SELFISH

Vincenzo entered Anna's room with his hands forming fists. He could not explain the anger that he felt.

How could she have hidden something like that from him?

"Why didn't you tell me ?", he asked her.

He could see that she had been crying. Her eyes looked puffy and a part of him wanted to go to her bed and pull her closer to him.

Tell her that everything was going to be okay. He couldn't though. She had pissed him and he wanted to stay far away from her as much as he could.

"How could I tell you when you were in the hospital sick ?", she asked him.

"That is not an excuse not to tell me ", he said raising his voice at her.

How could he say that to her though? Did he know how she had been disturbed because she hadn't told him?

The thought of him finding out from someone else had eaten her up but she knew even if she told him there was nothing he would do.

She had never known if he ever wanted to have kids and all of a sudden she was supposed to go to him and tell him that she had lost a kid.

It had been hard on her and then they had given her things to do so that she could focus elsewhere. She had forgotten it for a while.

It didn't hurt because she had lost the baby. What hurt was the fact that she did not feel bad about it.

The guilt she was feeling was eating her up. She knew some people wanted to have kids but sadly she was not one of those people.

She felt nothing and that was what scared her.

She never wanted to be a mother. She never grew up with one and did not want to raise kids that were broken as much as she was.

"Briana is having your kid how was I supposed to tell you I had been pregnant and had a miscarriage ?", Anna asked him and he looked at him wondering why she had to think about that being an issue in the first place.

"You're my wife and we are not even sure that she is having my kid ", Vincenzo scoffed.

"I want a divorce ", Anna said and she could see the anger in Vincenzo's eyes fade away and be replaced by something she had never seen before.

Fear.

"Are you leaving me because of Briana?", he asked her.

"No for once can you please stop thinking about yourself? I am leaving cause I think I deserve better. I deserve someone excited to get off work to come home to me not one who avoids me ", Anna said feeling confident with the courage.

"I deserve someone who finds me interesting enough to keep trying to know me. Someone who loves me and would do anything to see me happy ", Anna said as her voice broke.

"I want to stay but I know that won't be fair to myself. I know you won't give me what I want so it's pointless of me to stay hoping for you to change ", Anna said and a tear dropped down her face which she quickly wiped.

"I want you to stay. I will give you whatever you want. I'll love you the way you want to be loved, I don't want you to leave. I love you Anna ", he said and Anan chuckled.

She had wanted to hear those words so many times big now that she did they meant absolutely nothing to her.

He had had a thousand chances to tell her how much he loved her but chose that moment. The moment where she was telling him that she was done.

She was not going to be fooled.

She did not carve his love that much.

"I am sorry for all the pain that I have caused you, I know I didn't live you the way that you wanted to be loved ", he said as he came to where she was and sat on the bed.

"Just because you love me doesn't mean that I felt loved by you. All I felt was hate from you like I was the worst mistake you ever made. It isn't love if I have to ask for it. I don't want you to give me something before I asked for it ", Anna said getting exhausted already.

She did not want to explain to him how she wanted to be loved. She wanted him to know how she wanted to be loved. He would have known what she wanted if he had taken even a second trying to know her or her past.

"Just because you're sorry doesn't mean it doesn't hurt anymore. I still didn't deserve the hurt and a simple am sorry won't fix it. Am sorry doesn't fix anything . You hurt me and that's it, there's no coming back from certain things ", Anna said.

"Was I that bad of a husband ?", he asked her and Anna tried fighting the tears in her eyes.

"The fact that you have to ask it, yes you were a terrible husband ", Anna said as she let the tears fall down her face.

He had been a terrible husband and she had ignored it. Now that she thought about it she did not understand why she still hang on to him.

"Am sorry I made you go through that. Am not going to stop you from getting the divorce but don't stop me from trying to win you back. I want you in my life am sorry it took me this long to realize that ", he said as he held onto her hand.

"I will do whatever it takes to make sure I get you back. I want to be the reason you smile. I want to be the one that wipes your tears. I want to hear your ridiculous stories just so that I can spend more time with you", he said as he wiped her tears.

Tears that were being shade because of him, he was selfish.

Anna shook her head because his words meant nothing to her anymore. Words meant nothing and she knew never to fall in love with the same person twice.

The only difference was, she was never going to stop loving him.