PREGNANCY

KATE

It's been a week since I promised to stay alive to help my mate.

It's a lot harder than I thought.

I have been doing what I can by helping to distract Diana in the littlest ways and I can tell she's doing all she can to not bite my head off.

Throughout this week I have had a constant visitor, Luca.

It's like he doesn't sleep or eat or do anything apart from sleep with me.

There was this one time he did it in school. I squirmed in his hold which caused him to hit me because apparently, he was going too easy on me.

If I ever do get pregnant, the child will definitely be for him.

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Gym is officially my best and worst class at the same time. It's the best because I get to see my mate and it's the worst because it weakens me.

The werewolves were going against each other in wolf form while we vampires would go against each other.

My mate shifted into a huge brown wolf with deep chocolate eyes.

He was bigger than any other wolf I had seen. I didn't understand why nobody was exclaiming or talking about it.

It took me a while but I understood why eventually. He cloaked his power, that was why I couldn't sense he was an Alpha until after we became mates. My teacher did say that the mate bond is stronger than anything else.

I was awed by the fact that only I could see his true wolf but I then remembered that Diana was also his mate in a weird magical way.

I internally deflated. Couldn't there be something that only I had from my mate, or only I could see?

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It's the first week in May already. Time really does fly.

It's Monday and I am already tired but I blame that on the fact that my parents made me cook food for Jessica and the prisoners of the other Hunters then I had to go and clean up after them.

School was basically the same as always but Jordan's friends tried getting me to talk to them.

I didn't talk to them because I need to live for their friend.

Luca and his pals looked at me like I was their evening meal which I probably was but I just couldn't care.

Jordan was my focus for the day. I was growing to like him. Unfortunately, it was merely a physical attraction. I wanted to know who he is on the inside but for now I am thankful for what I have.

His chocolate brown hair was slightly shorter today making it stand on his head unlike before where the tips slightly fall.

He wore dark denim jeans and a navy blue tee. They hugged his body bringing attention to his muscular physique.

His chocolate eyes reminded me of yummy chocolate it made me want to cry.

I didn't take into detail his face because if I did I would start crying. This being was just for me but now he's gone.

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Another week done and another week of a persistent visitor.

Today is Sunday and I don't feel well. Since Thursday, my appetite has been weird. I would be extremely hungry but when I feed I won't be able to finish my prey. I couldn't even finish a fox.

Today, I didn't feel hungry, no, I felt tired and my head was practically splitting.

It hurt but it wasn't something I wasn't used to so it didn't bother me much. I blamed it on my weird appetite.

By the end of the day, I was tired and sweating. I didn't understand what was going on. I made up my mind to go see the nurse the next day.

The next day was horrible. I was woken up by severe pains in my stomach. It felt like my stomach was being ripped apart and being sewed back together only for it to be ripped apart again.

I barely managed to make it to school and the first thing I did was visit the nurse but I did notice some stares from some other supernatural beings but I brushed it off thinking it was because of how tired I looked.

When I walked into her office, she immediately looked at me with disdain.

“What is it?” she asked gruffly.

I immediately explained to her what was wrong with me.

“You’re pregnant.” was what she told me.

“But, you didn't carry out any tests.” I cried.

“There’s no need, you show all the vampire pregnancy signs and I am surprised you can't smell the additional scent.” she pointed out.

I took a breather and indeed there was an additional scent.

I thanked her and left. My face was red with embarrassment and my eyes were full of tears.

How could this be? I mean, I know how but...

How will I face Jordan now? That was why the other supernaturals were looking at me, I was pregnant.

Later that day, his friends approached me when I was alone.

“Are you going to keep it?” Auburn hair asked me.

I couldn't reply, what was I going to say? How would I explain it to them?

I just left them there. I stayed out of sight till school ended.

There were so many things making me worried. I didn't know what my mate would think of me, I didn't know what my family would do to me and my child. They may kill my child, turn my child against me, use him or her as a weapon or even torture him or her.

My heart broke at the harsh reality. I didn't want to give birth to a child I couldn't love or care for.

If this ends and the hunters are stopped, how will my mate react? He may decide to reject me and I don't know if I will survive that.

School was over and I found myself kneeling down in the living room with my head bowed.

Jessica was in a corner as my father circled me.

“You just had to go and get pregnant didn't you? You just had to bring more shame. ”

He paused. He used his finger to raise my face up to meet his.

All I saw were blood red eyes and hatred.

“I really should kill you but you are needed unfortunately.” he then dropped my face.

“Get rid of the baby. I want no complications. When you're done, eat what is there for you in the kitchen.” father said to Jessica and left us.

I was crying at this point. I was going to loose my baby. An innocent baby.

“I’m sorry I have to do this. I really am but I want you to know that you have to trust and follow your instincts now.” Jessica whispered.

I didn't respond. I would worry about what she means later, right now I wanted to grieve over my baby.

One moment I was kneeling on the floor, the next I was laying down on my back facing the ceiling.

Jessica started mumbling some words. All of a sudden I felt like a hand that was all bones with sharp nails dug into my uterus and pulled something out of it.

It was extremely painful and I was starting to feel faint.

There was a light above me and when I looked at it, I saw a little lump. It had a black patch at on one part of it. It wasn't fully formed but I just knew that that was my baby. My baby girl.

I watched as she disintegrated before my very eyes. She was here and now she's gone.

Jessica left immediately after while I just laid there and I fell apart.

I couldn't stand it anymore. They had taken everything from me. My life, my freedom, my sanity, my mate, my baby, my dignity. They destroyed my hope and determination. They have turned me to a living corpse.

I got up and made my way to the kitchen. Jessica was eating now. I ignored her and went to where the knifes were located. I took one knife and looked at it. This was it, my ticket out.

I'm sorry Jordan, I promised you that I would stay alive for you but I just can't, I can't.

With that settled. I slit my throat.

The last thing I remembered was the knife falling from my hand and me hitting the floor. After, it all went black.

I opened my eyes expecting to be in the world of the dead only to be faced with darkness. I was confused. Wasn't I supposed to be dead?

The only good side to this was that I was away from my ‘family’.

Now that I was free, I screamed about everything. The pain, the heartache, everything.

When I was done screaming, I realized my foolishness and became ashamed.

What had I done?

Now that I was dead, my mate was going to die! He was going to be drank dry like all the other members of his pack.

I didn't deserve to be his mate or Luna. I broke under the pressure. But can I really be blamed here?

I had to start thinking about how I was going to get back.

Can vampires resurrect?

What had my selfishness caused? And after I said I was going to stay alive for my mate.

Jordan, the one that was supposed to love me, cherish me, protect me and care for me. He was in danger and I was supposed to protect him and save him and what do I do? I leave him and run away like the coward I am. I'm sure he hates me for many things. Like getting pregnant and leaving him.

But enough with the mopping I need to figure out a way to get out of here as soon as possible to rescue my Jordan.

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