Confused

                             *JK POV*

It's been 1 month since I met Lisa and she never contacted me after that day for which I'm more than grateful. Everything is going fine with my relationship with Y-N.  We are falling more and more in love with eachother by every passing day. From the time I met Y-N, my life is filled with happiness which I've never felt before her. As usual I was busy working on some documents in my office when my phone rang. I subconsciously attended it without seeing the caller ID.

                               *On Call*

JK: "Hello!"

OTP: "Jungkook?" Whimpering

I stopped what I was doing upon hearing the person whom I least wanted to right now.

JK: "I warned you that if you'd ever contact me again I'll kill you-"

I was interupted in mid sentence by her which took me in complete shock.

Lisa: "Jungkook I'm pregnant!"

She said in a loud voice.

I composed myself before replying...

JK: "You should call Bambam instead of me if that's the case!"

Lisa: "It's your child you bastard!" 

She yelled out angrily.

JK: "Are you insane or what. How could it be mine?"

Lisa: "Did you already forget the day when you came to meet me at night all drunken and waisted."

JK: "You asked me to come over, I didn't wanted to ok!"

I muttered gritting my teeth in frustration.

Lisa: Yeah but I had never asked you to be drunk and -"

She started crying

I swallowed the lump in my throat before replying...

JK: "I know you are not pregnant and even if you are it's not my child because I won't ever do such cheap thing in my life although I'm not myself so stop messing with me and get lost!"

I said and immediately cut the line. I took the glass of water which was placed on my desk and started drinking it when a message popped on my phone screen. I checked it and it was from Lisa stating "You're a coward Jeon Jungkook for not accepting what you did and first destroyed my life and now your child's too!" A file was uploaded under the text and believe me as soon I opened it, I almost died of an heart attack. There was a pregnancy report of Lisa in front of me and it was positive. She's two week pregnant. The problem is not that but what if she isn't lying about me and I really did something that night.

"I still can't remember anything, what should I do now?"

I questioned myself in disbelief from the events happening lately in my life turning it up-side down for the worse in just a blink of an eye.

                         (End Of Flashback)

                    *PRESENT DAY/ Y-N Pov*

He told me everything from start to end. By looking into his eyes I can tell he's been honest but still I need time to take things and also the deed which is already done can't be change. I know he didn't do it purposely but it was his doing. A fact which is standing tall between us like great wall of china. As time passes I might forgive him and may finally move on from him but he'll always be there in my heart as my first and probably the last love. He will also be living happily with Lisa and his child. I think this is the best thing to do with our lives and I feel like everything which happens has a reason, who knows this might have one, but I hope it's only for good since I can't take anymore damage.

Well we ate our dinner in silence and after that he dropped me home. The ride was pretty much awkward but somewhat had a sense of relief between us. We talked little about the work before I see him off. I directly went to my bedroom and plopped down on bed sighing tiredly.

It's 2:00 in the morning and I can't happen to fall asleep. My mind is running with all the things JK has told me earlier.  One of them which is bothering me the most is that, I remember the day of company's anniversary and JK wasn't so drunk when he left from the party. I know he had a cheers drink and I also saw him gulping down some shots at the bar but when he met me in the balcony he was sober and composed enough to tell what is right or wrong. What I'm trying to say is that he isn't a light drinker and he very well knows how to control and manage himself when drunk. The chain of my thoughts broke when Sara speak out of nowhere scaring the hell out of me.

"Where were you bitch?"

Sara asked me crossing her arms.

"Aish Sara, what are you doing here? I thought you were asleep."

I told her while sitting up

"I did fell asleep waiting for you and now you answer me...

When did you came home and what made you so lost that you didn't notice me getting into your room?"

She questioned me raising her brows.

"Nancy treated me for dinner today and I came home sharp at 10:00pm. About being lost it's nothing, I was thinking about the project I'm working on!"

I replied to her but I can tell she wasn't moved with my words but still nodded. I continued....

"Now if you got your answers leave please because it's already late and I need some sleep. Just don't forget to wake me up on time for the office!"

She rolled her eyes at me and left from there. However, before leaving she asked me if something is wrong between me and Tae because she hasn't seen him lately, neither me tho6. If I think about it, he didn't contacted me once from past days. I hope he's fine, I'll talk to him tomorrow.

Now Y-N stop contemplating and making false assumption about JK to justify his doings. Go to sleep otherwise you'll be worn out tomorrow. After talking to myself like a crazy person I fell into deep slumber leaving everything behind.

                                  XXXX

In the morning, Sara woke me up and tbh I didn't want to get up yet because I'm hella tired. It's nothing new, I'm always tired and lazy without doing anything much at such a young age. I eventually got out of bed and did my morning routine. I made myself toast and coffee for the breakfast because that bitch went to sleep again after waking me up. Pfft...

I decided to take a bus for the office today since it's been awhile I traveled through it. I reached my destination after a 20min of ride. I was walking in the corridor when I saw Nancy walking opposite me busy with some files.

"Nancy!" I shouted and ran to her throwing my arms over her for a hug.

"Woah woah girl, what's wrong with you today?"

Nancy asked me confused.

"There's nothing wrong stupid, can't you see I'm in a good mood also the weather out is like a cherry on the top. Let's go out to eat later!"

I replied smiling widely at her. She hugged me again before saying...

"I missed this version of you so much Y-N. I'm glad you are back to your old self!" 

I nodded and we both walked over to our cabins talking and laughing about silly things.

Nancy is my very good friend since the day I joined in here. I didn't give much attention to her these past few days and now I feel guilty about it because she never once complained to me and sticked closer to me all the time. I'm so lucky to have her and Taehyung by my side when I needed them the most.

I have decided to be myself again leaving everything behind like it never happened. I made everyone so worried about me due to my depression but now I've realized that depression is nothing different from death. You know why? Because you become numb like a dead body. You don't care about anything, you only see darkness around you, even when your loved one's are crying for you, begging for you to come back to life you just seem to go far and far in a maze where there's no way back. That's when you realise it's the end of everything. 

Well I'm lucky to find a way back to my life before it has been too late. Yes, I don't want to die yet because I still have a big life ahead of me. I just need to find a purpose to live again.

It's a busy day since we are at the end of this month and all the work needs to be done. I sighed leaning in my chair after completing tons of projects. I took my phone to see some updates but what caught me off guard is that I've texted Taehyung in the morning but he didn't reply to them. I started dialing his number but again it's out of reach. I guess I should go see him. But the question here is, where would I find him? He never told me anything about himself much but I remember once he mentioned something like base over the phone with someone. Also it should be nearby from here since he stopped to some place one time while he was taking me to a cafe for lunch and had parked the car on a roadside telling me he has to finish an important business there he would get back to car in a minute.

"Perfect, it must be his office and it won't be so difficult to find. So it's decided if he don't call me back or reply to my text before the break time I'll go out to hunt him down myself!" I chuckled mischievously at my smartness.