Young Love?

"Don't leave me behind."

The suns rays came up as I lay on my back, my arm was over my eyes to block the doom peaking through the blinds...and I didn't sleep a wink.

How could I?

His words reverberated in my mind. The truths his spilled...everything until that very last sentence. What did he mean by that? When did I ever leave him anywhere? He was the one leaving me!

I turned, looking at Ray. He was breathing lightly, his chest slowly rising and falling. It was astonishingly cute to watch the brute seem so normal.

I couldn't help myself as I lightly touched his cheek. He was warm. I blushed just thinking about feeling him behind me as I slept. I didn't know why he was being so nice to me...I didn't understand...

I moved, leaning in to kiss him but trying to do it as quietly as I could. I felt it was overdue from last night. I felt bad for what he had said even though I didn't know what I did wrong. I just wanted him to know I cared about him...just like I knew he cared about me.

So I went in for the kill, taking a chance and feeling his calming lips under mine. I let up a bit, noticing he didn't stir, but my thrill only intensified. I kind of wanted more...like how we held each other yesterday. I wanted to show him that his feelings weren't one sided...even if I couldn't bring myself to tell him.

So, I held my hand to his cheek, rubbing down his jawline as I kissed him again. Parting his lips, as I rounded on top of him. My body wasn't staying calm, it was jumping into hyperdrive. I hadn't had any relations in a while...and just rubbing my hand down his chest began to send shockwaves through my body. He was really muscular and tone and I don't know why, but my jealousy spread south in a quick minute!

Hands suddenly fell on my back as a tongue pierced through my lips. Well...Ray was awake, but I didn't want him always on the advantage. So I moved my hips over his, rubbing my tongue over the roof of his mouth as running my hand through his hair. His breathing began to strengthen as I let out a moan, only to feel Ray's strong arms pull me away from him.

HIs eyes...were green. He told me that only when he was mad or sad that his eyes changed. What about...when he was...

"Don't start something you can't finish, Niko." He warned, his cool eyes melting me.

What did he mean by that?! Who said I couldn't finish this? I initiated it!!

Hell, even in my condition...I wanted more, but he got up as my body rolled off him. He wasn't mad, or at least I didn't think so, but he also wasn't happy. What happened to the gentle soul from the night before?!

So, before he got too far away, I grabbed his hand: as he looked back at my confused eyes. Should I tell him that I heard what he said? Should I tell him I know he will protect me and that I don't plan on leaving his side?

"I," I started, "I just want to know more about you."

He leaned into me, kissing my forehead again. "You will, in time."

Our hands dropped as he went to the freezer. He grabbed an icepack and headed back over toward my direction. It kinda made me mad he didn't want to feel each other out. I don't do this to just anyone ya know?

He motioned for me to lay down, which I did, as he gave me the ice. "You need to take care of yourself first. I can be a bit rough when it comes to things like that...and today's not the day to try."

I guess I can't be mad that he was thinking about my wellbeing. Plus, that wasn't a legit no but a future plan of attack. Or...maybe that's just what I was hoping, but Ray got up to leave .

"I'll make you some breakfast so you can take your medicine. After that, I'll take you home."

Home? I felt my eyes fall from his then. I didn't want to go back...not now. I wanted one more night in Ray's arms...or a few for that matter. It was just going to be weird without...

"I'll stay with you tonight. You're moving tomorrow, right?"

I felt like a dog wagging his tail. He wasn't leaving me yet!

"Yep!"

He chuckled, shaking his head, as he left to the kitchen. "Well, I'll help you move to your new place, then. After that, I need to get back to work."

"Ok!"

I wide smile was on my face as he left out of the room. I was happier than a kid in a candy store! Plus, if I felt better...maybe he wouldn't refuse me twice.

The demon horns sprang on my head as my nose grew. Fuck...who could resist me that long anyway? HAHAHA!

But, first things first, I kinda had to pee! I didn't really use Ray's restroom yesterday. Initially I was on the couch in his living room when the doctor came in to check on me. So, the closest toilet was behind his extravagant kitchen.

As I opened the door, I quickly went over to his bidet. I sighed in relief, as I took it all in. It was amazing what money could do! He had a walk in shower, a sauna, a walk in tub...that looked like it was a jacuzzi...ALL IN ONE SPACE!! Maybe I should just move in with him. Sure, I'd see Kizuna every day, but A JACUZZI!!

Finishing, I walked over to the sink to wash my hands. However, a photograph caught my eye. No...sucked me in.

My heart stopped, as I turned off the faucet and picked up a picture. It was a family photograph. There was a striking, but devilish, man with yellow eyes in a kimono with three boys. The tallest one, who looked like he was around 19, had white hair and green eyes. He had a snarking grin as he folded his arms. Maybe that was Ray's eldest brother, Imura.

Then there was the boy in the middle, a which looked like a high-school aged Yahiko. He had the same haircut and menacing demeanor.

Yet, when my eyes glanced over to the last child...I could barely breathe.

"Niko?" I heard Ray call from the bedroom.

Ray...ray is...

His voice continued to sound muffled in my thoughts as I stared at the boy in the picture. His red hair...his eyes...why would Ray have a picture of Ryou in his bathroom?

"They change when I'm angry...they also change when I'm sad."

His eyes...were the same. They were the...no...NO!

There was a knock, but it felt like it was miles away, as the bathroom door opened.

"Niko, your food's re-"

I looked up at him and his eyes were on the photograph.

"Why didn't you tell me..." I said, hearing my voice crack.

He sighed, his eyes, for the first time, not meeting mine.

"Ryou!"

It only took a split second. It was his gaze, his secret that shattered as I held the picture of the boy I knew towards his face. That's when I got my answer.

Ryou became a yakuza...and the man I loved.