Father's retirement party (part one)

Two weeks have gone by.

Two weeks since I called William and told him I'm redrawing from the film score project.

Two weeks since he touched me. I feel clean now. I feel no more guilt. But just because I feel clean doesn't mean I don't miss his touch.

Because I do. I feel like I'm going crazy. I have dreamt about him touching me in my dreams repetitively whilst I slept next to my boyfriend.

I have been cheating on Chris with William in my dreams.

God, I have no shame. The least I can do is to avoid him to save my dignity. But it getting harder for me. Because he's everywhere I am. In my house, at orchestra practice, and anywhere I go with my sister. He is there tormenting making my body beg to feel his touch once again.

Now I will see him again at my father's retirement party with my sister in his arms.

Will I feel jealous? Yes.

Will I feel jealous if my boyfriend Chris flirts with another woman? Yes