4. Is this wrong?

Ashley's POV

While I was busy taking pictures with Racheal and the rest of the girls my eyes just couldn't stop looking for Michelle yea I know she doesn't like taking pictures according to what Racheal said but for some strange reasons something in me keeps pushing me to try asking her I know she might snub me or reply me rudely or just turn me down according to what Racheal's friends described her as I just presumed that this will be her reaction but for some strange reasons I feel like I should just give it a try lols I'm really feeling silly right now like if her girlfriend can't persuade to take pictures what makes me feel like I can lols I kept thinking while my eyes kept searching for her till I finally saw her sitting next to a man they looked like the were having a conversation , I felt my chest tightened at that sight I don't know why but I just didn't like the sight of her talking with someone else but why am I feeling this way oh maybe is cause I felt offended cause a guy is trying to hit on my friend's girlfriend, I felt myself walking towards them and I really had no idea why I'm walking towards them or what I'm going to say to them when I got their although I felt like someone was calling me from behind and it sounded like Racheal but I ignored her and I don't even know why, I just felt like sending this man away from Michelle was more important than anything right now.. damn what's wrong with me if Racheal that's her girlfriend doesn't really have an issue with this why am I bothered anyways I don't care this is what I feel is the right thing to do and I shoved away the thought and reached to them. Standing in front of Michelle while she's busy with her phone, is she really a phone addict or is she just trying to distract herself? I asked myself I guess I will settle for the latter, after waiting for a few seconds seems like she finally noticed me and she rose her head to look at who is standing in front of her, she gave me a confused look as if she's trying to ask what I want damn she looks so cute I couldn't just help it but smile widely I expected her to just look away but damn she smiled back at me I felt butterflies swimming in my stomach I almost forgot that their was a man sitting next to her damn what is she doing to me, I guess he felt embarrassed by the way we ignored his presence and stood up to leave while looking dejected the look on his face was really funny and pitiful at the same time I didn't know when I burst into laughter till I got back myself and I got my attention back to the cutie in front of me and she kept looking at me blushing really hard like a teenage girl that just got her first kiss from her crush but we are still teenagers anyways even though am just 17 lols I try as much as possible to hide my age from people so the don't look down on me and thankfully my body covered the lie so well I look more matured for my age so no one can even guess it unless I tell them, as I admired her for some time I didn't even know where I mustered the courage or how my mouth even moved and i asked her if I could take a picture of her and I regretted it immediately cause she looked like she was going to decline and by that time Racheal was already sitted beside her but not too close but close enough to hear our conversation but I didn't care at all I wonder where I got this guts from all of a sudden, she finally spoke" uhhh I-I do-nt like ta-king pic-tures she stuttered at that point I was feeling really embarrassed and I just couldn't give up and I tried persuading her once more with my biggest smile and puppy eyes I guess this melted her cause she smiled and agreed and when she agreed I don't know why I did that but I found my eyes going towards Racheal's direction giving her the face of " I did it" as if we are in some kind of competition for goodness sake wtf is wrong with me why am I competing for something that belongs to someone else not just someone else my friend but I guess she didn't get the message properly and she just smiled at me and I went back to take pictures of Michelle and it was then I got to see Michelle's face properly damn I know I said she looks just like the girl I used to be fond of back then,I take back my words she looks way better than her this is perfection, I wondered why this gorgeous being don't pictures like what a waste, well part of me kinda likes it at least she won't be snatched away by this social media predators but why do I care she's not even my girlfriend fuck! What's wrong with me.

I finally took as many pictures as I could and I showed her, she looked at it as if she wasn't elated in the slightest form damn what a creature. We moved back to where the rest where I sat opposite her while Racheal sat next to her and for some strange reasons I wished I was the one sitting next to her instead gwashh am loosing it. I kept looking at her without shifting my gaze I didn't even care if Racheal or anyone will notice me staring at her and I know she noticed it cause she tried not to look towards my direction I yearned for her to spare me a glance at least, as I kept looking at her I kept wondering why Racheal will treat such a treasure the way she does and all of a sudden i started harboring the thoughts of taking care of her and loving her properly just the way she deserves, I swore that I will never make her cry or stress her if I ever got the chance to have her but will I ever get the chance? Gwash harboring all these kinda thoughts and feelings for my friend's girlfriend is it really wrong? But if it's wrong why does it feel so right!. I shifted my gaze to Racheal and saw that she was trying to feed Michelle cause she hasn't been eating damn I felt my chest sting painfully as she opened her mouth to receive the food while smiling sheepishly like a fool, I was burning inside me I was almost crying like my heart has been torn into tiny pieces have never felt this kinda pain in my entire life and I didn't even understand why seeing her happy with her girlfriend hurt so much, I couldn't take it anymore I stood up and announced that I was ready to leave and Racheal tried persuading me to stay a little longer but i told her that my brother is waiting for me which was not totally a lie cause I stay with my brother lols I know you must be wondering how 2 adults of the opposite gender can stay in one room comfortably lols don't worry about that my brother just isn't my type and his a good boy, I guess my excuse worked on Racheal cause she gave in and I stole a glance at Michelle and she looked sad like someone was taking her favorite doll from her but she was trying to hide it or maybe am just seeing things cause why will she feel that way when her girlfriend is with her how stupid of me to think that she will be sad cause am leaving.