her place in my life.

Do you trust online friends? My parents and other adults whom I met told me not to engage too much online. But how can I tell them that I don't have any social life in real, I have friends in school but we never talk on calls, never met outside, and I talked only with 3 or 4 classmates via texts, but yeah, it was still amazing to talk with them. But yeah, I can say that I have more online friends, and they are special to me, cuz they never met me, and never even talked in real life but still, I can tell them stuff with being most comfortable.

I have this one friend who is special to me. I have never met him, he never saw me in real life and the same goes for me too but that person is just special to me. There were times when I was anxious and was just crying way too much that time I need someone and after some time, he texted me without knowing that I was getting a panic attack, just a simple text

" Heyy girl, sup?"

" I don't know, it's really hard," I replied with this and you gonna laugh at what he said

"I know right, Physics is hard."

That was the time when I smiled during a panic attack, feeling dizzy and stuck but still smiling. He indeed hurt me too sometimes, but he can easily pull a smile on my face just with a simple text even if I am at my worst. Whenever I was stressed, I talked with him. Now it's all different, we still are friends but things changed. I will tell you, guys, about it later, just remember he is my favourite person after my sister. My online friends are amazing.

There is this one person whom I met online and we don't talk daily but still, we have a great bond, like mother and son lol and I just don't know much but yeah they are amazing and I met one recently who doesn't talk much though, still they are amazing. I wanna thank them for being my friends and listening to my stressful shits and making me feel like I am not alone. It's not like I only have online friends, there is one school friend of mine who is the best. She helps me a lot.

I wanna write a little letter to those good friends and my sister who was there for me,

" Heyy guys,

you all are just amazing don't ever forget it. Thanks for making time for me when we are all busy making our own life better. Thanks for listening to my stressful shit, thanks to you all for being with me when I cried, and Thanks to you all for making me feel special. I just wanna thank you lot. Thanks for helping in times when I felt miserable way too much. I wish you all stay happy always and never get sad. I will do my best to never make you upset. You guys deserve the whole world, I think you guys already know that I am talking about you guys. I don't have enough words to express myself. I just wanna say, I love you guys, I love you, I will be there when you need me, and I will try to be there. still, respond to my texts, and don't just say cool on everything.

I love you. you guys are the best."

These are the ones who know about my mental health, and I think only these people have seen my messed-up side. Sorry, If I annoyed you ever, cuz I know I have done that still when I asked if I am annoying you guys said no, so I am gonna be more annoying lemme apologise for that.

Things gonna be difficult, but

"We all need that someone who gets you like no one, right when you need it the most. We all need a soul to rely on, a shoulder to cry on, a friend through the highs and the lows, I am not gonna make it a-la, la-la-la-la-la, la, la-la-la-la-la-'lone. "

- lyrics from Alone, Pt. II by Alan Walker, Ava max

to be continued...