Chapter 119 The Painful Choice

~Pov Ragnar~ (First person)

The hour of feelings must once more be spent wisely and today was the day. Today I will tell Julia the truth behind Zaqras, tell her that he died, to protect us from possible backslashes.

The walk to Julias realm was quick and lonely. My thoughts ran wild on the way, a feeling I've learned to appreciate over the year. No matter how sad, angry, or evil they are. The ability to care for anything, it is so refreshing to Me. It feels like eating a ice cream that doesn't melt in the heat, on a hot summer day. It makes me feel like myself. But in the end, I can't feel the emptiness of my hearth, while it's empty. But that is how I am now. I have to accept it and maybe find something to help against it.

I arrived at Julias realm, two minutes later. It was big and grand, standing tall, over all the other realms. Even mine, but in reality mine is bigger. I just made it small, on the outside, so no one would find and or bother me!

I entered the realm and walked on the light bridge, that greeted me. Hundreds of big islands surrounded an even bigger island, which the bridge led too. Some small gods of lights, came to greet me. I smiled at the small creatures approaching me.

" Who are you? Are you a friend of mom?" One of the small children asked me, exited to meet someone new.

" Oh course kid, I'm a good friend of your mother! I'm here to meet her, can you guide me to her?" I asked the kid, crouching down to her level.

" Mmh, okey, mom's this way." The kid said, as she ran away with the other kids. Expecting me to follow. So follow I did. The small gods and goddesses brought me to the biggest island. In other words, we just followed the bridge. When we arrived I said goodbye and entered a castle like mansion.

The inside was completely bright, with not a single corner of Darkness. The night could not touch the mansion. Making my nightwater practically useless here. Thankfully, I didn't fully rely on the nightwater to observe my surroundings. As my eyes were still as beautiful and plenty, as they used to be.

I walked towards where I felt Julia. She sat in a garden with a bunch of flowers and a table with some chairs next to it.

When I got there, a pot of tea and some cookies were waiting for me, together with Julia, who was sitting in one of the white, royal like chairs.

" To what do I own the pleasure Ragnar? You don't come here very often, so it must be important!" Julia asked me. I sighted and pulled out one of the chairs.

I sat down and sighted once more, before grabbing one of the teacups on the table and filled it with tea. Then I asked one simple question.

" How much do you love Zaqras?" To which she replied.

" That's a very personal question, but since it's you, I will tell you. I love him a lot. Ever since I had Xelena, I never loved someone again. I didn't even try. The betrayal of Xelenas father devastated me and made me distrust everyone. But Zapras, he was different, different from anyone I've ever met. He saw me, for me. Not for my powers, not for my connections and not for my family. He saw me and I could tell he loved me. Even if he was to afraid to tell anyone. That's why, I will always love him!"

I sipped some tea and said.

" I see, well let me be the ice breaker Julia. I didn't wish to tell you back then, because you found out that you lost Paarthadox. But now, I feel like I have to tell you! Zaqras and me, we are both part of chaos. Chaos is pure existence. I only have a fraction of a soul, thanks to my linage. But even me, if I died, would never live again. Not to mention Zaqras. He is dead, never to return!"

" What, why, why did he do that then? His sacrifice was needless. He could have just disappeared and come back later. Why would he do this to me, to us. Please Ragnar, there got to be something you can do!" Julia begged, accept reality instantly. I think she was suspecting this to be the case, all along.

I sighted loudly and said.

" Yes, but are you sure you want it Julia. What I will give you instead, might not sit morally right with you! Or the being who will do this for you!"

" I don't know, tell me first. What are you saying."

" Even as we speak, Chaoswalkers are being made, where I last set foot in chaos! Zapras is dead, but I could change one of the new borns to be an exacts replica of Zapras with all his memories. But remember Julia, Zapras will always be dead and one innocet chaoswalker will be scarifised to fill your empty heart. Are you willing to let it die, for your pleasure?" I told her, getting real serious.

Julia flinched at my dangerously serious expression. Which sent all her instincts into hyperdrive.

" I don't know. If it means he can live again. Then I'm willing to live with that guilt!"

" You seem to be understanding this wrong young girl! He is dead! Dead I tell you. To put it bluntly Julia. You will ruin a beings life, for your pleasure. Make it live an illusion with memories it never had. Missing the life, it was supposed to have. Don't use excuses, like it's for his sake. This is purely for you. But Julia, it's okey to be selfish, no one will know. No one will judge and I certainly won't. I'm the one giving you these options and I've done way worse things. But never say it's for him, because it isn't. So Julia what will it be, I will not add my opinion after this. Your choice is law. But remember, it is your choice, not mine, not his, yours!" I said.

Julia sat down in the chair again. Some time under the conversation, she had stood up. She spent some time thinking before saying.

" I can't, I can't do it Ragnar. I will be disrespecting Zaqras and his replacement by doing this. There is nothing to gain." Julia said, crying her eyes out.

" I respect your choice Julia. It's a choice I've never be able to make. For I am selfish. Your choice shows one thing Julia, even if it makes me tear up for your sake. You truly love him." I said, as I stood up and gave her a hug. Then I walked towards the exit of the garden, before stopping.

" Never forget this day Julia! Let it be a memory of strength and courage. Never regret it, embrace your flawless choice!" Then I left the realm. Not stopping for anything. Until I entered my realm and then chaos.

As I entered chaos, I punched forward. The strength behind the punch, alerted every sun vermin here. But none of them interrupted my rage.

" Why must everyone around me suffer? Why, why?" I cried out, as I took out my rage around the thing around me, until I stopped.

(Pov changes to third person as Ragnar couldn't be bothered to care about narrating)

Ragnar simply stopped being outrage, as his time of giving a fuck stopped. He simply healed all the damage he caused and reentered his mansion and rested on his throne. While he was doing so, chaos took over his consciousness and he entered his inner realm.

~Pov Julia~ (Third person)

The flowers in the garden slowly withered, as Julia sat next to the chair. The light in the garden and the realm slowly died down and darkness started to sneak in. The small gods and goddesses noticed this and hurried inside.

When they saw the state of their mother figure, they ran up to her. But not everyone did, the small goddesses that led Ragnar here, clenched her fist and said.

" What did that man do to you? We will find him mom, we will find him and get revenge for you!" At this Julia looked up at the goddess and smiled at her.

" Please don't, he is a good friend. He just told me that your dad Zaqras, is dead!" Julia said and several of the gods and goddesses gasped and tears showed in the corners of their eyes.

" Zaqras dead, but how. He was so stwong. Even you couldn't beat him!" One of the goddesses said, while over exaggerating on how strong he was. Julia smiled at her and said.

" The dimension is cruel and will kill everything it can! It just so happened that it was able to get him through our realms, as they are wrongly made and connected to a dimension! Thankfully Ragnar fixed this slightly when he got back. So now I'm able to be here for real. But please, may I spend some time by myself? I promise to make all the light come back. I forgot I needed to keep up the light in the realm. Now, shush shush, I'm just goin to need some hours!" Julia said, before asking them kindly to leave.

After they left she rested her head on the table and rested slightly, some tears escaping her eyes.

~Pov Trio of hope~ (First person/third person/ all person) (Simply put it, their mind is to unstable to have first person, but it's still first person and this is how it looks like)

He grabed the god by the head then I grabbed it by the arm. We supper slammed it and Petro guy petrified.

Blood touching the skin, yet burning at the touch. Screams of pain and cheers of joy. A world out of hell and one of heaven. Salvation was brought and it came in our form.

Absulte death, is what was given. The gods, they foolish and dumb. Thinking life was good, when death is better. Thats why salvation we bring.

All around, death we found. Gods cried and he joyed. Why we celebrate killing, Know I do not. But I know one thing. System thing, it wants us to kill, so kill is what will be done.

" Oy that's mine, you ugly bastard!" Said some hypocritical bastard, that only had some eyes.

" No it's obviously mine, are your Parents brother and sister, because you act like a retard, at every chance you get." The response was, fight was done.

(Third person now, as they are a bit to uncivilized)

The creature fought itself, yet it was still killing everything around it. System notification after system notification, all telling the stupid trio of their gains. But they didn't notice a thing. They were to caught up in their little fight to notice it. But at least they killed more and more until everything was literally dead. That's when they finally stopped. But they ignored the system notification and simply left the realm and continued killing and killing, until finally one of them remembered the system and made the others also remember.

" Oh right, that exists too. I forgot, as I don't really find it important."

" Me neither."

" Okey that's enough hurting the systems none existing feelings, let's check our rewards!

( Author here: gib power stones! Anyways chapter tomorrow, have a great day or night! Author out :) )